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Hey Vic! I definitely think you're right; that is excellent advice...I just don't think I can do it . The main problem is that I only ever hung out with Josh WITH Kim. So I don't even know his cell # . On top of that there's NO WAY Kim wouldn't be suspicious if I tried to spend time with him. And I haven't associated with either of them socially for several months now . I really don't mean this in a silly way, but is there a difference between being gay and having gay tendencies? I mean would "gay tendencies" for example mean...uh I dunno, you were careful to make sure your umbrella didn't clash with your clothes? (ok so maybe I got a little silly) Anyway have an awesome day Vic!! and Take C....cable television shows with a grain of salt Kevin

Well that's a fun little addition to our list! So far readers have wanted to turn TOU and TLW into a movie, DD into a soap opera, and now WT into a tv-series! Nifty! I enjoyed this chapter as well. At least in this chapter Milo and Nels officially seemed like a couple. And they actually did some talking and working stuff out! Of course on the down side Dom did say that this story is supposed to be 18 chapters, which means only 10 more to go Unless we can persuade one of the characters to grab his butt Hmmm, maybe we can talk a certain evasive slut into doing it? Or perhaps a clingly cheerleader On the down side everyone's favourite character, the goat, didn't get so much as a lookin this chapter . Of course the parrot got a few funny lines I had to sympathize with poor Nels and that phone/doorbell. A few years ago we got a new phone that sounded just like the kitchen timer. Everytime the stupid timer went off I answered the phone beep beep "hello" "...ohh crud! " "Well still no plans for tonight, but at least the casserole's done." Anyway have an awesome day and take care all! Kevin

LOL I'd be happy too, but I'm already caught up, maybe you should post your chapter 8 too! In the mean time I remember something in another thread caught my attention....what was it? Oh yeah: :king:

LOL I think it's "Asian Invasion" , but hey if they're all that cute let them come

