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Shit that gave me chills.

I still think Jon should take the Paxil. Although ten mg. is a bit low I think. Twenty would be good to start with. Anyway, maybe a new environment is what Jon and his dad need. Although the whole saying goodbye scene with Stace and Mike was heartbreaking. I hope Jon can open himself up again to make new friends in England. Otherwise he is going to be very lonely, which will only add to his depression. Another tear-jerker of a chapter! Luckily I stocked up on Kleenex!

Yeah, Jeremy set the wheels in motion, but will he live long enough to ride those wheels? Well, you know what I mean. Jacob had to have seen everything that happened in the apt. and he's NOT going to be happy with what Chris thought of him. Not that I think Jacob would care. I just feel anxious about Jeremy staying there. It's very obvious that Jacob abuses him physically. I'm afraid for Jeremy's safety. I wish his friends knew of Jacob's abuse; they would never let Jeremy go back to him. I'm anxiously awaiting the next chapter.

I loved the scene with Elijah and Chris in the kitchen. It's like Chris knows how Elijah feels and he knows Elijah will never admit how he feels, and he's ok with that. Unfortunately I know the feelings Elijah is having with Sophie. I'm not looking forward to their eventual break-up. I also liked the conversation in the car with Tom. At least Elijah knows now that Tom will be ok with Elijah once he comes out to him. (well, if he does that is) Or will Tom find out another way, like walking in on him and Chris like they were in Sophie's kitchen. That wouldn't be good. lol I'm looking forward to more!

Glad to see this finally updated! Glad you didn't jump ship or anything! I was a bit confused when Andrew and Brian went up to Andrew's room and they lay down and talked about school and things, Brian told Andrew all about the kids in school, who's cool, who's not, his friends and their cell numbers....but they've been hanging out since the beginning of October; they were bff's, so shouldn't Brian have told Andrew all this two months ago? In that paragraph, it seemed like they just met. Also, about halfway thru the chapter, you changed Ms. Marshall's name to Ms. Mitchell's name. And why didn't she want to go out w/Andrew's dad? Oh, and what's the scoop on Elizabeth? That was never really addressed? Is Brian her cousin? Was Brian the person she was speaking to on the phone those times when Andrew overheard her? But then how could she, Brian AND his mom not say anything about it? Anyway...I'm really enjoying the story! I hope the next update will be quicker!

Omg, this Jacob has got to go! He's a psycho control freak who needs to give Jeremy his space. Jeremy's friend is absolutely right; he needs to get the hell out of there! I can't believe Jacob has video cameras in the place; what a psycho! A dangerous psycho to boot!

Great chapter Nap! Loved the part where Chris keeps denying he's gay, but then he remembers in college he had a crush on a "Liam". Hmm, maybe he needs to remember more... I'm looking forward to him 'meeting' his boys. I hope David told them that their other daddy doesn't remember them. Oh, and one little typo: psysiatrist, I think you meant psychiatrist. =)

Wait, what? That's it??????? Morgan left? Just like that? He just gave up? No confrontation with Chase, shoving Coop's almost betrayal in his face? That doesn't seem like the Morgan we've come to know and lov...hate. The last paragraph got to me; I'm glad Coop and Chase found their "forever's". I really enjoyed reading about their wedding talk. Made me choke up thinking that Coop should have said yes to Chase all those years ago. But then there would be no Devon, Liz, CJ drama! Amazing story Jon! Loved The List and loved this story! Maybe we'll see a spin-off with Kyle and the cute doc? Hmmm, seems like they were making googly eyes at each other. lol And of course I'm looking forward to reading the epilogue! And any other future Jon stories!

I found that whole chapter to be depressing. I hate Elijah's thoughts about everything in this chapter. I got the feeling that he thinks about sex like a child hooker would; filled with sadness and depression and useless motions afterwards. Just made me sad. And now Chris is going to feel insecure b/c now Eli's ignoring him. They'll probably act differently towards one another. I wonder if Tom will figure it out...

