InTheMindOfSunshine

I sensed this was going to be a hard question... Lincoln's the type of person who likes having power over people. (An example outside of Gabe would be Finn. Though it's never outright addressed, the identity of his previous, horrible, roommate was in fact Lincoln.) Gabe is sort of like a game to Lincoln. He's a bit obsessed with Gabe and originally expected Gabe to come crawling back to him within days of breaking up with him at the beginning of the story. Gabe doesn't because of the thrill of a new school year and new people, especially Henry. When Gabe didn't go back to him, Lincoln decided force put himself in Gabe's life instead. That's why he lobbied to move into Cameron House and why he went out of his way introduce Gabe to Ryan. Lincoln believes that he can still control Gabe. When Gabe stood up to him in defense of Auggie at the dinner in chapter eleven, Lincoln finally realized that he had lost his control. His last chance of controlling Gabe is by tearing him down again, by destroying any romaticized version of Henry Gabe may have possessed. It doesn't go as well as Lincoln would have hoped--by that, I mean Lincoln wanted Gabe to come back to him--he delieved the final blow: voicing the awful lie Gabe had been telling himself. So basically Lincoln wasn't at the house to convince Gabe to kill himself but rather to convince Gabe to choose him over Henry. The fact that this drove Gabe to suicide was an unexpected flaw in his plan. ...Hopefully I answered your question without too much confusion.

I toyed with the idea of killing Gabe off completely, especially during the early parts of the draft. Early on, it was supposed to be about how suicide affected those left behind. That's why I initially made Gabe so dependent upon Auggie and Kyra. Then I realized, as I mapped out the entire backstory of Henry, that I really didn't want to write it that way. So I promoted Declan to a bigger part and decided to, instead, let Jude's death serve as a tribute to my original plan. So, no, the story did not go how I originally planned it to go at all. When I finally decided for certain that I was not going to kill off Gabe, by that point I was already around chapter six, I the drew up a rough idea of the set-backs which he would face, namely Henry's questionable issue with the subject of suicide. Most of those ideas ended up becoming part of the story. So I always planned to put Gabe through hell, but I didn't always plan for him to survive. For the most part, I construct stories around a particular scene. For this story it was the opening scene. For Ground Rules, however, it was the umbrella scene in chapter eighteen, which was pretty much the beginning of that chapter. Borrowing Family was the same: it was contructed around chapter nine in the scene between Wes and Lachlan. There are exceptions to this, though. The Paradox Series was created from a general idea of bullying. The stories on which I am currently writing all stemmed from general ideas of various issues.

Thanks, Lisa! And thanks to Cia for chosing this story. I haven't actually looked at it in a long while, and it's a nice excuse to pull it out of the files collecting dust on my computer.

If not for Trebs commenting on my forum, I might have missed this. Good thing I did not. I'm very surprised and very honored. Thanks, Joann, for taking the time to write the wonderful review. Honestly, I have no words to describe how much this made my day.

I liked it a lot. I like the characterizations of Stone and of Jason. I agree with the other reviewer; you should continue it. Maybe a short follow-up if nothing else.

I just now came across this, but thank you Intune for the review. =)

It's been long overdue, HJ, but I finally got around to re-reading this. (So that if we ever do discuss this again, I'll know which version you're talking about.) Although I know what's going to happen (or at least I think I remember), this chapter saddens me greatly. BUT I'm moving on to the next one. =)

When I get back to my dorm room, the first thing I do is drop my backpack and collapse on my bed (regardless of what time it is/how much stuff is piled on it.) When I first get back home on the weekends, I unload my car and then once again collapse on my bed (a different bed though.) So it's not much different from one place to the next. =)

When I was a kid, I wanted to be a firefighter. I can remember drawing that in kindergarten for a school assignment. When I entered high school, I wanted to be either a surgeon or a pediatrician. Now I really want to be a social worker to work with kids and an author on the side. What are my plans after college? Attend law school to become a lawyer, because, sadly, there isn't any good social working jobs around where I live. But I will continue to write. =)

My friend texts me, "Good morning, Sunshine." every morning when she wakes up, and I reply back, calling her Moonlight. It's been that way for about a year now, and the nicknames have just stuck. So I used that as a base and the rest of it just sorta happened.

I'd want to be a cat, but not the ones psychologists use to study the brain with. Just a regular cat.

Wow. I'm slightly boring... This Google (with nothing searched as of now)

"Hallelujah" by Jeff Buckley. It makes me happy.

Spring. The weather gets warmer, and summer's just around the corner. =)

Hi! I'm not new to writing but I'm new here. I'm looking forward to posting stories on here. =)