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Bottoming Out (and no this is not a sexual reference)

Tiger

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These days I am feeling profoundly depressed. I just don't know how I can take it much longer. Everything in my life seems to be a complete wreck. I feel as though I am next to nothing, as though every thing I touch just turns to sh*t. I think I really need to get to a doctor soon, or I don't know what will happen. This time seems even worse than the time when I was in my teens, but not quite as bad as the episode during my early 20's. Still, it does not seem to subside at all. Right now I don't even care if I live or die. I know that's a terrible thing to say, but that is where I am. Some might have also noticed that this kind of mood actually does inspire me to write poetry, though it tends to become a lot darker. I even go into a mode where past emotions come back to haunt me, and then I add it to my poetry. This is a good coping mechanism at times; at other times it makes me feel even worse. I just don't think it's enough of a coping mechanism. Something has to change, or I may not be able to take it anymore.

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GaryK

Tim, hopefully you're just stressed-out because of the move, the electrical problems and some other issues. You have my phone number. Call me at any hour if you need to talk. :wub:

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AFriendlyFace

:hug:

 

Oh Tim, I'm so sorry :(

 

You definitely should consult a therapist. Try to take it easy and relax :hug:

 

Let me know if you need anything,

Kevin

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Bandage

:hug:

 

Awww... It's a pity a nice guy like you has to put up with this..

I do hope that one day you'll find someone you'll be able to talk about this, and can find a way out, together with that person...

 

Do remember that we all support you!

 

And yea, if you need anything...

 

Niels

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Tiger

Thanks for the concern. I am not always like that. It's just that some moments are worse than others. I don't mean to alarm anyone. Those moments where I feel like the sky is about to collapse upon me are definitely more than I can bear at times.

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Daisy

hia, yeah goodluck with everything. I don't really know what to say, there isnt really. Apart from encouragement and support, they are invaluable. My encouragement is that my mum is working through what sounds very simular to what you described. and tbh I didnt think she would make it. to even me it seemed like a totally hopeless situation because all I was doing seemed to be failing and everything was going wrong, but I wasnt stopping at trying everything to help her. and she is pulling through, what seemed impossible is transforming. she's not back to being herself (sans depression) completely, but she's making incredible progress. however I can't say it was/is easy either. you are not alone with this feeling, or alone without support/friends (as shown by those on here). proffessional support is the thing that has allowed her to feel better, so I hope that you manage to find what you need to support you, health is the most important thing above all.

 

(sorry, I just thought I'd add a comment, I know I don't really know you)

Goodluck,

Celia

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