Lol... I admit nothing, but I sure enjoyed writing that little piece.
That point you missed about Tobyn being afraid of earth mates because of what happens when one dies is very key to who he is and how he handles things. He would prefer that part of shifter's legacy gone. Of course, that is a burying your head in the sand thing to feel. Still, he witnessed the demise of Fendral, who was so important to him, and it tilted his views immensely.
Tobyn is turning himself onto knots over what he is feeling, but he is determined to stick to what he thinks is best for his pack. He's been on a mission, and any kind of movement off it is hard for him to entertain.
Thanks for the great comment, Terry. Cheers!