LOL Viv, what "how gay are you" quiz? I love silly quizes

So yesterday evening I decided to walk to my night class. On the way it suddenly begins to drizzle a bit. So I'm thinking "well no problem I'm about to walk by Coressa's apartment complex, I'll pop in and see if I can borrow an umbrella". So anyway who should I see in the parking lot, but Coressa (yeah I guess it's not that big a coincedence since it was her apartment building). Anyway she was actually carrying a pink umbrella at the time, and before I could even ask for one she offered it to me. Then she laughed and said, "but if you'd prefer I have a brown one inside I can get for you". So I said I'd rather have that one, so after we chat a bit I go on my way with the brown umbrella. Then I'm hit with a funny thought, I'm sure she thought I'd prefer the brown umbrella because it wasn't as "gay" as the pink one, when in fact my main reason for wanting the brown one was that the pink would have clashed with my outfit, whereas the brown matched my shoes and belt nicely and really finished off the ensemble. (though actually pink is about my least favourite colour but just because I happen to not like it, not for any cultural/social reasons). So anyway I'm walking along with the umbrella and I start thinking "I guess I'll drop it back off to her at work when I'm on my way to class in the morning". Then I think "oh wait, if I do that I'll have to see Kim". So of course that led my thoughts to Kim, which is what this entry is actually about. If you go back about a year ago Kim had just started and right away we became pretty good friends. In fact in an odd little ironic twist when she first started most people didn't particularly like her and thought she was weird. I was the one who kept saying, "no she's really nice and fun, give her a chance". So anyway when I met her she was always talking about her boyfriend, Josh. Well the first time I met Josh was when we all went out to eat to celebrate Kim's birthday. Now I'm not the best as far as gaydar goes, but I was picking something up from Josh. Besides that he kept looking at me... in a way that suggested more than platonic interest. In fact it was so bad that halfway through dinner Amber noticed and asked him what he was looking at. He said, "oops sorry, just staring into space I guess", and she laughed and said "oh I thought you were looking at Kevin" . Now this isn't the only thing I'm going by, I actually got to know him and he's a really nice guy, I just always got a weird sorta vibe from him. Then a month or so later I was at their house and we were watching Alexander. Well Kim was completely freaked out and disgusted by the Alexander/Hephaistion relationship (She's kinda homophobic, not the main reason we "fell out" but a contributing factor), but Josh seemed completely enthralled by it, and defended it by pointing out that it was very common in ancient Greece/Rome. Not only that but Kim herself is always talking about him, about how he isn't very interested in having sex, and how he never seems to be thinking about it. Also how he likes to use some of her "girly stuff", and how he reads everything including mags she leaves laying around. Now I guess it's possible I'm just completely barking up the wrong tree, maybe all the evidence is circumstantial. Or maybe he's bisexual or something. I can certainly see how he might have fallen for Kim if he is. She's a very "sexual" person. I mean she just carries herself in a very confident, sexy way. She's quite flirtatious and sensual as well. In fact one night we went out to dinner and a movie, just the two of us. I swear she was making it seem like a date! (whereas I was just interested in going as friends) As well as the usual mild flirty stuff, she leaned into me during the movie, and then afterwards we went out for desert and she fed me ice cream. It was...strange... I mean I would never do anything to come between two people dating. I just think that's one of the worst things someone can do, I'm really firm on this point! So I kept my distance as much as I could, and still be polite. That said though there was definitely a "moment" and if she hadn't been seeing someone I probably would have kissed her. I don't even think she does it on purpose. I think it's just her personality and how she naturally interacts with guys. She's always talking about how most of her close friends are guys and how there's usually been something between them at one point. I think it's just a pattern she falls into. But anyway I can definitely see how if Josh were at all into girls she might have ensnared him. Anyway a few months ago they became engaged. Now that I'm not particularly close with them anymore, I mostly think I should just mind my own business. On the other hand part of me feels like...I dunno like if this is going to be a huge mistake I should do something. I mean they actually seem fairly happy, I'm just mostly worried about Josh. She's very dominant, they're not even married yet and she controls alot of the finances, and usually gets her way on other issues. Not that I think she'll take advantage of him, she really is a pretty decent person, a nice girl with a strong sense of fairness, but he's really laid back and just goes along with whatever. She could definitely end up in a very controlling position. Of course mostly I'm just thinking it really sucks for him if he's at all into guys to marry a homophobe. I mean it can't be easy to surpress your feelings anyway, but to then try to redirect them to a person who couldn't even understand in the first place... I dunno, it's not like there's anything I can do anyway. I'm certainly not going to butt into their business, and I probably wouldn't even if I were still close with them. Besides at this point anything I said or did would definitely be perceived as an attack.

