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Hey Adam I'm so glad to hear that your coming out process has gone so well! You're friends and mom sound really cool wow France!? I'm so jealous! (but glad for you ), everyone gets to go on cool trips but me! **pouts** Anyway take care and have an awesome weekend, glad to see you decided to get a blog Kevin

Hey Viv! I LOVE the page Woo hoo Congrats Awesome that the next chapter will be out soon WOW that sucks about your son . What happened exactly? Is he getting over being sick? LOL I know he couldn't have eaten too much since you were waiting for dinner. Anyway I'm glad he's okay now, and that everything worked out Have an awesome weekend! Kevin

Wooo HOOO! Happpy Birthday Lugh! I hope it's a teriffic one! Have an awesome year and enjoy your special day Kevin

Hey Vance! I'm excited to hear that you're going to have a page here . I'll defintely try to check your stuff out. I have an idea, maybe you could go with "Creative ad executive" Awesome that you have such a great relationship with your soulmate I look forward to your future blogs, take care and have a great day! Kevin

LOL I was just thinking how amusing it was that this ENTIRE thread has consisted of only the four of us (me, Dyanov, Kitty, and RK) talking amongst ourselves.

lol so you're saying the government/society has decided to segregate all the gay kids? Hmm I'm sure the ACLU will have a field day with that one! J/k of course Colours: Blue and Yellow, because blue is my favourite colour and yellow just looks awesome with it! My gosh when blonde guys wear blue! Mascot: Squirrel, because after cats and dogs (which would just be stupid as mascots) they're my favourite animals.

Hahaha yeah! Go Ronnie I completely agree with Sparrow and James. The quiz does seem to focus primarily on stereotypes. Which is why I'm satisfied with my 53%, 45-55% is probaby pretty much where I'd want to fall on this type of scale. I like to embrace the best my traditional gender role has to offer (assertiveness, independence, strength etc.) while also enjoying the best my gay stereotype might offer (emotionality, sensualness, nuturing etc.)....of courese I'm sure I have quite a bit of the negative of each too Anyway of course it doesn't really tell you how "gay" you are, just how "traditionally effiminate/butch" you might be. But I don't think any of it should be taken very seriously anyway. It's just a fun little test Good for laugh and a smile

I mostly agree with that except I don't think Milo is any more compassionate than Nels. They both have their moments, and Nels does exhibit signs of caring about people. I think you mixed up The Log Way and The Ordinary Us. Taylor was in TOU, and I wouldn't have thought him an antagonist at all, Quinn was his own biggest antagonist. True Quinn did have some conflict with Taylor but I'd say mom, Brad, Mr. Jones (or the bad counselor if I'm mixing them up), and even Jude caused him more trouble than Taylor did. I agree with Ben and David. There's quite a few different levels of "closetness" and I don't think Nels is in that far. I agree with Ann's explanation. Nels definitely doesn't seem to have issues with his sexuality itself. He doesn't feel worthless, ashamed, or like a freak; his concern is how OTHER people will accept it. Thus he's perfectly able to express it and talk about it with people who ARE accepting of it (himself, family, Leanna, and now Milo). The fact that he told Milo is another indication that he's not all that "deep" into the closet. He thought Milo would be okay with it, so he told him (and of course he had an ulterior motive ). I agree he doesn't act like a big closet case, but again I'd say that's because he isn't. He's a little closet case . He's outgoing and friendly, and he's got the perfect "cover" in Haily (not to mention Teresa if that got around school), so I don't think many people are that likely to really sit down and try to figure it out (which they probably could do if they tried). Now Brandon I'm guessing has, but I think that's because he's interested so like Nels with Milo, he has an ulterior motive and special interest too. Yes I think that's a major part of it too!