Hey Fitz, just started reading this today. It's extremely moving and I'll be honest; I almost ran out of Kleenex. I'm glad you mentioned the cops and the coroner. I was wondering when or if they would ever be mentioned. I don't know why there's no yellow police tape around Scott's house. Also, I don't think the M.E. would release Steve's body after only three days. I know from my limited CSI watching that it takes them time to get the bullets out, examine them, dust the body for prints, etc. I didn't think they could do all this in three days. I'm also suprised during this time the detectives didn't have Scott go down to the police station. Are they investigating anything? Have they gone around interviewing friends and famly? I think your focus of the story is love, losing love and opening up your heart to find love again, but I would think that Scott (and his friends and family) would want to find out who killed Steve and why. Also, that whole "don't" when Scott tried to get closer to Steve after he'd been shot, I think Steve said 'don't' so Scott didn't get closer. He may have been trying to tell him to get out of the house b/c he didn't know where the killers where. He didn't want Scott to get shot either. And I'm sure their little argument was the last thing Steve was thinking of when he was lying there bleeding out. Anyway, awesome story Fitz; very raw and emotional. On to chapter four. Oh, btw, I think it was in the second chapter you used two words, but wrote them as one: forgetting. I read the sentence about five times before I realized you meant for getting, not forgetting. lol =)

Oh Jasper, I reckon that mother is driving her family nuts. What a horrible way for these kids to grow up. She seriously needs help. Prozac works wonders. As well as therapy, of course. But she needs the Prozac first. What's really sad is that they are all enabling her. I know the father, by saying it's ok about the bread and when Elijah was little, by telling him that he's right and that's all he needs to worry about, isn't helping. He may be the biggest enabler. Of course you want to enable them, b/c if you don't, all hell will break loose. You just want peace in the house and you know if you go against the OCD person, all you will get is screaming and yelling. Reading about poor Elijah when he was little broke my heart. Even though he knew he was right (with whatever they were talking about or doing), you can't rationalize with a person with OCD. Deep down in their heart they know you're right and they can understand the rationalization, but they are too afraid to believe it. They just believe what they believe, no matter how crazy it is and no one can tell them differently. The whole bread thing and peanut butter thing seems to be only for the father. The kids can eat it, but not the father. Is the mom so afraid something will happen to the father? After all, he's almost fifty (gasp!) and he might drop dead if he has a piece of bread. I wish I knew more about her father and her late mother. Something must have happened in her childhood to set this OCD off. Some catalyst or something. It's genetic you know. Maybe not with the germ thing, but there are many, many forms of OCD. Of course something traumatic could have happened after childhood, but something set her brain off; changed the levels of serotonin and now she is only comfortable living in her own insanity. Of course Elijah's "obsession" with taking showers and feeling his own control that way, is like flushing, or getting rid of his mother's daily insanity and craziness. He needs his showers to feel in control of himself and to feel safe. She doesn't even realize she's poisoning her children. Why doesn't the father get her the help she so desperately needs? Oh, and why does Elijah's father ring the doorbell? Is that another germ thing with the mother? She doesn't want him touching the doorknob or keys or something? Funny, I'm reading a story on another site that has to do with OCD also. Jasper, as always, your chapters are terrifically written and very emotional. Kudos to you.

I started reading this story right before I saw people nominating it for the Reader's Choice Awards. I've been reading it on an off ever since. I finally finished. It was such a wonderful story. It made me cry, made me laugh, made me cry again. I loved all the characters, except for Rick. It's too bad it took his mother having a heart attack for him to get his stupidity in check. I'm glad he finally came to his senses. lol I was sorry to see the story end, but am thrilled that Charlie and Scott will live happily ever after. Well, in my unrealistic view of the world anyway. I look forward to reading more from you.

