Kia Zi Shiru

You're gonna be okay! Coming year I'll be on my third time doing first year of a college course. This time it's business computer stuff, and after I'm through with the first year I'm gonna go to uni doing Acheology. But I'm asking for help to accomplish it, just like you I hate having to ask help for anything, but to move on in live I'm gonna have to. Let's do our best and not overwork ourselfs and drive us crazy! *hugs* You can do it!

thnx guys

lovely pics Excuse! ooh, *got a new pic taken at her bday*

right now I have a great dating policy ^^ I don't do it ofcourse I can have fun with friends, but I won't date, mostly because my schoolyear is gonna be one hell of a crazy ass drive...

i'm glad the only thing I drink when outdoors is coke or sometimes a fruit smoothie (fresh with no added sugar or anything). At home I usually drink sirup (since regular water makes me hurl) or tea, and when i feel like it I drink coke or Golden power (the only Redbull-like drink I can stand). although some did look very delicious, most of them were milkshake or coffee based.... I hate both of those

Right now, me and some of my friends put the word out how my most resent ex (been single since Sunday evening ) made sure i knew it was over. he had posted a dating ad on a website, and thought he might find some fun new girl before he was gonna dump me next weekend. One of my friends found out and alerted me. Was a hell, but also now everybody knows what he did and if any girl is interested in him they will tell. he wanted an "honest and caring girl that is a bit crazy" he descibed himself as "honest, sweet and faithfull." Things like this don't gp over well with me, and def not with my friends.... if stuff like this happens we always get the word out so noone will want them.... hmmm, yeah I sound like a hurt person right now....

revenge.... I don't do it much.... but my ex kinda did very wrong on me when and after he dumped me. Threatening my friends who stood up for me and simply hurting me in every way possible. While he dumped me and I never did anything to wrong him. The guy was a lozer when we met and couldn't run his own life. when he broke up with me he had his own income and even people he called friends. So yeah, ask anybody that knew me back than and they will tell you I have always been the one that was being done wrong to. anyways, a while after he broke up with me, I got the word out why he did so, and since people talk... the girl he is gonna try dating is gonna know what an ass he is. I have some amazing friends that even now, 2 years later if he does anything to hurt me they will kick his ass. so yeah, revenge is slow.

maybe not a bad country song, but it might be a good black metal song

I had the mohawk for 6 to 7 years, after that long.... there is nothing special about it and yeah the blond was okay, but people stopped taking me serious for some reason

okay, because i was thinking about putting them up here for a while, here they are. Gotta warn ya, i am female, and the most recent pic is at least 7 months old..... august 2007, i was blond for one summer. december 2007, just had it dyed black again februari 2008, had my mohawk up for a metal night at a club it was decorated with nice safety-pins (don't look at the hickeys) august 2008, at a fantasy-festival, with a friend of mine december 2008, most recent one, this one is made by my mum at a family get-together in France, and yes that is my boyfriend that is sitting behind me. now I'll no longer bother you all and go hide in a corner *hides*

- took a nap for 2 hours - did more laudry, made the bed - realized that if anything went wrong in my life (aka no longer being together with my bf), I could actually manage on my own. - felt good about that realisation (even though I really don't wanna break up with him, but that was not the point )

congrats john! - worked out at the gym for 2 hours - saw in the mirror that i was getting a slight sixpack under all the fat, made me very happy - now feeling very content and sleepy, think I'm gonna take a nap...

good things of today - woke up without hangover - laundry is drying pretty fast because of the strong wind - installed atris on my laptop (unix tetris, with a couple of extra kinks) - been playing atris all day ^^

I'm behind my computer a loooot... even if I'm beading and stuff, I'll still sit behind the computer. couple of days ago I kinda killed it and I've been buisy the whole evening just to fix it back into the state it was... if it wouldn't have worked out straight away (like it did this time) I'd probably have been busy all night too...... yeah that is how attached to my little laptop I am....

hi Adam, hope you're doing well there down under! Glad you also made it here, i heard a lot about you

good luck on it, i luckaly only have 3 of them, but they take their sweet time, sometimes coming through a little for a couple of days, giving me a headache out of hell, and then they'll sit still for a couple of moths to just do the same trick again.... to me it's still a wonder why we have them

my whole family uses Avast, I've never had any trouble with viruses, but my lil brother did, constantly... especially after my lil sis had been on his computer. But after Avast got installed on it (and cleaned up about 100 viruses and troyan horses and other crap), he never had any trouble again. Avast does find Troyan Horses and it's free, a lot of payed for scanners won't find troyan horses. So be aware of that. The one that usually comes with windows itself (not sure what it is called) won't find troyan horses.

damn nik you got quite the list right now I'm reading Le Morte d'Arthur All's well that ends well Whit'ch storm The gates of the necronomicon Poison Sleep and prob some more that I forget about now...

I've got a huge file on my computer full of old stories (2 large story lines that together form 2 generations of schoollife in a sf world that also does resemble Harry Potter for a bit, but also it is totally different, and 2 smaller story lines one is a porn/romance and the other one a fantasy story). Also I've got a ringbinder full of handwritten stuff, notes, drawings and the like, even a couple of empty papers and some pens in it. On top of that I have some small notebooks tht also have parts of stories in them.... I've got quite the archive when I think about it. I used to take the ringbinder and the small notebooks everywhere with me, school, holidays, everywhere I do read back some stuff and sometimes i borrow names from old stories, too bad I won't be able to show you guys some stuff, it's all in dutch. But the story lines weren't bad, the writing was kinda... One story i started when I was 11/12 and I've been writing till I was 15/16, and I can see how much I've improved back then. I was thinking about maybe rewriting the whole deal, but I'm not really sure for now, I just like to sometimes look back on it and think about the hours of research I did for some parts

looking good prince!

I've got almost 90 poems that are "2 minute" ones, and only 10 or so that I have actually sat down for and worked stuff out. I like the "raw" feeling that I can put in them. I've also got them over 20 or 30 lines long. of course, they might not have been actual "2 minute" poems but they in essence are the same. You can write them on anything, I've got them in my math notebooks but these 2 I wrote in the GA chat while chatting with lugh and thanks for your comment, I might try writing some more in the near future.

I know them, they were quite the hype here in holland back in the days, not bad performers either.... and figures that even boybands finally come out of the closet

looks pretty good, the guy looks good too (I've seen some ugly ass young actors lately, this one looks quite decent).

Words like tears words like tears, flow from my pen onto the paper never failing, never losing never regretting of the flow regretting failing, regretting losing loving only that what hasn't been shown Tears on the paper, blood in my veins never gaining control of what was to be only of what would have, should have, could have been fear Dreams of tear stained faces, never leaving alone that one moment one moment of pain and anger, one moment of joy joy of lost, joy of love, tears of fear and tears of fright Fear of losing, fear of gaining, fear of tears and dreams that will be never forgotten These I wrote a couple of weeks ago, the were the first I wrote in over 2 years. They are what I call "2 minute poems" I write them in 2 minutes, if they take longer for me to write they lose their magic to me. so what do you guys think?

*reps negative* LOL, nah I think the rep system might be okay on this websites but yeah, there are a lot of places people use it to just be able to get pissed at each other without the mods knowing it (once I got a neg rep just for stating a fact they didn't agree on ) anyway, yeah rep system is quite glitchy still