So it seems like life's really been dealing some of my favourite females a bad hand lately . I went back to my (current) spade league (not the dead one), only to find out that the captain of our team, and my main partner (the one who talked me into joining after all the drama with the old league) wasn't around. I didn't see her for about a week when finally reports begain to circulate that the reason was because her sister had just died . To make things even worse apparently about a month earlier (also while I was gone) a different sister had died . So she finally came back last night and I asked her how she was doing. She said she felt a little lost . But then immediately asked if I wanted to play a few games so we did. It was fun, just like old times . I've really never played (spades) with anyone who can get inside my head like she can. I swear most of the time we play it's like we're looking at each other's hands. She's a tough lady though, I think she'll be okay. *********** Then there's my friend Mandi. After my test this evening (actually I could tell a whole story about my day up until that point; which really wasn't that great , but I won't since that's not what this post is about lol) I decided to go out to dinner to cheer myself up (yeah lousy day). Anyway while I was there we were texting each other. Apparently as well as all the other drama she's broke as well. So I took her out for ice cream to cheer her up. Basically she had a cover story for her parents all planned out, but her roommate didn't know it and ended saying the wrong thing and making her mom suspicious. Apparently she'd had a great weekend with Joe (the boyfriend), and they'd even had the big "where is this going and what are our future plans" talk, but then when her mom finally tracked her down and called the hotel that put a damper on things . To make matters worse her car is still in her mom's name so she's worried she's going to take it away. But the really sucky thing is that her mom isn't going to give her any more money for bills until she sits down and talks this thing out with her (which I actually think isn't so unreasonable), but of course Mandi isn't eager to do this. So she was really worried because her credit card bill (which she's maxed out ) is due in like two days, and obviously it's NOT going to be good if she defaults. But I talked her into letting me lend her the money to pay it until she gets money from her parents (which she's sure she WILL do once she talks to them). SO I guess it'll work out. Actually I'm mostly just being a "loyal friend" and presenting everything from her point of view. I actually really see her family's POV too and I really wouldn't be too happy with her either if she were my daughter. BUT she's going to do what she wants to anyway and it's probably best for me to just try to be there for her instead of trying to pressure her into doing what I think she should do. I think what does bother me though is the way she allows her self to be dependent on other people. She never keeps a job very long, she always gets tired of it after a week or so and just keeps calling in sick or giving other excuses for not showing up until they fire her....Or she just quits right away. Before she broke up with her Fiance' she just managed to rely on him and her parents to "take care of her". After she broke it off with him she still had her parents for bills but got a job for awhile to cover her every day expenses. But now that she's in a new serious relationship it looks like she's falling back into the same pattern. I just couldn't do that! My independence is very important to me. I don't even like not having a "safety net" of reserve cash saved up, just incase something did happen and I had to leave my current job or couldn't work for awhile. I guess it's the anxiety prone side of me, but I freak out if I don't know where my next check's coming from. But anyway we had ice cream, hung out for awhile, and went to Wal-Mart, and while she's got tangible problems to sort out I don't think she's particularly unhappy . ******** Then there's Claire . I was texting with her at the restaurant too. Basically I just sent her a "hey, how's life been treating you" sorta message because I like to check in every now and then. But her response was "Not so good, I'm hurting right now" . So of course I was freaking out. Poor Claire. I wrote in a previous entry about her and Mary breaking up, so I don't know if it's related to that, but I am worried about her. Anyway I made plans to go and meet her tomorrow (which is like a 3 hour drive ) and we're going to go the the mall in the morning and then lunch. So I guess I'll get the scoop then. It's just that she's such a great person, but she's just prone to depression and anxiety. She's been clinically depressed, has social anxiety, various phobias, and she's bipolar. So I just always take it seriously if she says something's not right. I actually feel....well not responsible exactly. It's hard to explain. We met our Soph. year of high school after she transferred from her old school where she was really miserable (that was when she had been diagnosed with depression and social anxiety). Anyway I know she wasn't exactly elated everyday, but it seemed like alot of the time I spent with her she really was happy and having fun. She started taking Paxil for the social anxiety and she just seemed to be doing well. Then after we graduated and went to different schools it seems like she got worse. I found out she was cutting for awhile , then she was diagnoses with the bipolar, and she started smoking And drinking more than she should. I mean obviously it's not my fault and I guess in all likelihood she'd have still developed those problems even if I had been around her everyday, but I still feel like I could have been making it better. So anyway tomorrow I'm going to go and see if I can make it better (and maybe buy some new clothes! ) The thing is she's such a great person! I mean she's awesome! She's an EXTREMELY gifted artist, she's perhaps the most intelligent person I've ever known, she has a great sense of humour, and she's just really sweet and caring. In early July right before I joined this forum (or maybe right after I did) I was having a little mini-breakdown. It wasn't too bad, but I knew I needed help when it got to the point that at work I had to keep excusing myself to the bathroom to go and cry. Anyway she's the one that I talked it all out with, and I mean ALL out with. I was actually able to pretty much open up and tell her all my feelings and fears and stuff. So I've just got to help her. *********** Anyway she has work at 2:00 so after that I'm going to head on over to my hometown (which is between our two cities) and have dinner and maybe a movie or something with my mom; who you guys alreadly know the deal about. So tomorrow ought to be a pretty action packed day. Actually I'm sure I'll have a great time! So now I'm going to go have a nice long bath, and shave and stuff, then pick out my clothes for tomorrow....I'm not sure what I'm going to wear yet, but I'm pretty sure it'll be tight Anyway I hope everyone has an awesome weekend! Take care everyone! (or I'll have to come and take you out for ice cream! )

