Hey guys, sorry I havent been on in a while. With that Justin thing and family things, I've had way too much stress lately so I've been trying to work against it by exercising and stuff and staying off the computer. I figure I don't need to be sitting on my computer for 6 hours a day and not doing anything, because when you're stressed, you gain weight and I'm not gonna go and gain weight, lol. Plus, we've been busy a lot with the play - been rehearsing till like 6:30 on some nights and it's gonna probably be getting later when we run both act 1 and 2 together.

Sooo.... for those of you who are wondering how my little world is doing...

I had said a while ago that I wanted to befriend that gay guy in the play, Danie, but he kinda seems stuck up. I've tried talking to him like 3-4 times but he ends the conversation after only saying a few words. One day I was wishing I could like maybe come out to all the people in drama or like everyone but my family because everyone in drama, everyone, is tolerant of Danie being gay. I noticed they tease him every so often with jokes but its all in fun. It could be that all the drama guys are gay, lol, that's a thought. A lot of them seem "gay", if you will. It was funny, because one day me and a few guys were talking about this website joke...."dude, you ever been to pen island . com??" They type it in...penisland.com...yea, haha, you get it...so this girl walks up and hears us talk about "penis" and she's like, "God! Is there not one straight guy here?" And no one stuck up for their sexuality with the typical "I ain't gay!", so that's curious to note.

I did meet this one guy from the play . He's another Justin...lol, so 2 out of my 2 friends named Justin are hot, heh. He's kinda buff from lifting weights but not too heavily. He's about my height, a little shorter and has a HOT body. He seems like he's always smiling too. He's in the servant scene and he just does it so damn cute. I love sitting there watching him, me smiling the whole time; then I noticed he would smile back. He kinda acts gay too...Ooo, then today, Moulton told us to get up and have a big group hug...everyone started hugging everyone else...he hugged me and damn was that cool...he's got such a strong but gentle hug, hehe.

I've also made quite a few more friends in drama since the play started. My mom is sorta crazy and sometimes she embarhasses herself and me in public...one day someone said something about their mom, I'm like, "Well my mom is crazy" and then this Mike I've known since grade school was like, "Yea, yea I'm gonna have to agree with you on that one". Then a few people told their witnessed account of how they saw my mom speak her mind in public, and I'm like, "I'm sorry...lol". This one girl says, "It's okay Ronnie, we won't count it against you for what she does" lol, "Heh, thanks".

Then I'm gonna be getting confirmed this Fall and I told a few of you that I'm gonna have my confirmation name be "Sebastian", because ( a ) it's a cool name and I like it ( b ) there's sort of some hidden symbolism in there (Saint Sebastian was a Roman Soldier and the Romans found out that he was a Christian so they strung him up to a tree and shot him with like 20 arrows. He miraculously didnt die, and was nursed back to health. They found out he was still alive and they beat him to death. So, if you will, he was persecuted once they found out "what" he was). Well I planned to ask my uncle of whom I'm named after to be my Confirmation Sponsor. Well, me and my mom havent been getting a long all that well for a long time. She's a bitch, if she wants to be a bitch, I can be an asshole right back. I don't necessarily try to start fights but if she wants to go, let's go. Well if she hits me, I'm not gonna just stand there and take it. I'm gonna defend myself. One night, me and my brother were wrestling (we normally do once in a while) but it turned ugly and we were like killing each other. So "good ole mom" decides she has to get involved so she comes at me with the broom and starts hitting me with it! WTF?! She had me cornered in the bathroom trying to hit me so I slapped her face like three times, pushed her out of the way and went down to the basement to be alone. So she calls up my aunts and turns the rest of my family against me, saying "you should see how he's treating me" and adding tears to get them on her side. Of course she doesn't say what she did. So that was about a month and a half ago. My mom and dad go out of town today for a doctors appointment for my dad, and they stopped to see my uncle Ron, because he lives in the town of the appointment. He comes out to the car with a baseball bat and looks for me in the backseat (even though I wasnt there, they told me about this later). "What's this bullshit I hear that Ronnie is mistreating my sister?" Then he hits my dad in the leg with it and tells him "What are you letting him treat her like that for?" Well my mom and dad got divorced like when I was 3, so he's more than aware of what a pain in the ass it is to live in the same household with my mom. I'd like to tell the rest of my family how it really is but they probably won't believe me. I'm thinking about having a microphone ready for when she starts her bitch spells out of nowhere so they can see that it takes two. My mom said that I better watch out at Fourth of July...we always go to this small town east of here on Fourth of July, my family's been doing that since before I was born; she said that he said something about beating the shit out of me . I didnt do anything! So now she turned my uncle that I was gonna ask to be my sponsor, against me.

Quarter 3 ended yesterday (got a 4.0 ) and 4 began today, so there's a little less than 45 school days of school left, 63 days total with weekends, left before the summer. I think I'm gonna go back to KFC after the play gets over with because otherwise all the college students around here are gonna take all the jobs and I need a job because I've gotta get my own car. I'm sick of her taking the car whenever she wants when I plan to use it.....it may be her car but I think I should be able to use it when I want to because I had about $1600 saved up last summer (I had to spend about $300-400 for Xander and Jayne, I'll be getting half of that back from my brother when he gets a job) and SOMEONE had financial troubles and guilt tripped me like ump-teen times to help "us" out. She told me she would pay me back with income tax whenever she borrowed money from me, but evidently, she made other plans for that, so I won't get completely paid back till like August .

Well there's all my little quirks and complaints, later guys .

Ronnie