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Well, I can promise that we will hear from River again and he will have his chance to explain... but he is going to have to deal with Asher.

Oh yeah... still thinking of you and sending positive thoughts but I am so glad that things are settling down and getting more positive. Hope youre right back on top very soon

Well... I think that modern society, especially Western society has suffered a lot from lack of ritual. We don't mark the rights of passage any more... except marriage. Where are the coming of age rituals, the ones that show the young people their place in the tribe... oh that's right, they take place in back alleys and dingy flats and usually involve some kind of weapon. Death is the same. Where is the joy in it; the beauty. We are so bloody selfish all we can think about is our own loss... how we will cope without that person. In funerals there is 5 minutes of a stranger reading from notes about the person's life. Where is the celebration of that life? WHere are the empassioned testamonials from family and friends... well they are snivelling in the back rows, cowed by 'convention' and 'propriety'. There is a Welsh legend where a man falls in love with a faery who comes to him on the basis that she will disappear if he strikes her three times. Of course he does, and two of those times are where she weeps at a wedding and laughs at the funeral. The wedding is sad because of the trials and tribulations the couple will suffer in their lives together and the loss of their youth. The funeral is happy because it is a celebration of life and the end of pain and suffering. For me death is not something to fear at all and... yes I get scared about the process of it but not what happens after... i have lived life the best I can and if it's not good enough... tough. if there is a jealous god who damns me not because of who I am but because of what I believe then... tough. I am not about to change who I am because someone else can't accept it even if that someone else is God. There is one sure thing about life... none of us gets out of it alive. Whether you live another year or five or ten, Bob, by your life you have touched people, many people: those you know about and those you don't. By your choices and the way you chose to live you have changed the world around you. By doing that you have changed the lives of the people around you... close by and all over the world via the joys of the internet. Their changed lives will change their world and the world of those around them. What more can anyone ask that by their lives they have changed the world.?

Of course he's not right. But... It's River's fault he's confused. If you recall River felt that he couldn't have 'grown up' conversations with Silver, and that in part that was because he was trying to protect him. Well that was a big mistake. If we keep children from growing up that isn't protecting them at all. All he did was ripen the situation for misunderstanding at every step. What River did and what Silver perceives he did and thought while he was doing it are worlds apart because River and Silver are worlds apart and River hasn't really tried very hard to bring them together. He was protecting Silver but at the same time holding them apart. As for Asher. There is no misunderstanding between them. There is no inequality because they are the same. Silver and Asher are more suited than River and Silver ever were.

When I get back to Ariel he is asleep. I cover him with the blanket, tucking it carefully around him and thinking again that he looks like a child. Hell he is a child, barely eighteen. I sit on the floor with my back to the wall and realise that I am hardly more than a child myself. During all of the things that happened to me I was a child. I’ve had no childhood, not that I can remember. I still have very few memories of being Matthew. My parents want me to visit them, but how can I? H

Thank you so much. I am totally in love with Silver and I have a feeling that there is going to be an Enigma II at some time... he just isnt going to leave me alone that easily. I think he will be even more fun to write about now and I feel the need to know what happens to Ariel too. Maybe the two of them can have an adventure. We'll see. As far as the ending I don't think that Tony recognises Silver as such but, having been with Asher and knowing his past he understands what having that name means generally. he knows what Silver is, or was, rather than who he is. Hope that makes things clearer. New chapter tomorrow so not too long to wait... actually I am going to be travelling home tomorrow and will be tired so what about a new one right now

Well, he's being a bit of a twat but don't forget he's found the brother he thought he'd lost forever,after losing his parents. He isn't showing it but losing his parents that way must have hit him hard and he knows that it must have hit Ben just as hard. He's doing the best he can. And I think that Silver realy really needs to learn to stand on his own feet and not lean on River quite so much. THey're hard lessons but then life has a lot of those. Thanks for the reviews hun I am so glad you like the stories

Welcome to everyone who sneaked in under my radar. Actually i think I may have misplaced my radar along with my brain. if anyone finds them could you please send them back

Loving it. But I'm really not into short hair so I have to give it a 'meh' the rest of you is adorable though... so are your friends. Meh... bring it

Thank you hun. This is my favourite story. I am so in love with Silver I am so so glad you are enjoying it.

Does it have anything to do with the fact there's a big gun on the front and sexy men going in and out of a hole on top.

TMI TMI TMI Great news about Dustin though. Positive thoughts and prayers do work

OMG I haven't even got to the first page of my bucket list yet. I'm still trying to find something to write on it

Happy Anniverysary darling. You so deserve to be happy and, having seen you together I am sure that you will continue to be for many, many years to come. You two are made for each other, and i love you both. I'll never forget your kindness to me in Manchester and I wish you the very best for your anniversary and every one from now to forever.

That is going to be my new philosophy as far as age is concerned.

With a father like you how could he be anything other than fab... stubborn... weird... wonderful

The answer to this one is quite obvious and that is Young is a State of Mind. If anyone wants to argue about it and suggest that over 40 is old then I'll bite you until you change your mind.

No problem I've already adopted you, Jon too so I'll be mother hen and herd you where I want to go

Oh Q-man is you HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRUMY ] :wub:

I would ask the mods. I would be surprised if nakedness in art would be an issue. Maybe show them one of your works and they could make a decision. when you post a story it is very clearlly marked that the copyright remains with you. Of course, there is no guarantee that it won't appear over the internet but you will have proof of ownership and wil be able to force them to take it down. ALSO if somene takes it and makes a fortune out of it then all the money is YOURS I do have an interst in bondage. In my stories it isn't portrayed very well. i think I made it clear in my disclaimer that, it is not as it is portrayed. The intention of the bondage in Love In Chains was to reflect the bondage of the dangerous manipulation and dependence of the emotional aspect. I suppose I should write a story showing the more acceptable side... which is what i have been involved in, as much as it is ever 'aceptable' to much of the general population. Anyway... ths isn't about me. Don't give up on the art and press on with the story. i am looking forward to seeing both

He certainly does that to Silver, although he needs to be careful,coments can crash to the earth leaving HUGE craters. not that I'm saying that's going to happen of course. Thanks Frosty

Ditto. You'll never know if you can do it until you try it. If you get pleasure from the experience who cares what other people think of it. I LOVE writing sex scenes but they're almost exclusively an integral part of the plot, although I do sometimes indulge myself. Write for the love of writing and it shows. I am so looking forward to reading.

Don't be so hard on yourself. This kind of move is scary and stressful and when your scared and stressed you don't behave like yourself. Let yourself deal with this in any way you feel the need. And so what if you're annoying, so what if you're irrational. The more you fight it the worse it will be. Let yourself be scared. let yourself be annoying and frustrating and just plain unpleasant to be with. Those who love you will understand and the rest... well you won't be around to care will you... you;ll be in a new place with people who don't know you and so you will have a past wiped clean and the opportunity to be whoever you want to be. Most important east up on yourself and take care of yourself. I bet within three weeks of being there you'll be writing blogs that are far more positive.

OOOOHHHHHH I WAS CRAP YESTERDAY HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DARLING

Did I miss this NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DARLING :wub: