what's wrong Mikie?

It's odd that I've always been slightly preoccupied with death. I mean it's sort of morbid, and I'm generally not that morbid of a person. You'd think something must have happened; like I'd lost someone at an early age or something. But no. I've never lost a close family member, or even a mild friend. I've lost distant, elderly family members I hardly knew, and I've seen and been affected by the death of close friends parents', but even that didn't happen until high school and later. No I really don't know why I've always jumped to the conclusion "they must have been in a wreck!" . Or why I've always worried when someone goes to the doctor that "they'll find out something awful".

Oh well, the upside is I generally try not to leave things with people unresolved, and I don't say mean things and walk away. So I guess that's something. Anyway I had a nap this afternoon so I'm not tired, but I HAVE to go to bed. So goodnight everyone. Have an awesome day and take care (see even "take care", I mean it like "be safe", "don't get in any accidents", "take care of your health", "avoid prolonged exposure to the sun's harsh ultraviolet rays").

Hi Kevin!

I have to agree with the whole morbid thought process. I have no idea why, but before I ever really had a reason to think along the "may be the last time I see them" thought process, I've worried about people never coming back.

I kind of wonder if it's just not something that's programmed into us, that we worry about being left alone, by ourselves with no family/friends. I mean, small children go through a panic stage when if their immediate care taker leaves them they tend to freak out and sometimes, with some children they refuse to be consoled (sp? "calmed down") because they just KNOW that they have been left behind. I sometimes wonder if as we grow older we just learn to "put those feelings aside" b/c they have been deamed unimportant. I mean, as humans, especially in some parts of the world we, we are pretty safe. I don't live in an area where I worry (no more so than my neighbors anyway ) that if/when I go to sleep that I'll be waking up in the moring. I mean if we lived 100 years ago that thought would probably be perfectly normal, but times have changed to an extent.

So, to be perfectly honest...I don't think that's weird at all. I've been doing that my whole life! lol, to me it just means you care and worry about the person your thinking about. And that's a good thing! Good grief, I say "Take Care" to everyone I see/talk to. Now I'm going to have a complex. My closing line on nearly any and all face to face/phone/writing is: Take Care and have a good evening/morning/day/ etc.

In closing I'm going to say: Take Care, Have a great weekend (what's left of it) an awsome spring break (just simply cuz there's NO CLASSES!) and I hope your Monday's a good day!

- Kaiten