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The End

Mikiesboy

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*************      WARNING... thoughts about death and dying.   **************

 

To be honest, the thought of dying was terrifying to me.

i thought about it all the time. First thought in the morning and the last at night. For years.

Today, maybe i'm more accepting that, frankly, there is no damn choice in the matter. Now maybe how i die is what i dwell on. If given a choice, i'd rather just go to sleep and not wake up.

That's why surgery really doesn't scare me. If i die there, i'll never know about it.

Lingering scares me. i watched my mum die a slow death when i was a kid. She was brave but in pain and it was horrible to see her suffer and leave me more and more each day. I don't want to die that way. I know she didn't either.

Leaving people behind scares me too. i don't want them to hurt. i guess as well, i don't want to be forgotten.

But, realistically, most of us will be.  i don't have children to carry on the family or anything, either. People who knew me will remember, until their time comes too.

And i wonder, likes lots of us, is this it?  Is there more (i really don't think so) but it would be cool if there was.  But in the cold light of day, i think this is it. We are a fluke in this universe. We are bits of flotsam and we will just join all those who came before and are now gone.

We each of us are here for only a brief, shining moment in time.

i guess we need to do our best with it.

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MichaelS36

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you're right of course. 

Living includes dying.  There isn't a choice in that.  What we do with our time, is. 

How we love and care for others is a choice and the most important things we'll do. 

We cannot let knowing our ultimate fate, stop us from living everyday.  It is built into us to work, to live and love. 

And since we are here, then we may as well. 

you have seen the worst in people, experienced much we never should in your life. Leave it now in the past and enjoy what we have today and tomorrow. xo

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Mikiesboy

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8 minutes ago, MichaelS36 said:

you're right of course. 

Living includes dying.  There isn't a choice in that.  What we do with our time, is. 

How we love and care for others is a choice and the most important things we'll do. 

We cannot let knowing our ultimate fate, stop us from living everyday.  It is built into us to work, to live and love. 

And since we are here, then we may as well. 

you have seen the worst in people, experienced much we never should in your life. Leave it now in the past and enjoy what we have today and tomorrow. xo

You are right too, and i won't quit trying. xo

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@MichaelS36 Your thoughts on this matter are perfectly perfect. 
Thank you. :) 

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MichaelS36

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2 hours ago, Reader1810 said:

@MichaelS36 Your thoughts on this matter are perfectly perfect. 
Thank you. :) 

Thank you. Now and again.  

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kbois

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Thank you for this tim. 

I've seen death claim a few people in my lifetime. I'm extremely grateful my mom slipped away peacefully. I wish she hadn't lingered for as long as she did. The last week was tough to watch. 

I don't believe in an afterlife either. I do think, however, that we each hold an energy within us that when we die, goes on to become part of something else. Not a soul, not a reincarnation, not a ghost. Just pure energy. If it's not the case, so be it. 

You and anyone one else who has shared their works will live on for however long this site exists. Words are powerful and yours have made an impact. 

We all need to do what we can to live our lives the best way we are able to. Take the good with the bad and in the end, know that we are loved. 

xo

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