Had to re-read the last chapter to remember what happened! lol It was a great idea to for Allen to suggest Quinn's father come in for a session, but I understand Quinn's worry. After all, Allen's office is Quinn's 'safe place'. A place where he can tell Allen anything and no one will find out. He feels safe and free there. A place that's all his, so to speak. But once his father gets there, Quinn probably feels like his presence will ruin his 'safe place'. It won't be all 'his' anymore and definitely not safe. He won't feel comfortable there anymore. I understand. His father does need couseling though; too bad he can't go to another counselor somewhere else. I'm glad Cameron is slowly starting to warm up to Quinn, although I totally understand why he wouldn't want to be alone with him. It'll take him a long time to be truly comfortable alone with Quinn. I'm so glad you updated this Damond! Looking foward to the next chapter! Oh, and what other sites do you post stories on? I'd love to read more from you; I love your writing style. =)

I've been looking forward to the next update for weeks it seems! lol It's all good though; I needed a good cry; I was due for one see, I hadn't had one since your last update! haha My heart just breaks for Jon. I just want to take him in my arms and hug him and tell him with time, he'll heal. It will take quite awhile before he gets used to his 'new normal'. But he will. Mike was his godsend. Stacy too, but especially Mike. I'm wondering how they all took the news of Jon's leaving. I'm thinking Jon was heartbroken, knowing that he really needs his friends and support system now. After all, it's only been five months; that's not a long time at all to grieve for your mom. I'm anxiously awaiting the next update.

What? What did he forget? You kinda left us hanging there J! I'm really glad you decided to continue this story! I had to re-read the first chapter again to remind myself what happened. I feel so bad for Tyler. Brandon too. You hinted at scars and bruises on Tyler's chest. I'm assuming Tyler's dad beats him? That's horrible. I don't understand how parents can abuse their own children. I'm looking forward to the next chapter!

Cooper you are out of your fucking mind!!!! Do you honestly think Morgan is gonna go after this? Oh no; he's gonna get ahold of Chase and shove it down his throat! Chase is gonna feel so betrayed by Coop I don't even want to read about it. Coop may as well have ended it with Chase, b/c after this....Idk...what an ass. Of all the things he could have done, he chooses THIS????? It doesn't even make any sense to me. If I were Morgan, I'd certainly use this against Coop to try and win Chase back. Coop doesn't think Morgan is beneath blackmailing him? Omg is he stupid! And why would Morgan leave now afer this anyway? He can blackmail Coop, rat him out to Chase; he'll be having so much fun in Dalls, he'll NEVER leave! Shit. I think Morgan should meet Kyle; they're both single; maybe they'll hit it off. Although Kyle is certainly too good for Morgan, maybe under Kyle's influence, Morgan will change. haahhaha Oh, and why does Kyle keep referring to Coop as 'sir'? Ok, I cannot wait until the next chapter. I think Coop just totally sabatoged his relationship with Chase. Damn idiot.

Oh Elijah, how could you? You promised! Needless to say, I'm really disappointed in him. I can't imagine that Jamie would even talk to him again, never mind let him make it up to him. Oh, and is this an English thing where you have to buy something in a store in order to use the bathroom? I never heard of such a thing! lol

Ha! Yeah, I ditto intune; I totally did NOT see that one coming! I thought he had a WIFE and kids, lol! And he's not gay! Poor David, boy will HE be disappointed! Can't wait to read more Nap!

Jesus, Elijah has more issues than Time magazine. Ok sorry, I stole that from somewhere. But it fits. He's quite OCD himself. Maybe not like his mother will all the pills and air purifiers, but with other things. What is it about haircuts that make him sane? Does he feel that if his hair is 'in order', than the rest of his life is in order? And then in a month when his hair gets longer and out of control, his life will follow? Elijah is very good at reading others. He had Jamie pegged from day one. But even he admitted he didn't care enough to help Jamie. Just think; he could be the only one who cares enough to even find out why Jamie is so fearful of people. He's even good at rationalizing his own family's behavior. He instigates fights between his mother and his grandfather b/c he knows it'll piss his mother off. And he even knows why they're fighting. He's a very smart kid. But he needs to be smart with himself. I think I shrink would have a field day with him. I was a bit confused though when he was at the dinner table with the Hardings. Elijah thought of Tom's parents as, "a pair of complete strangers". Why? I thought him and Tom had been best friends for years. He's always over Tom's house. Why would he think his parents are "complete strangers"? Is this just his way of like separating people and finding categories for them and making sure no one gets too close to the real Elijah? Elijah is definitely an interesting but complex person. I just want to put him on a couch and see if I could help him. lol I look forward to the next chapter! Thanks for the quick updates! =)