Hey everyone, so this isn't really that funny. I didn't agree with most of them, and some I found a tad offensive even. But some were kinda funny, anyway: 100 Reasons to be Gay 1. You truly don't care who Julia Roberts is sleeping with. 2. You understand the difference between 43 brands of imported vodka. 3. You can call anyone "honey" including pets. 4. You know someone who definitely was in the emergency room with Richard Gere and the gerbil. 5. You understand the immense importance of good lighting. 6. You can be at a crowded disco the size of two football fields and still spot a toupee. 7. You can tell a woman you love her bathing suit, and truly mean her bathing suit. 8. You can explain the nuances between steady date, boyfriend and lover. 9. You really have "been there, done that." 10. Your women friends will tell you everything you want to know about their boyfriends. And that means everything. 11. You're the only type of male who gets to say "fabulous." 12. You can have naked pictures of men you don't know in your home. 13. You can have naked men you don't know in your home. 14. You know how to handle the telephone like a Stradivarius. 15. You understand why the good Lord invented spandex. 16. You understand why the good Lord didn't intend everyone to wear it. 17. You know how to get back at just about everyone. And have. 18. You know that the most important part of a party's decor is the catering staff. 19. You only wear polyester when you mean to. 20. You can smile to let someone know you can't stand them. 21. You can freeze a troll from 20 feet away. 22. You're good pals with women other people can't stand. 23. You've always got an opinion. 24. You've read the book, seen the movie, done the musical. 25. You know how to dress strategically. 26. Your car has an amusing female name. 27. You're the only one at your high school reunion who looks a lot better than you did in high school. 28. You've got at least one framed picture of a pet. 29. If your mattress could talk, it would be Joan Rivers. 30. You know that sex complicates things. So? 31. You know that being called a "cheap slut" isn't actually an insult. 32. There's a married guy somewhere who is terrified of you. 33. Nobody tells you what to do in bed...unless you tell them what to tell you. 34. You have a medicine chest stocked for any occasion. 35. You have at least one movie musical on video. 36. You're not embarrassed to sing in a piano bar. 37. You're embarrassed by people who sing in piano bars. 38. You never hold a grudge for longer than a decade or two. 39. You know how to make an entrance. 40. You know when to make an exit. 41. You worry about people you don't even know - like Liza Minnelli. 42. You choose the most fabulous greeting cards. 43. You know how to program your VCR. 44. You've got sunscreen at every conceivable SPF level. 45. You have a cologne display worthy of Bloomingdales. 46. You understand, viscerally, Joan Crawford. 47. Some of your best friends are your ex lovers. 48. You know when to play dumb. 49. You know what to do for a hangover. 50. Yes, you do have a condom. 51. You've called someone "girlfriend" who is neither a girl nor a friend. 52. One or more of the following apply to you: a) You adore Judy Garland You hate Judy Garland c) You hate people who adore Judy Garland. d) You hate people who hate Judy Garland. e) You don't give a damn about Judy Garland. f) Who is Judy Garland? 53. You can supply the last names to the following list: a) Bernadette Chita c) Barbra 54. You made Donna Summer a star. 55. You made Donna Summer a has-been. 56. Tanning salons were invented for you. 57. You've made sunbathing a performance art. 58. You know when the party's over. 59. You know where to go after the party's over. 60. You're fearless about fighting the elements, especially gravity. 61. When you hear "a stitch in time saves nine" you think of a) Your grandma Your face lift c) John Wayne Bobbit 62. You know that pigs and bears are not necessarily rural wildlife. 63. Your roommate can be your roommate and not your "roommate." 64. You know that referring to someone as "a real lady" isn't necessarily a compliment. 65. Your favorite dinner accessory may also be your dinner companion. 66. If your cat is a female, you swear it's a lesbian. 67. If your cat is a male, you swear it's a lesbian. 68. You sing along heartily with songs that make most females cringe, like "Stand by your man". 69. You've been to a bris, a barmitzvah, a christening, a first communion and too many weddings and you have a carefully considered evaluation of the food after each. 70. You'll never have to hear your mother complain about your wife. 71. A two-seater convertible seems perfectly practical to you. 72. You have a favorite Disney character and it's usually a nasty one. 73. You've left someone totally speechless. 74. You've shaved something other than your face. 75. All your friends do not have to "get along". 76. You have large collection of anniversary pictures. They may be with different guys, however. 77. Your love handles are actually used as such. 78. When someone turns his back on you, you actually consider it an opportunity. 79. You've got a large assortment of movie-star biographies. 80. You've got the most interesting coffee table books. 81. You know where to find a meat rack and it ain't in your kitchen drawer. 82. You have a sexual persuasion with its own flag. 83. At some moment in your life you've envisioned having back-up girls. 84. You know your enemies. 85. After a workout at the gym, you feel like a new man. And he's right there in the shower. 86 You're Barbra Streisand's biggest fan. 87. You know that Barbra Streisand's biggest fan is Barbra Streisand. 88 Not only have you added spice to your life - sometimes you've added side dishes. 89. You know that "small talk" can be about spirituality or politics, and "important issues" can be about hair. 90. You've actually lived out some of your fantasies. 91. Unlike most straight women, you have no problem being treated solely as a sex object. 92. You have no doubts about the accuracy of the Kinsey Report. 93. You know, by heart, every line in: a) All about Eve The Rocky Horror Picture Show c) Your face 94. You are ALWAYS ready for your close-up. 95. You have 412 ways to tell someone to get lost. 136 are non-verbal. 96. You can lip-sync to at least one Supreme's song. 97. You have a carefully selected Yiddish vocabulary. 98. Even if you're in Kansas, you're not in Kansas anymore. 99. You know exactly how many martinis it takes. 100. When throwing a party, you know how to put out quite a spread. Sometimes after the party too.