Hiya Rob! Thanks, I think you're right. Actually while I was sitting there listening I was thinking, "Ya know, I could probably do YOUR job" . I even subtly asked about the requirements. I'd have to get a degree in counseling....which was on my list as a possibility anyway, so ya never know lol. I think that's definitely some good advice, thanks . I guess since I'm not too particular right now it does make more sense to look for what's available than to worry about figuring out something specific and looking for that. And I know it would be easier once I was already there...it's just I'd be more panicked then and freaking out. yeah , she found him when he was a very young kitten. Actually too young to really be on solid food , but he was a feisty little guy and just ate whatever was put in front of him (till he got old and finicky that is). LOL you're right! There's definitely nothing wrong with crazy I actually didn't end up going out with them, but I do plan on continuing/developing the friendship Anyway, I hope you have a great day Rob! Take care Kevin

Hey Mark It's just really frustrating because I did know what I wanted to do. Right up until my final year...then it's suddenly like, "gee on second thought" Thanks, I talked to her today and I think she's doing okay for the most part, and I'm gonna go visit her tomorrow. Yep her situation is a mess alright! I spent the evening trying to cheer her up. I think she'll be okay though. Anyway I hope you have a really great day! Take care Kevin

Hey Viv! Oh no that's awful! I'm so sorry I'm also really sorry to hear about Rich's grandpa , how's he doing with it? Also without wanting to sound like I'm being insensitive or missing the point; isn't 10 days a long time to wait before having a funeral? It seems like most funerals around here are done within 4 or 5 days of the person dying. I hope your daughter enjoys her visit and I hope the two of you are okay with being apart for so long! LOL well now I'm really looking forward to reading the next chapter! GRRRrrr! You're so right; cheating sucks! I hope you have a great day Viv, good luck getting through the rough work week. And Cheer up! Kevin

Hey David! My gosh! That seems rude to me too. You should have responded in kind. With a, "thanks you too!", or maybe, "yep, and you're looking a little tired yourself; is that a new wrinkle I detect?" Aww! Isn't Kitty teriffic! I'm so glad to hear that we'll get to read Seeking Nirvana soon That sounds fun! I'm looking forward to it! Have a great day and take care, Kevin

Yes! I was definitely thought something was up with Brandon . In fact for a bit there when Nels was talking about how hard it was to walk I was thinking he'd slipped him a roofie. I think I just realized something; I don't like Milo. He just gets on my nerves something awful! Quinn and Rory could be irritating but we basically "lived inside their heads" so you kind of had to love them. With Milo . I really hope he grows on me, I mean some of the scenes in this chapter like the waiting for an hour in the car, washing Nel's face, rubbing his back, should have had me gushing over "how sweet Milo is", but really while I thought it was sweet and I was glad for Nels, it didn't ingratiate Milo to me as much as it probably should have. I hope we see more of his "good side" in the next chapter. Hmmm, I don't see that. Nels seems to get along really well with the football team, Caleb wouldn't like it and everyone seems scared of him, and there's really nothing to indicate that they (the football team) might have found out about Nels and Milo. Maybe that's what irritates me about him. Well as far as "sporty boys" go, I'd go with swimmers/soccer players (quite a toss up, swimmers probably edging them out), baseball players, basketball players, THEN football players. This may just be because of my perception and level of attraction toward them at my old high school, but unless it really was a unique environment that's probaby how'd I rank them. Wooo Hoo! welcome to the forum Ken Excellent point about Nels just speaking his mind regardless! I think it's cute, and probably very necessary with Milo....Just imagine if it had been Quinn and Milo! We'd have been on chapter 57 before they even spoke to each other. I dunno, but I'll take their spot Loved the chapter, can't wait for the next one! Kevin