Ok Caffled, you really need to put a warning at the beginning of this chapter: Will induce severe sadness, will make reader broke from buying Kleenex. I did run out, btw, damn you. Shit, what an emotional chapter. I can certainly see why Jon would blame himself and think it's his fault his mom got into that accident. That poor kid. It was wonderful his friends and parents were so great with his coming out, but now he's going to blame himself for the rest of his life for this tragedy. I think I said this in my review of the first chapter, but I'll say it again: this is an excellent story and so well written. Except for a couple of your instead of you're and were instead of we're, it's pretty much perfect. Just the whole crying my eyes out thing and not being able to see the keyboard, so yeah. Gonna go out and buy some more Kleenex. Damn you. =)

Hey Jasper! I read all four chapters in one go and I must say: what an incredible story so far! =) I think Elijah shows a maturity well beyond his seventeen years. Even with all his "personas" and hiding with all his secrets, he is not like a typical teenager. His home life certainly leaves little to be desired. His mother sounds pretty OCD, in regards to germs, what with all the pills and purifiers and whatnot all over the house. She's lucky she has a daughter who keeps the place spotless. Of course OCD is genetic... I feel bad for Elijah, never having grown up with the love, emotions and affection of his family. Unfortunately that will shape him for the rest of his life. And he deals with this by hiding in his different personalities. No one can ever know the 'real' Elijah. His own defense mechanism. How sad. Despite that, he is such an intriguing character that I can't wait to read more about! Excellent story Jasper! I look forward to the next update!

Em, I just had to r&r here too! I was actually thinking about this story the other day. I was thinking how you were due for an update! lol I just don't know how Dave is going to pull off his "ugly" routine on the trip! He'll like lose an acne thingy or something. Omg, and if they share a room and Tyler sees Dave undress, omg. I wonder if he'll think of David (or did they never see each other shirtless, I can't remember). Anyway, I cannot wait for the trip! Awesome, awesome chapter Em! As always, I'm anxiously awaiting the next chapter!

That scene with Sally was hysterical! That actor Edgar Allen Poe; what a moron! lol Merry's parents seem pretty cool. I was confused though why they were laughing when Jace asked about a curfew. Merry is only fourteen after all. I'm looking foward to reading about the party. I hope everything goes well.

Oh man, I was at the edge of my seat, trying not to read ahead, and BAM!!!!! The chapter ended! lol I'm dying to find out the family's reaction to Andy and Joey's coming out. I think they'll be ok with it. They seem to be very open and loving people. I'll tell you: the pastor's sermon had tears falling down MY face! I'd love to hear one of his sermons, and I'm Jewish! lol If only everyone felt that way; then there wouldn't be any prejudices and people wouldn't hate one another just b/c they're different from them. And I had to laugh: when you wrote sites, when they were all going looking at the sites on the way back from Red Lobster, you meant sights, right? I think we're all on the computer so much, all we think is in computer speak! But it should be sights, not sites. Awesome chapter Billy! As always! Good luck with the story being nominated; it certainly deserved it. Did they choose the winners yet?

Derrick's mom is the absolute BEST! What's so funny is that she's a fan girl at heart! lol Loved the line: "You're on your own jackass. Good luck." Too funny. I am so glad everything turned out so well with his mom. I was starting to panic with him at one point. So glad you updated this awesome story Comicality! Now I just gotta wait for "Jesse"...hint, hint, poke, poke.