I loved chapter 7. It was just such a happy, feel good chapter! LOL I went to bed thinking all is right with the world I agree with Trebbs though; I hope Maggie does do something to get Connor out of that environment. Oh and I think this was my favourite part: Anyway I loved it David, I can't wait for the next one! Kevin

Hmmm so what you're saying is, the goat's the black sheep of the Larmont family? lol okay I promise no more bad puns...well for a day or so anyway

One of my best friends (whom I met in high school) was Slovakian. He was amazing, a true "Renaissance man", but oddly I was never really into him. welcome aboard Dasani! I'm glad you decided it was time to quit bottling yourself up, and flow out into the land of Domaholics. You'll probably find that your thirst for more Dom chapters can never really be quenched , but rest assured that each new chapter will pack that refreshing kick which you'll soon grow to love. Anyway caps = off to you, and I'm pleased to sip on the delight which can only come from a new member joining our ranks. Take care and have an awesome day! Kevin

Hey Nick it's good to know that I'm not alone with this . I'm also really glad that lately you've been able to open up to people a little more about that stuff. Of course it is good to be careful too, I'm sure you'll be able to discern what is "safe" to tell people and what is too "risky". I just hope your friends are always there for you no matter what! You're right the people at work are great, and I'm lucky to have them in my life I'm touched and honoured if anything I've said in your blog has made you feel better. That truly means a lot to me, and I really hope everything works out well for you and that you have a very happy life Thanks for commenting Take care, Kevin

I think you're right, Camy; sometimes the line between reality and persona can easily become blurred. A change is definitely a good idea for me at this point, and I'm quite looking forward to one . Anyway thanks for the insight, have an awesome day! Kevin

Whoaaa! How about that guy for me instead?!?! Let Nelson Keep Milo WOW! THAT is ....WOW Edit: I just had to add one thing: WOW!

Well just to play devil's advocate a bit. They may simply be protective of Chaz, which while it can be overbearing and go too far, is at least a little noble. For example I could imagine my closest straight guy friends (if I came out to them and they came to terms with it) being really protective of me (they always have been about everything else lol). It's kinda like the big brother/father thing you see, "Just what are your intentions young man?" It just kinda shows they care. Anyway I'm not saying it's right or fair, and personally I tend to make an extra effort to get along with my friend's S.O.'s, and then if I don't approve (which I usually do anyway) talk to my friend about it in private. Failing that I just stay out of it and wait to pick up the pieces or be proven wrong. So I guess what I'm saying is it sucks that they're not treating you right, or being open-minded, and it's completely unfair but in their minds you probably have to "prove yourself"; you don't though. As Rob and Michael said it's ultimately between you and Chaz. So I hope they cool it enough to see what a great guy you are, Green, and I hope you stay calm enough to show them ....but even if that doesn't happen it shouldn't affect you and Chaz. Anyway take care and have a great day, Kevin

Hey David! I'm glad to hear chapter 7 is coming soon! Woo Hoo so probably when I get back from class tonight then I think I'm pretty happy, but who can't stand a little more happiness? So I'll try to check out the Dalai Lama's "The Art of Happiness" sometime. Oh and definitely quit smoking! Take care and have a great day, Kevin

awwww I just finished your last chapter of "From Behind Those Eyes"; I loved it! It was awesome, I just can't wait to see what happens with Jules and Stephan though. I know I shouldn't nag or whine, but when can we expect another update? ***makes his puppy dog face*** Anyway have an awesome day, Viv! Kevin

Hey Camy! Happy Birthday! I hope it's a really teriffic one! WOW 100, that's GOT to be a milestone! I hope you have a really awesome day and a great year! Take care and all the best, Kevin

I just wanted to wish Camy a very special 100th birthday ! I hope it's an awesome one Camy, and may the next 100 years be even better! Seriously, I hope you have a teriffic day and a fantastic year! All the best, Kevin

