Hey everyone!
For everyone who saw my last blog entry and is wondering where it went, I set it as a draft (invisible). It was basically just me bitching about a friend of mine (no one at GA) who kinda wore me out and ticked me off. I did mean what I said, but I mostly just needed to vent and just writing it out made me feel better, so I decided not to leave it up just in case he, or a different mutual friend who knows him or something, ever happened across it somehow. I wouldn't want to hurt his feelings or anything, and as I said, I feel better now
Mods and Admin can still see the entry, and that's fine I don't care. like I said I just decided I didn't want it out there for the whole world.
Anyway, a few paragraphs of the blog were fairly informative and not ranty so here's a recap of those:
In other news, my date with Ryan went wonderfully. Between our packed schedules the next time we'd get a chance to hang out is late Tuesday night, so *shrug* maybe we will. Dunno yet, but the date was alota fun. I actually can't really figure out how I feel about him. I've decided the best course of action is simply to keep an open mind and go out with him again. Regardless, it was fun so it's not like I'd have any regrets even if it didn't work out.
Also, FF (former friend if you'll remember) has been acting really weird. By weird I mean really nice and friendly and interested in what's going on in my life. Of course I've been acting weird too...basically doing the exact same thing. I'm going to chalk it up to us being two nice people (I never said he wasn't) who still care about each other. It was weird though, I was asking Scott about his job interview, and he was asking Luke about my date, and then when we saw each other we actually asked in person, and seemed legitimately happy for the other. So yeah. LOL, he also got a very subtle joke I made that no one else picked up on, but then he was always good at that too. Anyway, as I've said many times I don't want to be close with him again, at least not any time in the foreseeable future, but I guess I like where our relationship has evolved to now.
Scott and I are going with William and a friend of his to the beach tomorrow. That'll be really nice. I really love hanging out with William and just haven't been able to spend as much time with him recently. The good thing about William is that everything is so delightfully simple. He's very drama free. It just rolls right off his shoulders, he doesn't go out of his way to take stuff personally or to get upset for nothing, and he very quickly gets over anything. I just don't have to wonder with William. He likes me. I like him. We're friends. That's enough, we just behave accordingly and everything's cool. No crazy, unreasonable expectations, or insecurities, or jealousy, or anything else. Just friendship. It's great; he's definitely my simplest friend. If/when I do have a serious boyfriend I'd very VERY much like to model my relationship with him after what William and I have going.
Anyway, to go into a bit more detail about Ryan, we met up at the Mall, chatted and walked around for awhile, then we had dinner, caught a movie, played some pool, and then hung out at my place for awhile. It was nice, I had a really fund time, and it felt almost like the 'classic' date.
As I said, I still don't really know how I feel about him or what I want, which is why, like I said, I'm just going to go out with him a few more times and see what happens.
It's so cute, he's so 'straight'. Not really obviously, but he only came out a year ago (he's my age for the record), and he doesn't have any gay friends, so he's still sorta like a straight guy, lol. Doesn't kiss like one though
Anyway, I know alota gays guys like 'straight acting' guys, but really that's not my thing. I'm not saying it's a huge turn-off or anything, indeed I'm pretty neutral about for the most part, but yeah it's definitely not something I look for at all. I do feel a bit like we're from two very different worlds, not just the gay/straight thing (well he is gay!), but alota other things too. Still, it might be fun. I like to go to new worlds anyway
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