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*GASP* CJ!!!!! You edited a moderators edits?!? Shame on you!!!!!! *Looks at the bright red tag that says administrator* Oops... looks like you out rank me on this one Now.... why do you think you don't qualify? I wanna hear some goat logic on this one. Eric

No I didn't vote! I'm remaining impartial by staying out of it Kinda.

Well, the past few days have been fun, but also there's been an overwhelming dark cloud hanging over my head, to which I had to go to my doc and talk to him about it. As you may (or may not know) I have a serious anxiety disorder that, if untreated, can lead to a seizure like panic attack. Unfortunately the medicine I was taking for awhile to help with the anxiety started to cause anxiety. I was becoming addicted to it. I talked to my doc and he told me to come in ASAP yesterday which I did and told me what was happening. Basically he said that I was becoming addicted to it, and that it wasn't AS serious as it could get, but it's serious enough for him to take me off of it asap. He told me to flush all the pills I had left from my prescription and he re-prescribed me my old anxiety medicine and thanks to him, I can get it discounted through the maker because I qualify for it and it seems to be the only medicine that helps me without the addictive side effects of the other ones. This is why I love my doc, he's helpful and knowledgeable about things, and makes time if you're having an emergency like I was. According to him, the next week or so is gonna be really hard for me because of the withdrawl symptoms that I'll experience. While they won't be as bad because of the other medicine helping out, it'll still show up sometimes. On another note, I gotta love my bf. When I explained to him what was going on, he got up and brought his mom into the kitchen (she's a nurse) and I told her what was going on and she gave me some tips to deal with the withdrawal. Another thing was that I was worried about was this affecting my school start (it seems that every time I start school, something goes wrong!!!!!) and the doc said that it shouldn't. I might be a little shakey and scatter brained, but it shouldn't cause an big impact (that and the teacher knows already about my condition so I should be covered). Well, that's all... cept for one piece of good news You know the hat that y'all LOVE but was lost? Well, lets just say Matt got me a surprise and it was the same hat that I lost! :P :P

And here I thought Myr = The Don of GA (Godfather Reference )

TO MAKE THE POLL MORE FAIR, I ADDED IN THE FORMER AND CURRENT REIGNING CLIFFHANGER KING TO THE POLL. THIS IS NOT A DUTY THAT I TAKE LIGHTLY, BUT AFTER READING C JAMES MATERIALS, I FOUND THAT HE ALWAYS IS IMPARTIAL AND SHOWS CONSIDERATION, SO I ADDED HIS NAME DUE TO THE FACT THAT HE MIGHT HAVE FORGOTTEN TO ADD HIS NAME TO THE LIST TO SHOW IMPARTIALITY. Eric Forum Moderation Team

Matt got me a suprise the other day... Looks like everyone's favorite hat is back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It got one thing right... it's a mouth full

I'm so sorry to hear James. My prayers and good wishes are with you and your father Eric

Happy Birthday to someone who's put up with me, given me a lot of good advice and a few good thwaps when I needed it. You're one of a kind and I'm glad that we're friends! Again, Happy Birthday! Eric

Okay, a lot has happened in the past two days, so I'll sum it up by day Friday - Got my first check from amazon for stuff I sold. Yea I know not as big news, but I was happy with it I also made some duct tape rings for me and Matt (it was an inside joke between us). Saturday - Spent most of the day working and waited until Matt came over to pick me up from work where I gave him his ring http://www.gayauthors.org/forums/index.php?app=gallery&module=images&section=viewimage&img=1585 He liked it and so did I Sunday - I had most of the day off, so me and matt went to NYC where we wandered around for a bit before going to lunch in the East Village I managed to catch some pics with my phone, so sorry if they don't look nice, but I found them hilarious (check the quotes I put down) http://www.gayauthors.org/forums/index.php?app=gallery&module=images&section=viewimage&img=1587 http://www.gayauthors.org/forums/index.php?app=gallery&module=images&section=viewimage&img=1586 http://www.gayauthors.org/forums/index.php?app=gallery&module=images&section=viewimage&img=1588 http://www.gayauthors.org/forums/index.php?app=gallery&module=images&section=viewimage&img=1589 I didn't wanna post them cus they'd kill my page, but check the links For lunch we went to this nice little resturant in the Village (the gay area of NYC if you don't know) and we talked about a whole slew of things, including how we felt about each other. (Prepare for some mush!) We talked about how being boyfriends just didn't fit us because we were beyond those feelings, but we wern't ready to rush to city hall and sign the civil union papers just yet, so we settled on a compromise: We decided that we were engaged. It was nice and it made us both happy (and lets just say, people could tell we were estatic about something cus we got a few awwws and congrats from random people around the village). So yea. Funny pics, and I'm engaged officially! Eric

I've always wanted to goto a murder mystery theatre! Let me know how it goes

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DREWCIFER!!!! I got you a present!

