I'm Selling Myself
So my boss is always talking about how our clients don't buy the product first, they buy us first. It's been a slow week. I guess I just need to get out there and "sell myself".
I guess I shouldn't complain though, I've pretty much been taking it easy. It's hard to get back into the habit of working. Especially when I don't have to (I'm an independent, self-employed agent of the company, so unless I do something actively wrong - I. E. damaging to the company - I won't get fired and can pretty much do what I want). I definitely want to get rolling, and I plan to, but I don't really mind easing into it.
Today was pretty good I got some stuff done...not as much as I should have, but some. I even impressed the boss a bit. I was supposed to go out and leave info and stuff with 2 of my coworkers, but the other 2 didn't show (one did call though). So my boss was actually like thanking me just for doing what I was supposed to be doing in the first place . Anyway I think once I actually get down to brass tacks as it were I'll do pretty well. I'm enjoying it for the most part.
Anyway I really want to make it work because I just love how flexible and low pressure it is! So I'm planning to be really good and productive tomorrow .
In other news my grandfather had his 85th birthday today! He's in really great shape, mentally and physically, for a man his age. I hope I'm that well off when I'm his age....actually I doubt I will be though. I'm already ditsier. I also don't get near as much excercise as he did at my age. OH, I think I get a pretty good amount, probably much more than the average American, but he was actively working on a farm walking leveys, shoveling rice, and repairing fence when he my age. I just go for a walk in the park and do some exercises everyday...not bad...but not the same. Anyway I'm counting on modern medicene to keep me from loosing my marbels and being physically decrepit.
I also realized today that I can never "go home" to any of my old familar places. My family home definitely wouldn't be the same now that my grandmother's Alzheimer's is getting worse. Not that I'd want to live there anyway though. I haven't in over 4 years and I've been much happier and better adjusted on my own. It's just ashame how different it is. I also can't go back to my rook site or my spade site, both are literally GONE now! I guess it's just as well that I wondered away from both before they went defunct, that makes it a little easier, but it's still ashame. I do still have the means to contact the people I used to play with/be friends with if I wanted to, and I could go to the new places...but I'm sure I won't. There's also obviously no going back to anything I had in Baton Rouge either. I guess it's pointless thinking about it, it just makes me a little sad that all the old familar places are completely gone now. But I'm happy in Houston and I'm happy at GA, so I'll just press on. Besides I like adapting. I'm after new adventures and I didn't PLAN on going back to any of the old ones anyway so I guess it doesn't really matter if they're there or not.
Speaking of new adventures as premature as this sounds I've already decided that I want to move to NYC sometime in the next 5-11 years. I want at least 5 years to properly explore Houston, then, depending on whether or not I can get a transfer at work, I'm off to the Big Apple (if I can't get a transfer it'll be 10 or 11 years). From there? Well I don't know yet. I think I'd love to live NO WHERE for 2 or 3 years and just travel around Europe and Asia, the uncertainty of that WOULD have been enough to make me seriously freak just 2 years ago, but I'm not the same in that regard. Frankly I think I'd love it, as long as I could do it comfortably that is (no "backpacking" for this boy thanks), I've never "roughed it" in my life and I sure don't plan to start as I get older, lol I'd be lost without my wardrobe, and skin/hair care products . LOL so I'll definitely have to wait till I've gotten a bit (well QUITE A BIT) more money, but I think I'd love it. I think I'd like to end my days in Canada or the UK. Probably Canada. America just needs to get a whole lot more liberal (and butt out of everyone else's business) for me to want to stay here forever. [disclaimer: I'm not knocking America, I love it here and am appreciative for all I have. I'm just expressing my own personal opinion and not trying to convince anyone to go along with it.] How would a boyfriend fit into all this? Dunno, I'd stick around where ever if I were in a good relationship, I'm by no means in favour of living my life without a soulmate, or leaving one behind/making things more difficult, but I'm not going to settle or give up my indepenence for just anyone either. SO I guess it all depends on the person, where I meet him (or her I suppose. I don't plan to be with a woman, but I think it's too closed minded (for me personally) to rule that out, besides if I'm honest I'm like 5% straight and I don't really care about all the labeling junk. I'd rather a guy in most cases but I'll fall in love with whomever I fall in love with), and where we each are in lives. But it'll work out Besides all these silly plans are just pie in the sky anyway. I doubt most of it will materialize, but it's nice to dream
Anyway I'm sorry if I offended anyone in this blog, it might have been a bit more blunt and obnoxious than I usually am in my blog entries, but that's just what was on my mind tonight and I didn't particularly feel like censoring.
Have a fantastic day and take care everyone!
Kevin
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