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I am taking my love life nice and slow. I have a lot of insecurities, a lot of unknowns, and a lot of pent up sexual frustrations. That's my life right now. My 1st question is, do I love him? I don't know, he's charming as hell though 2nd, Can I settle don with him? Maybe, but I want to learn more about him I am entering that phase in a gay man's life where he is looking for stability, not the ocassional fuck or suck or tongue explorations. In the past, I dated guys in their 20's like me, now I am taking the plunge and dating a guy who's 38 and 9 years my senior. I've been finding it more appealing to be with older guys as I am getting older, the maturity level is more there. He's also not so old that I can't relate, I was playing SNES and Sega at age 7, so I know all about Duck hunt and vectorman, I watched MTV, and I remember Ducktales I have an innate fear that I have had since I was young. I worried for the longest time of dying alone at extreme old age having survived my partner, our kids, and everyone I cared for. It was a recurring nightmare for me to be in an empty mansion looking at pictures of lost friends and a lost love with a feeling that I have achieved everything I wanted to do, but had nothing left and no dreams left.

Yeah, I know what HIV+ is and how it is not full blown AIDS (Being gay makes it imperative and pertinent to know your history), but I am looking at a prospective pet/friend of the feline variety. He's FIV+, which is something new to me. I did not know Cats can get infected with retro-viruses similar to humans. Worse, I didn't know there was a stigma that a cat could get for being FIV+ as to be left out on the street, where the animal rescue people found him. I want to know more about this: How does it happen? Is it preventable? I was a dog owner for a long time, but now am feeling lonely after his death several years ago and could use the friendly purrs of a cat on my lap.

Shameless plug, but seriously I am laughing at this 1980's promo commercial, so fitting for its time:

Life, Death, and rituals, there's a lot of things Chinese people do that is strange and alien to many people. In some ways, it is anachronistic and in other ways, it is a sign of cultural longevity. For 5,000 years, funerals have happened in similar manners for millions of households, if not billions. There's kneeling, ceremonial bowing, a bit of supplicated crawling to the casket, constant chanting and wailing, and lots of origami paper folding plus burning of the folded paper and ghost money (Origami is a Japanese term, the Chinese had a simpler more ritualistic reason for folding paper, usually for funerals). Culturally, people gossip during a funeral about other family members, it's the usual affairs with other men/women, adulterous liaisons with bastard kids, insinuations of corruption, un-filial behavior, and pledges of murder against some ancient wrong within the family. Basically, from what I have heard, it's almost like a Jewish family in a way. Pedigrees are exchanged, people are sized up by education and fashion, and there is an ominous stir of incense that clouds your nasal passages, which evoke runny noses and tears. That's my grandfather's funeral.

Actually, I have a classical education (Greek and Latin in High School), so whether it's one of the Oresteian Trilogy's stories (All life is a play to the Greeks ) or De bello Gallico, I've probably read it. As for Euripedes, I am most familiar with Medea (Something about a women killing her husband's new paramour and her kids, sounds like a News Headline nowadays). Even if you are gay, you can imagine a scenario where you are betrayed by your boyfriend for another guy, then you seek revenge on him. It's human nature. Classic stories explore the human element, our triumphs and our flaws that remain despite advances in knowledge, technology, and social dynamics. Things like jealousy, greed, and war are as eternal as love, charity, and peace, neither can exist without the other to define the relative human perspective.

Happy Birthday, you young Aussie !!!! :D

We never talk about classic literature, despite being "Gay Authors" and readers of all types, sizes, creeds, and sexual interests. There are classic stories that have stood the test of time, stories with ideas that transcends any localized temporal issues or social stigmas/ideals, and stories that seem to reverberate as clear 200 years ago as they do today. For some reason, I was thinking about Les Mis' today as I thought about my trip to New York for my grandfather's funeral (I've seen the movie musical and read the original book a few times). Basically, in order to save money staying in NYC for a few days and help pay for my grandfather's funeral expenses, I rented an apartment in an lower income area of New York City. There were crazy people, homeless people, and a bunch of others I'm used to as I am a Bostonian and have worked in the ghettos as an accountant for a health network of community health centers serving the poor inner city in a past job for 3 years. However, actually living there (Thank you Bookings.com for getting me bottom barrel prices ) and shopping at the local marts, it just reminded me of the story. Urban poverty is real and there is a tragic reality to it that was true in the 19th century as it is in the 21st century. Instead of stealing bread to feed his family, the modern day Jean Valjean is dealing in goods as an illegal hawker without a permit and when the cops arrest him and put him in jail for selling counterfeit goods with copyrights and fines he can never understand or pay, is jail time any more justifiable than stealing a loaf of Bread for a starving family. It just made me think of the story and I just began drawing more and more parallels between Victor Hugo's classic and Modern America. I don't want this to be a purely political/Pit type discussion on economics and politics, but something approaching literary relevance from this classic story to modern society. I think Les Miserables really touches on a lot of good topics that are important and relevant to how a lot of people live.

