Kileoli

I do believe you but I guess even a wizard has his limitations, especially a peaceful one. And I thought her shoes have no shoelaces. The only thing left is to accept my the secret author challenge and write the story of the poor unlucky knights.... BTW I don't understand why you want to tame that Fabulous one ( that's Krista, right?)

I thought that was the whole point of therapy to put them in boxes 😅 That's a good approach but my problem is with things I can't do anything about. They still trigger the " anger, depression. guilt, hatred spiraling" in me and it takes me a lot of time to get back. I see you are rolling your eyes at "things I can't do'... but it's part of me. Probably me trying to torture and punish myself, self resentment?!. I'm working on not checking the news which fails everyday. Besides people ask and mention the latest status of things. That's a great thing. I have managed to keep the home problems at home. But since I work a lot from home. It's difficult to keep the work stress away from home. At least I shove kids' problems in a box and let my husband deal with it. 🤣 I could do it but it's difficult to ignore the future when you are job hunting and the market looks bad and very full. I gave up being picky but it's still no help being the second best who doesn't get the job. I can learn a few things to put on my CV but I'm too old to reorient and restart. That's a great thing, nothing special for a demon but for your human side it's something, I have this feeling you have reached this point of your working career that you don't have to challenge everyone and everything. I don't know if I ever arrive there but in 10 years we have gotten rid of the kids ( or they have taken over the house with their friends turning it into a permanent hell). Either case, one worry is gone. Thanks for sharing and I'm glad you got past your panic attacks. I should probably put the things I can't change to a separate box and the start dealing with the rest.

@Jason Rimbaud I just had an idea. You make a post with your Krista trolling action. The first 3 who likes it are the knights joining you. Then you just need Myr to turn these people into it. What happens afterwards we will never know. I'm not sure if anyone survives the rage of Krista... Even Jeff respects ( read is scared of) her and that says something. You are a brave man, Jason. And stop taking too many painkillers.

Definitely dark. I'm still waiting for the day when I can choose rainbow and glitter.

And I got my phone back...after 10 minutes. But that's another story.

Yep. I was sorta busy lately, working. I mean seriously I was preparing the presentations which are not ready. I was sorta depressed, sorta spiraling but I guess I'm fine now. It had been very stressful the last two weeks but Liam and I have a PhD in procrastination. Never underestimate us!

So you checked, sir!?😎 They have a nice hotel there and it's not shady or anything. It's pretty famous. We still gonna keep our hotel room since we don't know if we find a room free there to stay and we have no intention of carrying our luggage. That's one big disadvantage of a conference. You can't travel light because you have to look professional. Let me check... I thought it was a horse but now that you said....I have to look close. I'll report but without pictures. They are not really allowed

This is the hotel we considered to try. I know which room I want. The problem is you can't really book so we have to see what is available at the time.😇 https://hotelalphain.com/room-tariff-6f/

I don't see a reason to do something so scary. But you can do it, we believe in you.

That's a smart move. For me is " this bothers me" box so I don't have any categories. I can start labeling them, then I have to open the main box. I don't know if I can shift anything under the big load. But if I put on an anti- catastrophic suit ....😅

The slide had stopped meaning anything twelve minutes ago, though Liam had not yet allowed himself to admit that, and instead kept adjusting the diagram in small, increasingly precise ways that created the illusion of progress without altering the underlying problem. The desk was too full, a reflection of what was going on in his head, written notes fanned out in uneven stacks, a pen without a cap drying slowly near his elbow, his laptop angled just slightly off-center so that the overhead

So… I have this Pandora’s box in a dirty dusty corner of my brain. It's nothing fancy like that mythological one with multiple functions and scary stuff. Mine is more like a badly organized box where I throw in stress, random thoughts, emotions, unresolved stuff, a bit of existential crisis, mid life crisis, other crisis, some fuck-my-life moments, stuff I promise myself to deal with them and never do, and whatever chaos didn’t fit into the day. It’s pretty efficient when I dump things in it, as in: open the lid, throw stuff in it, the quickly close the lid → now I can function like a normal human (or at least pretend convincingly). Now there's this little problem to the whole thing: The box is not actually that efficient or quiet. It leaks this sticky black thing. Sometimes it hums at nights. Sometimes it throws things back at me at 3am like “remember this? no? GOOD, HERE IT IS AGAIN.” So the smart thing would be, not to open it ever again and just sit on top of it and hope physics does it work and things settle at some point. But first I need to open it from time to time to dump some stuff , second there are these times my brain is like: “hey… what if we open it just a little bit and look inside for the sake of science?what’s the worst that could happen?” Spoiler: hell! So my carefully balanced world end in full chaos mode. I seriously would not recommend listening to that voice. So now I’m wondering— do other people have one of these “do not open under any circumstances” boxes that you still kinda want to open it? And how do you work around it or handle the chaos when opened? Don't tell me you never open it! It's one hell of a fun to engage in the spirals ...

