Rant

[Hayden L]

Ok, so yeah. Today sucked! I got hurt in Saturday's game and haven't been able to get a good night's sleep since. Now, it's Sunday night and I have a s#@t load of studying to do, a paper to finnish and I'm freaking hungry! Oh, yeah, I have like NO MONEY!!! And, the dude I am totally in love with just asked me if he could use my dorm room to "spend some time with his new gf" and being the completely pathetic person that I am, I said yes. Sigh. So, I'm sitting here, in the library, by myself while he is with her in MY room.

 

I'm not sure when I'll be able to play again cause the Dr. said I'll be out for the season. I may need surgery. So, it looks like any prospects of going to a bigger school is out.

 

I can't even ride my bike cause of this stupid ankle. I can't afford gas anyway, so whatever.

 

Anyway, that's my lil self-pitty rant.

Edited November 12, 2012 by Hayden93

[Y_B]

Do you have a spy cam set up in your room?

[MJ85]

GA Blogs

 

This would be a much better medium for posts like these.

[JamesSavik]

If you had to get hurt, November is the time to do it. There's just a few games left.

 

Focus on healing and school. Everything will work itself out.

 

Remember- you fans are here. Patience is difficult but required.

[Bill W]

Hayden, take care of yourself first. It would probably be good to focus on your coursework and paper, because it will help take your mind off of sports for now. Tell the guy in your room that he owes you a few bucks rental, so you can get some food. Hell, have him go get it for you. If there's anything we can do to help, just PM one of us. Best of luck.

[thatboyChase]

Do you have a spy cam set up in your room?

 

2 SOON BRO

[NotNoNever]

Do you have a spy cam set up in your room?

 

Ewch

 

And illegal!

 

However, there's nothing like having a life straight out of a gay storyline!

[Hayden L]

Ewch

 

And illegal!

 

However, there's nothing like having a life straight out of a gay storyline!

 

LMFAO You guys are too freaking funny.

[Hayden L]

If you had to get hurt, November is the time to do it. There's just a few games left.

 

Focus on healing and school. Everything will work itself out.

 

Remember- you fans are here. Patience is difficult but required.

 

Yeah my coach said that exact same thing. I just need to prove that I can play and that I contribute to the team. It's just me being overly competitive.

 

I finished the paper and already emailed it to my professor.

 

Hayden, take care of yourself first. It would probably be good to focus on your coursework and paper, because it will help take your mind off of sports for now. Tell the guy in your room that he owes you a few bucks rental, so you can get some food. Hell, have him go get it for you. If there's anything we can do to help, just PM one of us. Best of luck.

 

Lol, yeah I made him buy me breakfast AND lunch today. He admitted to me that they didn't have sex last night and that they are just going to be friends. Ha ha, I am a lil relieved about that, but I know I shouldn't. He's as str8 as they come

 

Anyway, I go see a Sports Medicine/Orthopedic Surgeon on Thursday -___- My mom sent me $200 today and I never told her I was broke. I guess it's just a Mom thing that she knew

[Hayden L]

Do you have a spy cam set up in your room?

 

I actually thought about leaving my cam turned on. Does that make me an evil person? lol

[Cia]

I actually thought about leaving my cam turned on. Does that make me an evil person? lol

 

It makes you a horny teenager.*snickers* The guys here do tend to help lighten the mood when things seem to be at that point of frustration. You should just ignore Yang though, he's a perv of the nth degree! Remember all those cases of the whole video camming/college cases that cropped up a little while back? You might not intend for anyone to find out but if they did? If he's a friend, you'd not want to do that to him. I was never a gay college guy, but I have to think you're going to have plenty of friends, plenty of crushes, and then good opportunities with the right guys. Don't let momentary hormones get in the way and screw up your life.

 

Oh, and moms do tend to just know when their kiddos need something, the good ones anyway. Sounds like you have a good one.

[TetRefine]

Straight guys are good for masturbating. Its best to just leave emotions out of it.

[Celethiel]

It makes you a horny teenager.*snickers* The guys here do tend to help lighten the mood when things seem to be at that point of frustration. You should just ignore Yang though, he's a perv of the nth degree! Remember all those cases of the whole video camming/college cases that cropped up a little while back? You might not intend for anyone to find out but if they did? If he's a friend, you'd not want to do that to him. I was never a gay college guy, but I have to think you're going to have plenty of friends, plenty of crushes, and then good opportunities with the right guys. Don't let momentary hormones get in the way and screw up your life.

 

Oh, and moms do tend to just know when their kiddos need something, the good ones anyway. Sounds like you have a good one.

 

Ha! i should hope you were never a gay college guy...

[Xtro]

Heyden, James is right. Take it from someone who has one snapped ACL (left knee) and one shattered ankle (right foot) - no matter how competitive you are, or the rest of the team, unless you rest the injury you'll end up with it worse if you're not careful. Seriously. Just do the school work, Thanksgiving & Christmas - then think about getting back into a training routine.

 

As for money? C'mon! Where's your initiative? Think motel, and rent the room by the hour (or part thereof!)

 

As for the straight guys comment - I've never had one offer, so I wouldn't know...

[Hayden L]

Heyden, James is right. Take it from someone who has one snapped ACL (left knee) and one shattered ankle (right foot) - no matter how competitive you are, or the rest of the team, unless you rest the injury you'll end up with it worse if you're not careful. Seriously. Just do the school work, Thanksgiving & Christmas - then think about getting back into a training routine.

 

As for money? C'mon! Where's your initiative? Think motel, and rent the room by the hour (or part thereof!)

 

As for the straight guys comment - I've never had one offer, so I wouldn't know...

 

Yeah I know. The Trainer just gave me a lecture about that too. Everyone is telling me to just chill. I see a specialist on Thursday.

 

It just sucks to be so in love with this guy knowing that NOTHING will ever happen. Everyone here just thinks it just some kid crush, but it's more than that. smh

[Cia]

Do you think any of us haven't been there though? We have. We've all had the unattainable person we really wish we could be with at some point-and for whatever reason, it just wasn't to be. I wouldn't call you a kid either, I was married at your age and then struggling to deal with the aftermath of a car accident that crippled my right leg. You are a legally an adult, but you're still also a teenager. Biologically, you are a seething mass of hormones still and guess what drives attraction? You can't always divorce how you feel about someone as to why you feel that way about them, or that it could/would/probably will change, when you're in the heat of the emotions. I remember being 21 and having a crush on a guy I worked with cause omg was he hot and sweet and we really got along. (Yes, I was still married, no I did not do anything). We aren't trying to mock your own feelings, just acknowledge that really, it's something most people go through and get over.

[Y_B]

Tell me bout it...Cia's been adamantly refusing me since day one. But that's alright, one day she'll realize I'm the real deal and will fall heels over head for my big throbbing heart.

Edited November 14, 2012 by Cia
To tell you to keep dreaming baby!

[Y_B]

As far as your friend goes, you're sol. My suggestion to try to shake it off sooner than later b/c unless you're ready to buying into the nifty idea of straight guys falling left and right for their gay friends (which I don't think you are), this is gonna ruin you. Your time in school's limited and these couple years are gonna go by faster than you think and what Cia said is right, you're gonna make tons of friends and have tons of opportunity with other guys who ARE willing and even if it's not obvious they are, part of the fun (at least to me) is figuring it out and playing some of that guessing game....but unless you are willing to get over your friend and move forward, none of that will happen or you'll be with someone else and not having fun cuz all you can think about is your friend and that's shitty.