Thanks! She actually recommended that site too! So it must be great . I guess this appointment went better than the last. I enjoyed talking to this lady alot more. She ended up signing me up to take a "strong interest inventory" test, to find out what I like and what jobs might include some of those things....well I'm pretty sure no one's going to pay me to do this all day , nor am I likely to get much money from playing spades, or taking walks. But on the bright side I'm interested in lotsa stuff so ya never know Crud! All day I kept reminding myself to call and see how she was doing and darnit if I didn't forget . I feel like such a negligent son....GRRRRR She's more of an "animals find her" kinda person. But actually there's a couple other cats there, it's just that those are like my grandparents' cats whereas Petey was "her baby". I actually didn't end up going, they started right when my test was begining, I probably coulda caught the tail end of desert or something, but I wasn't really in the mood after I finished up anyway. ***yawns*** Well I don't feel good about it, but I don't feel bad about it either. So I'm guessing a B or a C. Thanks for asking! No the class I keep "missing" lol, is tomorrow night (and I really need to study for it GRRRrrr) and yay thanks for the star Thanks! I'm expecting it to! I get paid Friday, and I'll be in the mood to have fun after this "studious" week lol. hmmmmm I think I wanna go ice skating. I wonder if I can find some brave soul to go with me? Anyway I hope your week is completely awesome, amazingly teriffic, and of such a high degree of enjoyableness that it tests the very bounds of rational thought! Umm, take care Kevin Edit: check this out! This is what I got when I tried to post this: " THE FOLLOWING ERROR(S) WERE FOUND You have posted a message with more emoticons that this board allows. Please reduce the number of emoticons you've added to the message " WOW! (I'd do a shocked smiley but clearly that wouldn't be helpful)

Hey David! I loved the last chapter of SOOTB! It was awesome, and I thought the sex scene was really HOT. I'm eagerly awaiting the next chapter. Sounds like just the kind of thing I'd enjoy I can't wait to read it (well I'm sure I can, but I don't WANT to ) Anyway have a fun day and good luck with the scholarship excursion! Take care. Kevin

Actually having checked out that link of Kitty's, I do know who he is. I just didn't recognize the name at first. I'd say it's iffy either way personally.

I took it and I'm 53% gay

I definitely agree with your first paragraph, but I just don't see Jame as being gay. He's Haily's ultimate (well ultimate within the confines of the story) love interest. I simply think he isn't such a bad guy and wanted to make a new friend. He probably just liked hanging out with Milo and became friends with him in the normal, mundane way most people become friends with each other. In other words it was probably easy, natural, fun, and convenient. He seems pretty unpoplular among readers right now but I really don't get why. I mean he really hasn't done anything especially deplorable. The only thing that might be said against him that I can see is that he's been lewd in his interactions with Haily, but I seriously do think he's got a thing for her, and his comments really don't compare to Caleb and Joe's behaviour. We're simply seeing Jame through Nels' eyes. Nels doesn't like him and that's fine and perhaps justifiable, but that doesn't make him a bad person. The main conflict is between Jame and Caleb anyway, and while Caleb is steadily growing on me pretty much EVERYONE in the story and most people on this forum concede that Caleb is often a jerk/doesn't like people. Chances are, IMO, the original conflict mostly Caleb's fault, not Jame's. I read that as hot-housekeeper Jaunita BTW

I agree, I just can't imagine Milo with facial hair.