I like that "Kind of extremely attractive". Anyway I agree, he's really cute in the pic on the far right. Now that I like! Of course that guy's got light hair and Milo is supposed to have dark hair....but on the other hand I like light hair better, so that's probably why I go for that one lol. I dunno, I'm not sure I like that guy, the blonde guy next to him at the end of that series is pretty cute though (blah, so I have a fetish for blondes ) EDIT: I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to do this right, but THIS is what I imagined the goat to look like

Thanks Ann! That makes me feel better I agree LOL well if we're starting the next round of acronym wars, I'm going to start JHITE (Jame and Haily In The End)

Thanks for the reply Mark, it was good to hear a fresh perspective, untainted by previous expectations. I'd pretty much kept trying to convince myself that Aaron would turn out to be okay, and that Seth was bad news until the night of the party. Then I did a 180 lol So how did you like TLW? That was my favourite TOU is great though, I'm sure you'll enjoy it! Take care and have a great day, Kevin

I don't really know anything about Clay Aiken, but I can't decide if I think he's attractive or not. Sometimes I think "ugly", sometimes I think "cute"...maybe he's cute in an ugly sorta way .

Thanks you guys! Now I know lol I think I'd like to "get into" the show more. Perhaps I'll get the first season on DVD or something. And yeah, is Jack gay in real life? I knew Will was straight in real life. Anyway take care everyone and have a day filled with pleasant happenings Kevin

I'm sure that's what Milo was thinking too I knew of "Milo" myself, though I've never had the pleasure of sampling it. That wasn't my first thought though since I first encountered it as a name. No my first thought was of Milo from the band Prozzak. I agree Lucy, I was thinking "middle name" myself. And while I've never known a Milo personally I've heard of enough of them for it to never even cross my mind as an "odd name". I read The Phantom Tollbooth as a kid, but honestly I don't remember anything about it . Now that you mention it though Milo sounds right as the lead character's name. I agree Alan! That's what I liked about Owen and Aiden so much

So today at work a friend/coworker came up to me and said, "you seem quiet today, everything okay?". The odd thing is this seems to be par for the course the last month or so. It seems like lately every time I turn around someone's saying how quiet I'm being and making sure I'm not upset about something. And I'm really not upset, mad, unhappy, sick, or worried. Heck I don't even think I was being that quiet today. I was completely responsive and friendly to everyone. I may not have been forcing my way into every conversation, or regaling everyone with funny stories, but I was exactly shrinking into the background either. No, *gasp* I was actually working. So I dunno, it's crazy. I mean I feel fine, but with everyone fussing over me like I must be upset...I'm begining to wonder myself. I really don't think I am...but who knows? If I can't think of anything that might be bothering me, I usually just give the stock response: " **smile** I'm fine, just have alot on my mind I guess, thanks for asking though". And I really do appreciate it when people ask. I've always said if I'm upset I probably DON'T want to be left alone. If I want to be left alone; I leave. If I'm still there where you can see me and you think I'm upset, it is appreciated if you ask. So I'm certainly anything but annoyed that everyone is checking to make sure I'm okay. It's just I can't figure out what could be wrong so I think I am okay. I admit I'm often quite effusive. I do like to talk. I enjoy one on one conversation, or small group chats. I even like to bring everyone into one large discussion, and I readily acknowledge the fact that I'm often, if not usually, quite comfortable with all eyes and ears paying attention to me (geez that does make me sound like an attention seeker), but on the other hand I really don't have to have everyone's attention. I can be loud and outgoing, but just as often (at least I thought just as often), I'm quite content, to just sit and listen, or contemplate my own thoughts. I'm actually VERY introspective, just not in a shy sorta way. Yet I do wonder if maybe something is off at work and that's why I'm keeping to myself. I really am ready for the door. I feel like an old relic around there. Heck, perhaps I'm even a little jaded. I mean everyone's come and gone so many times since I've been there, I dunno perhaps I'm just subconsciously wondering if there's any point in developing relationships with the new people...I mean even if they stick around, I'll be gone soon enough. Of course intellectually I'd say of course I should get to know them; all experiences or potentially meaningful, and getting to know new people is definitely one of the most rewarding of all. And I certainly don't want my "old friends" to feel like I'm isolating myself from them. I dunno, I guess even if I do feel like being quiet I should just put on my best smile and go laugh and talk up a storm.