 

As far as straight guys go, and I know it's not what you're talking about but since a couple of people have spun the topic in that direction...idk what kinda school you go to but the whole "straight guy" being influenced to go gay for now thing is so undeniably over-fantasized it's as unrealistic as it comes, esp with the whole alcohol things. Not saying I have the best grasp on those situations but in my experiences i have yet to get anyone straight or gay to do anything with me under the influence of alcohol but that also may be because if I'm around people who are intoxicated, I am too, and when I'm drinking I always end up just having fun and eventually pass out or whatever instead of using the opportunity to start hitting on people and I'm not one of those people who absentmindedly hit on guys cuz one I'm not out, two, I cant get it up drunk anyways....The only times I've ironically gotten some indication of possibility or even had things happen were under sober conditions of mutual agreeability that this is just for fun, just experimental, just "to see', etc etc blah blah and if you play your cards right, these kinda guys will come your way too, especially since you're in the sports world where camaraderie is high and people trust each other, especially if you're openly gay...but don't go looking for it or push for it or you'll get a bloody mouth, let it come to you.

[Ashi]

Oh, Y_B, oh, Y_B..., when are you going to be openly gay? If you finally found some strength to get out there and get a real nice boyfriend, I'll be helping you pick your wedding dress. LOL I don't know why I enjoy making fun of you, but I think you're really a sweet guy under all that silliness (hoping Hayden would hear this).

 

No, Hayden, absolutely don't fall for a straight guy. It's just totally confusing and it'll mess up your life! You don't wanna be in denial all these years and when your friend get married, and you still tell him to be happy and have a happy marriage, like you let him have the room with his GF and you mope in the library. It's sad.... Quickly get over it, please. It's like taking a vaccine. You think you'd get hurt, but as soon as the needle is in, it's not that bad. Same thing can be sad with getting over a guy you thought you'd hurt like really bad when leaving him.... Trust me, human protection mechanism will kick in (I thought I would cry my eyes out, but I didn't. I cried more thinking about him than learning he was married. Then after that, he felt totally unattractive to me, and I was like, what the heck was I thinking). If it doesn't, buy yourself a pint of ice cream.

[rustle]

Oh, Y_B, oh, Y_B..., when are you going to be openly gay? If you finally found some strength to get out there and get a real nice boyfriend, I'll be helping you pick your wedding dress. LOL I don't know why I enjoy making fun of you, but I think you're really a sweet guy under all that silliness (hoping Hayden would hear this).

 

No, Hayden, absolutely don't fall for a straight guy. It's just totally confusing and it'll mess up your life! You don't wanna be in denial all these years and when your friend get married, and you still tell him to be happy and have a happy marriage, like you let him have the room with his GF and you mope in the library. It's sad.... Quickly get over it, please. It's like taking a vaccine. You think you'd get hurt, but as soon as the needle is in, it's not that bad. Same thing can be sad with getting over a guy you thought you'd hurt like really bad when leaving him.... Trust me, human protection mechanism will kick in (I thought I would cry my eyes out, but I didn't. I cried more thinking about him than learning he was married. Then after that, he felt totally unattractive to me, and I was like, what the heck was I thinking). If it doesn't, buy yourself a pint of ice cream.

 

I recommend Blue Bell Southern Blackberry Cobbler.

[Hayden L]

Well, thanks everyone. I actually talked to him tonight. He asked me what was wrong cause I started avoiding his calls and texts. So, I just told him how I felt. He just sat there for a lil while then said that he loves me too, but like a brother. We talked for a lil over an hour and now, I guess it's pretty clear to me, so I am gonna move on.

 

So, we'll see. -____- I'm not sad, really, but just feel a lil empty. At least I have exams to face, so I'll be too busy to think about it anymore.

[Ashi]

So, we'll see. -____- I'm not sad, really, but just feel a lil empty. At least I have exams to face, so I'll be too busy to think about it anymore.

 

You'll find someone.

[TetRefine]

You should download Grindr.

[Y_B]

Tet...such a bad influence.

[TetRefine]

Tet...such a bad influence.

 

All us gay boys discover it at some point. Might as well be when your young.

Edited November 15, 2012 by TetRefine