I'm not really sure if anyone can victimize you without being haunted or something. What I like most is your new profile picture of the four fabulous knights. Who are they? Just take some painkillers and let the world mortifies you for a while. Since only your ankle is broken you can definitely find a solution for your problem 😎

That was one scary complicated thing. A combination of god father and one note. And I didn't know it existed. Ok now up to the next series

Rage post?! Hhhmmm seems good. Better than 12 months nothing. But you are nice and already stressed so I let you be. *Starts looking for job vacancies there. I'm moving in so I can read things as you write*😝 I just realized I don't even like your style, because you don't have any.... I go victimize someone else....where is Jason?

Make a list/excel table of where you apply, make progress boxes and status, color code them so you know how many open applications you have. make separate folders for each application and put all your documents there. It makes it easier to apply to similar positions. I can totally understand what you are going through. I started with " the job is boring, I don't like their environmental attitude, the pay is not that great, they don't offer so many free days, ..." and now I'm at I don't care what it is, just let me work for you....😅 And still no luck ( I'm not applying actively though) but I even thought of applying to Sweden or Australia but I'm not that desperate yet to look for anything in the states. I wish you all the luck in the world so your next worry is how to deal with an asshole colleague 😁

@Davide You are simply too nice to Jeff. If you let him be and give him time, he won't finish anything but start something new. Please join me on my mission. # letsannoyjefftillheposts campaign. You can sign here. X And we take turns in spamming him ( although I can do it pretty good on my own, I still need free days). I think I saw his muse turning the corner, if we are fast enough we might catch it/them. OMG Jeff your muse is binary. Sorry for using the wrong pronoun. Deadline for Jeff: post a chapter of anything till the end of the week!

12?!!?! No wonder your muse left you. #stopgangbangingthemuse

That's not good! And your muse is a "it"? So then Davide was right about the feminine part. May be the feminine side of your muse is having a break while the masculine part is partying...so let it be for a while. If it didn't get back bouncing to you, let me know. My muse should be with the him part of it and I have to find mine soon. I'm just wondering how many open project you have right now.

The parallel writing is a good approach. At least you can keep the nice part. Then you can ask AI what to keep or I can tell you which parts suck. Don't delete anything!

Your muse is evil....can you work without him? If I bring an oven and throw him in the oven, he was like snow, right?...then you're free to finish the stories on my list.... Have we moved to Hänsel and Gretel the 2027 version? You were the villain...now I'm confused. Why is my innocent muse making out with your villain muse?! I go sleep. I just wanted to read the next chapter and now look at this mess.... I hope at least our muses are using condoms, who knows where your muse was!!

I just had an idea. @Jason Rimbaud said he doesn't use AI. Now I'm wondering what about his cats? They have access to Jason's account on GA. ....that could explain the random times that Jason turns inhumanly nice....

Eventually I'll be dead and you haven't finished these 12 but started another 24. So if the HP story is not something your muse wants at the moment, let it be. Don't sit on it though or you'll need another laptop. My point, let me talk to your muse in a cold cave full of snow and give him the list of stories he can finish....for example that nifty story or the Merlin, or part two of AI eating us alive or the love story between the Venus and Jeff....

Lol. I gave up arguing about how wrong my sentences in whatever language I write are. I have reached the point , there's no language I can claim I use it correctly 🤣 But we can start a " let's complain to everyone about everyone on GA thread" and use AI to drive people crazy 😏😚 Since I'm a chatbot myself I can claim I can recognize the use of AI to some extent but with dogs I have no experience....never underestimate a dog. They just need a keyboard and a good prompt before they start with their story prompt. 😁

Don't get me wrong. I looooove complaining and bitching about everything otherwise the academic slut in me will die. But it was sorta scary how good AI could imitate me, even in my chaotic style and believe me I'm a mess when I get emotional. So @Thirdly I'm wondering if you complained to my AI buddy or the cool friend who's a villain in disguise?!🤣