While I prefer to describe it as being "slow out of the gate", I'm one of those gay men who spent several years in denial. The denial, of course, was brought on by fear, both fear of exposure and fear of having to face my homosexuality. The denial was so strong that I married at 22, raised three children and stayed married for 23 years. Within a year of my separation, I found myself in another hetero relationship. That lasted 3 years. For 6 years after that, having decided that maybe women weren't my cup of tea, I tried to be asexual. It wasn't until I was 54, extremely depressed and ready to off myself, that I finally screamed, "You're gay dammit!" I'm pleased to say I've been getting better ever since.
I can honestly say that I never did the homophobic thing. Then again, I was never challenged on my sexuality. I just sort of held my breath for 40 years. Needless to say, I was less than an ideal father and husband given those long years of denial (read as emotional and psychological stress).
I just wanted to say that being a GA member for the past year has been a significant part of my self-acceptance / coming out process. It's threads like this one and the many great stories posted here that have contributed to that. So thanks for that.
Hugs,
Conner