thephoenix

The phoenix is a symbol of birth, death, and resurrection. For me, I joined this site after a period of self discovery where I was in a very dark place mentally/emotionally and was able start a new clean slate after moving to the U.S. History has a habit of repeating itself though so a similar thing happened in 2017. After years of self-discovery and forcing change again, I feel like I'm on the correct path again. The phoenix symbol has kind of stuck with me.

me likey shinies...

Phoenix sees shiny, phoenix takes shiny. *Flies up and portals out to the fire realm*

Arcadia - City of Solarius The War of the Magi raged on outside the walls of the city Solarius, capital city for the fire mages and the seat of the royal palace. It was the star of the Arcadian realm set on a hillside with excellent natural protection from the mountains and a rapid moving river flanking the city on two sides, and a forest and open plains on the others. The city had hundreds of brown, gold, and bronze spires and arches reaching up to the stars and many red canna lilies lining the streets and arched windows. There was always activity at all hours of the day and night f

A decades-long war between the fire and dark mages has ended up in a stalemate just outside Solarius in Arcadia. King Rowan and Queen Reyna decide to send their sole heir Alexander (Alex) through the multiverse to Earth with their most trusted friend Ariana to keep him safe. Alex grows up and remains in the dark about his heritage and dormant powers until the truth begins to unravel. Events force him to enlist the help of friends, train in the magical arts, and discover the secrets of the Ancients. Should he fail, the fate of the terran homeworld and that of Arcadia could hang in the bala

*returns from lurkerville* I spot a shiny. Mine. 🤴

im baaaack. 😀

Thank you for sharing your experiences-- for myself, I've only begun to chip away at this since January 22nd when all heck broke loose so yeah...i have that feeling of just being stuck and I'm wondering whether I will ever get out of this. Thank you....and yeah it's definitely a work in progress since I haven't mentally forgiven myself for screwing up so bad as far as "A" is concerned. I've known him a little under a year but we grew close quickly through my fraternity--that is--until February 17th.

Thanks Graeme, it's just that...that's the hard part. Not knowing and not really having closure on the matter. But yeah, right now, I don't think there is anything else I can do. Hope is all I have left. Thank you Tim, for your support; I'm not sure which is more painful...losing a best friend or losing a girl/boyfriend..not by passing, but just...ending the relationship. I've never had any experience in the latter so I don't know and I've heard mixed responses. I would never wish this on anyone, not even a nemesis. Thank you Dodger...and yeah, I try

Hey everyone... I know I've been inactive for a very long time but I plan on being more active now. (sorry if this is the wrong forum for this). As of right now, I have come out to 8 people, not including professional therapists, psychiatrists, counselors, or social workers, been hospitalized 4 times this year alone so far and am now currently in some rehab-for-depression kind of place. Long story short, I have been on the brink of SI (suicidal ideation) multiple times for various reasons, dotted with a few actual attempts. That's not the point of this post