So here's a general summary of what's been going on in my life of late. Friday I had an appointment to see a job counselor at the career services department of my university. I was hoping I could line up a job for when I moved to Houston, that way I wouldn't be freaking out once I got there. Well the whole thing was all but a big waste of time, my appointment was at 11:00am...I was done by 11:08. Basically I told her I didn't care too much what I did, it could be anything to do with psychology, sociology, writing/english or just any old job that paid decently and required a college degree. She told me I was being way too vague and would have to narrow it down more. I said "well hopefully it'll only be for a year or two tops before I go back to grad school" (not that I'm even sure WHAT I want to go to grad school in...) Anyway she said "too vague, you need to make an appointment to see someone who focuses on career counseling (she herself just did job search). Well anyway she gave me a few website to check out that would list vacancies in Houston and I made an appointment to see the career counselor (which is now tomorrow). **Sigh** I know it's a big waste of time. I can already tell you exactly what she's going to tell me. I'm going to find out that I'm well suited to a job involving people and/or creative endeavors, and that I have good leadership and analytical skills. But unless they actually tell me "you need to become a member of management in the public relations department of a company which makes wooden sculptures" I don't see it helping me narrow this down all that much. Meanwhile today at work I was having a perfectly pleasant day when I checked my phone 45 min. before going home time only to discover that my mom had left me a voice mail. It turns out she came home from work today and found her cat dead in the yard, a couple of feet away from the street . She was very upset to put it mildly. She'd really grown super attached to the cat, particularly after her 16 year old cat died last year (yeah 16 years old. I was really attached to him,,,,I mean I was only like 5 when we got him). Anyway I called and had a very depressing 5 min talk with her. Then a few hours later she called back again and we had another very depressing 5 min talk. I offered to drive in and visit, but she said there really wasn't anything I could (which is true), and that I shouldn't bother particularly since I have 2 (maybe 3???) exams this week. So after I talked to her I thought perhaps going out to dinner would lighten my mood a bit so I called my friend Mandi (I've seriously been wanting to do a whole entry just on her). Anyway she's got a boyfriend in Ohio; her very over-protective parents do not approve of this. However, she's been sneaking off every couple of weekends (well not really "sneaking off" she lives 70 miles away from them, but they do call alot so she has to come up with excuses) to go and see him. Sometimes they meet in the middle sometimes one of them just drives all the way to the other. I'm still yet to meet him but he sounds pretty nice. Anyway apparently her mom found out this weekend and things got...ugly. Maybe I'll go into more detail later but basically she wasn't in the mood to go out and talking to her only gave me more things to feel bad about and worry over. I mean I don't approve of the lying either, but I think it's ashame that they try to keep her on such a short lead when the girl's 21 years old for goodness sake. I mean I know they're just worried about her, but she wouldn't be sneaking around or doing as many risky things if she didn't feel boxed in. Anyway so today at work I spent a good bit of time with the new girl, Stacey. Wow! This girl is fun! She's extremely cheerful and chatty and has a great sense of humour. Cute smile too. Anyway she's also extremely playful and flirtatious. The first day I met her she used the phrase "work it" on me, when I walked by. Then last Thursday I found out she was in my night class, but I came in late and left early (what ?? it's a REALLY boring class, and it lasts 3 hours! So I seldom go and never stay for the whole thing...yeah yeah I'm being bad ) so we didn't get a chance to talk. So today when I see her the first thing she says to me is, "so did you see me checking you out in our psyc. class Thursday?" . LOL then an hour or so later when I went to pass by her our backsides sorta brushed up against each other. So I was like "oh excuse me" and she laughed and smirked and said "oh that's okay, I liked it". . So anyway you'd think this would be making me uncomfortable right? Naw not really. It just fits her personality really well and she doesn't seem threatening. Anyway the confusing bit is when toward the end of the day the topic of sushi came up and I said how much I liked it. So she invited me to go have sushi with her and her BOYFRIEND tomorrow night. huh! I mean I wasn't interested in dating her because 1 ) I'd rather date a guy right now in my life and 2 ) I'm moving soon and don't want to start ANY relationship. But actually if I were going to date a girl she wouldn't be a bad choice. Anyway I really don't get it, I mean she keeps coming on to me, but then invites me to have sushi with her and her boyfriend. I didn't even know she had a boyfriend! Anyway I told her the truth, I have my other night class tomorrow night, and we have a test in it. So she said she'd call me when they were going and if I was done with the test by then I could just go meet them. Oh well, it's complicated but I think I really will go if I'm done with the test in time. I mean she is fun, I like meeting new people (her boyfriend...and NO I'm not at all thinking along THOSE lines), I do love sushi, and they're going somewhere I've never been before. So it'll probably be kinda fun. Anyway I guess I'd better start studying Have a great day everyone! Kevin

Kitty, where did you find that nifty emoticon? I think I smiled a bit while watching the clip,,,but I didn't actually laugh

Hey Tony I heard you were ill . Are you feeling any better? Hope you get well soon, have an awesome day! Kevin

But aren't the two different already? I mean isn't the domaholics' section brown and yellow whereas the main part of gayauthors is blue, light blue, and gray?