Let there be light, to this topic again.... 11 seasons going on to 12, Supernatural is now the longest running series of fantasy/horror in the US, even outgunning the X-files and Fringe. LGBT writers have written some really fun and sometimes disturbing fan fictions of the Winchester boys and their friends, but I think the show is definitely part of our culture now, especially with fans. Last week, Supernatural fans finally got the big reveal, we now know for certain without a doubt or supposition or any other issue that God is....bisexual (If he were gay, it would turn the world upside down, but bi makes a lot of sense for a being that loves all. I'd prefer to think pan-sexual is a better term, but that raises some bizarre things that we as human beings cannot accept.) Also he's.... The episode "Don't call me Shurley" was really good, but it probably is even better for GA writers and fans, because it touches on some interesting points from our writing and our creations points of view. God is a bitter narcissistic bisexual writer, who has a lot of regents over his creations and unhappiness over what has happened. He's basically like a lot GA writers that have come and gone over the years here; filled with creative energy, angst, bitterness, and a lot of wishful regrets that they couldn't do more or thing did not turn out the way they wanted. It's meta in the best way possible.

Rugby Player for fun and exercising parts of my body... Tom Daley for cuddles and a summer home near the coast

The aliens evolve if you pollute the planet and they become more powerful and aggressive as you build up your factories and industrial complex. Basically, they're the Zerg at their fully evolved level, so you need to build a lot of laser turrets and weapons to kill them..

This is an awesome game, even for early access: Here's a nice review of the game that will give you guys some idea: https://www.rockpapershotgun.com/2016/03/07/factorio-review-early-access/ As the review says: There is a free demo too if you don't want to take the plunge like me and buy the early access version

Happy Belated Birthday! Hope you had fun today

Happy Birthday Drew! :D I give you a haiku: A Pie and a Boy The circle nears completion A Boy profess love!

I hear the sh-IT program is bad for a Tech school ASSLaw, some one needs to start a counter donation drive 30,000,001 to change the name.

Reminds me of an old skit with Stephen Colbert before he went to Comedy Central, he was one part of the Ambiguously gay duo http://www.nbc.com/saturday-night-live/video/tv-funhouse-ambiguously-gay-duo/n10987

Yes, it's political, but it's good news so don't read too much into it Governor Wolf of Pennsylvania will sign Executive Orders against LGBT Discrimination

Someone needed a self-esteem extension

Remember that time, when Buffy and Scoobies had to fight off the swim team being turned into monster due to performance enhancing drugs: This might be interesting review

Just remembered one other thing 90's had that few others did (Don't think any shows exist with premises like these anymore outside certain specialized networks), but I hope mods do not think I am breaking rules by mentioning them, I won't even name the shows just to prove the point This was one of those shows that is heavy cream cheesy The next one was part of my WB watching from time to time, just because Buffy and Angel weren't on, when I needed that gooey cheesy feeling: Few prime-time networks are as gooey and preachy as that anymore, this is classic cheese!

The 90's brought this ugly piece of cheese on screen: Plus, it's horrible spin off that makes a mockery of good Sci-Fi

Let's add one more macho intro of a cheesy TV show with potentially one of the worst movie sequels ever, where they converte Fantasy to Sci-fi:

Grrr...I love bears! Awesome to see someone normal as a model for once, not a plastic twink, who is actually 40

For some reason, I just thought about an old TV show that I haven't even seen in at least a decade from syndication, but all the talks about rebels, guns, and outlaws just triggered a cheesy memory. The concept was corny and cheesy, but it was the forerunner of Walker, Texas Ranger and several other shows from the same era. This just made me think of all the shows I caught on TV a few times as a kid that I wasn't supposed to be watching. Ladies and Gentlemen and people in transition: I give you Renegade Also for some reason, this show also makes me think of another from later in the same time period, which is completely unrelated: La Femme Nikita (I remembered the opening was sort of weird and it is) Of course after a trip down female heroine land, I had to make a pit stop at the Queen of the late 90's cheesy and fun drama, Buffy the Vampire Slayer Now to complete this trip down memory lane, after Buffy tangent, I remembered something about sisters with wicked fashion sense and cheesy plots of a Soap Opera: Charmed Anyone else?

What is it with Texas and digging into Mexico that makes this so right! Here's one piece of architecture:

If it makes you feel better, I didn't know half the songs outside of pop and a few hip-hop songs from the 90's, I also dislike that they did not include more mainstream Rock songs, like Savage Garden, Goo Goo Dolls, and Matchbox Twenty (Seriously, Ska is not the same.) As for the teens of today and 90's kids like me and Method, Spice Girls really are a great touchstone group for generations of pop listeners across the world (I also unabashly have their movie)