Next week is gonna start some major changes for me. I'm going back to school to start my MCSA/A+/Network+ computer certifications which is going to be a big step for me given my past history. These certifications will let me get a decent IT job and hopefully let me pay off my debts, student loans, get a car and ultimatly move out of the house (yay!). For those who don't know, the past three years to me have felt like an on going episode of House M.D. where I came down with a mysterious illness and it took close to two years to finally diagnose it. While I'm happy to finally realize what it was (Generalized Anxiety Disorder with Psychogenic Non-Epileptic seizures mixed with Depression and Agoraphobia) it took me another year after that diagnosis to get back on my feet and start meeting life head on. Now that I'm well enough to start going back to school, I came to realize that I have limitations. I can't take more then 2 classes other wise I get anxiety ridden and shut down, leaving me with a failure academically, even though it's a medical reason I still feel like a failure, but I'm over that now that I know my limitations. After much consultation with my docs, we came to realize that either going to school part time or taking a vocational class would be best (hence why I'm going for the certifications). I'm really looking forward to this because I know in my mind that it's a huge step forward from where I've been lately. It's a stepping stone to my ultimate goal of achieving my Doctorate in Psychology (lofty goal I know ) Now for the past few days, I've been really down, filled with doubts and mixed attitudes. I feel like I'm gonna screw this up somehow or that some outside force is gonna drop a shoe on me and screw these good things up for me. I've been getitng a wee bit paranoid lately, and obsessive, falling back on old habits that took me three years to overcome. But, unlike three years ago, I know when to ask for help, and I have been. I've been talking to my parents and asking them to hold onto some money for me so I don't spend it all and loose everything like I used to (when I got depressed I would go on spending sprees). I've talked to my boyfriend and asked him to keep a closer eye on me and to not let me drink at all except for 1 glass of red wine at dinner (I used to drink and get drunk to hide my feelings). I've also asked my friends to constantly ask me how i'm doing and to keep an eye on me, that if I call and sound like I'm drunk, I need help and to come help me (I tend to sound like I'm drunk when I have a seizure/anxiety attack). Basically, three years ago, I would've murdered myself if I asked for help like I did, and I would've had a fit if I asked my parents to hold my money (we have it in a join account so while they can't stop me from taking it out if necessary, any withdraws requires a signature from me and one of my parents). In a nut shell, I'm making it so that I have no way to fail this time around, and doing what I should've done three years ago. So now. It's time to kick some ass and take names, and get this schooling done not for anyone, but for me because if I do this, I know I can do anything no matter what. Eric

Trebs! No pictures for you.... Unless I see them first

Woo! Another Jerseyan! Now I can hopefully begin my desires of overtaking the Australian GA Takeover Committee with the New Jersey Takeover Committee! (Inside Joke ) Anywho Welcome! Hope you have fun here, and there are plenty of resources you can use on here, and plenty of nice authors to talk to if you ever get stuck Also, if you got any questions you can ask one of the mods Eric (Who's also from Jersey!)

Okay so I lied, I won't be going for my A+/MCP/CCNA. It turns out that Brookdale offers a better course then that for the same amount of money, which my Grant covers. The program which I will be starting is the MCSA/A+/Network+ Certification course... which means I can be the uber computer geek I always knew I could be lol. Well... i'm off to blow up my printer... I need to start getting stuff done for school... which is in 1 month

Wow, it's been awhile since I last blogged, but then again, life has been keeping me busy (and so has World of Warcraft). Just cus I've been quiet on Chat and the boards doesn't mean I haven't been around, just.... lurking really Anyway... I'm going back to school, vocational school that is. I got a grant to go for my A+/MCP/CCNA certification which is geek speak for being able to fix computers, network homes and small businesses, and troubleshoot windows. It's a good course which should provide some fun for me since I love to tinker with computers. I've been spending more time with the BF, so everything is good on that front. We went on our first vacation together about two weeks ago, and it was fun. Sun, surf and sand 'Nuff said. Last weekend I went to visit my grandparents because it's been almost a year since I last saw them. I also wanted to see my grandfather before he went into surgery again. This time instead of his heart, they're going to be removing his gallbladder and seeing if he has cancer. So i'm a little worried for him, but he's a tough bird so I know he'll be fine Finally, I've been writing more when I have the time and inspiration, though I don't think it's good enough yet. Eric

Personally... I've been using WIndows 7 on my Desktop since it was just a Beta. I love it, it uses less system resources and is everything <gag>Vista</gag> should've been. I'd love to switch to Ubuntu 100% instead of using a dual boot like I do, but till I get better at WINE and such (and can run World of Warcraft without a hitch) I'll be dual booting. Eric

Intresting thread I have to say that my favorite blog to check is PostSecret. It's really amazing what people will think and say when they can remain anonymous... http://postsecret.blogspot.com/ Also, ICanHazCheezeburger is my fav as well, just cus it provides a nice comic relief for the day (though it's hit or miss with some of them) http://icanhascheezburger.com/ Eric

I'm so sorry to hear about your girls... Nothing can even come close to offering my condolences because I know how hard it is to loose someone like them Though I am glad to hear about you getting healthier Eric

I think the goat spoiled the ending for us

Hehe... Bye Bye Yuri And good job CJ on yet another cliffhangery chapter!

Revenge isn't a good thing (an eye for an eye would leave the world blind)... .... Now let me get off my high horse The way I get my revenge is by exploiting the persons weakness. For example, my parents are very slow when it comes to computers, so when they get me goin and argue with me, the internet on the router gets turned off, which means that they can't access it. Once they caught on to that, I set it up so that it would disable the internet to their laptops (with the exception of the family computer which is old and slow and my sisters laptop) so that they think it's an issue with their laptops. Needless to say they haven't caught onto that yet. But it's the best thing to exploit someone's weakness for revenge because then they feel weak and powerless... Eric

Hmmm... little girls assaulting you with wands? Soundslike you're getting to be a wuss! Glad you had some fun on your birthday

HAVE A GREAT BIRTHDAY!!!!! And may you have many more to come!!!!