Like a Train Wreck - 9. Chapter 9: Highs And Lows

"I see..." Martha stood in the kitchen with the phone pressed to her ear, her face frozen with such shock.

"Thank you for letting me know. Uh...we will be there to pick him up at the end of the day. I have to wait for my husband to get off work."

Martha paused and then nodded. "Goodbye." She hung up the phone.

"Mom? What's going on?" Hunter asked, walking into the kitchen.

"I've...I've been told some really disturbing news." She said, not knowing how to deal with it she moved back to the counter and started peeling potato's again. That only lasted seconds before she laid the knife down.

"You were always closest to him." Martha turned to look at her eldest son. "Has he told you?"

Hunter looked at his Mother, unsure of what she was talking about. "Why don't you just tell me what was said on the phone?"

"That boy .... Brad, the one who was murdered, you know? Well I got a call from school and I was told that he and some of his friends participated in a gang rape. And....they called me because Miracle ... he was the victim."

Hunter's eyes lowered and his response was delayed. "He didn't go into detail but he did tell me that he was raped and beaten."

"Why didn't you tell me? Why didn't you tell your Father? Why didn't you..." Martha trailed off, not knowing what to say.

"He swore me to secrecy. I know I should have said something. I've wanted to but I didn't want to betray him."

"Well now his attacker is dead. One month after it happened. You should of told us, do you have any idea how this is going to look?" She didn't wait for an answer.

"God, I have to call your Father." The phone was grabbed again and she dialed Craig's work number.

Miracle waited in Miss Carters office until he heard the bell ring, signaling the end of the school day. He started to stand up but stopped short of completeing the process when the counselor raised her hand.

"I told your Parents to wait until everyone left. I want to avoid any further incidence."

Miracle sighed and sat down. "God...I can't even imagine what's going to happen."

"It's understandable that you would be scared of your Parents reactions. Nearly every young rape victim keeps it secret out of fear. You aren't alone."

"That's really comforting." Miracle said in a sarcastic tone, watching the crowd of teens outside.

"You don't have to be sarcastic." She said as her door burst open and she looked up to find Craig standing there. "Can I help you?"

Craig looked at the woman, it was clear he was to angry to rationally speak to her. "No you can't. I came here to get my son and we are leaving. Miracle, grab your things and lets go." He spoke in a stern tone.

"I told you it'd be bad." Miracle said to Miss Carter before he grabbed his bag and stood up.

"You and your damn school better keep true to the confidentiality laws because if my son is harrassed by the media even once, I will sue the hell out of this school." Craig said in a firm tone.

"We aren't trying to cause any further harm, Mr. Hart. We are only trying to help."

"We don't need your help because I am pulling him out of this school for the rest of the year."

"What?!" Miracle looked at his Dad, alarmed and surprised but not in a good way.

"You heard me. Now get your things and lets go." Craig said and escorted Miracle out to the family car.


Miracle climbed in the back seat, looked at Hunter and then saw his Mother just as Craig climbed into the driver seat. Those wheels went into motion down the road.

"Okay I missed a lot of work for the company because I came home early today, Miracle. Me and your Mother have come up with a course of action, A plan A and a plan B, if you will."

"Oh my god." Miracle slouched in the seat, covering his face. "Now you want to act like you care?!" He said, his hands moving from his face. "Why don't you just tell me not to do it again?!"

Martha looked down, timidly working with a piece of cloth she was sewing. "Because this is not something that you did, it was something that was done to you."

"Well Daniel did something to me too! He had sex with me and lied about it. What is the fucking difference?!" Miracle screamed at his Mom.

"Hey!" Craig screamed loudly.

"You are going to treat your Mother with the utmost respect. That is the first thing you will do. Secondly you will be home schooled for the rest of the year by your Mother and you are going to do good on your assignments. Thirdly you are to never leave the house without me or your Mother accompanying you."

Craig paused to let this all sink in. "If you fail to do this or break any of those rules you will be placed in a correctional facility for treatment and behavioral therapy."

Miracle's eyes widened as all those words flew into his ears and the only thing he could think of was how close this plan sounded like imprisonment.

"What?! You're punishing me? This isn't even my fault! I didn't ask for it! I don't deserve this!"

"We're not punishing you. We are protecting you! If you hadn't gone out to that damn club in the first place this wouldn't of happened!" Craig screamed right back at him and wildly swerved the car into the drive way.

"So what? I'm not suppose to party?! I'm not suppose to see my friends? I'm not suppose to have a fucking life?! How can you do this?!"

"You know what, Dad? Fuck you." Miracle kicked the door open.

Miracle jumped out of the car and went to storm down the drive way but Craig jumped out just as fast and reached out to grab a hold of him.
Miracle struggled within his tight embrace, trying to get away, causing the neighbors outside to watch the scene unfold.

"Let me go! You don't understand! I need my freedom! I need Sterling, I need Jaemin! I need them or I'll die! I'll just fucking die!" Finally he yanked away from his Father and spun around to look at him.

Hunter and Martha slowly climbed out of the car, they watched the the scene in complete silence, hearing the words exchanged between Miracle and Craig.The situation made Martha nervous. For Hunter? It made him feel extreme sympathy and that was obvious by the way he looked at Miracle, he wanted to help him.

"Then explain it to me! Explain to me why you need them?!" Craig screamed.

"Their love. I need their love, without it I have nothing."

"I don't want to be all alone. I always end up alone and I'll be damned if I'm going to let you ruin what I have!" Tears already streamed down Miracle's face.

"What you have? What you have?! Miracle, what you have are two guys using the hell out of you to get whatever they want! What makes you think they are any different than those guys who held you down and stole what they wanted?!"

"Dad you don't understand! You don't even know them!" Miracle shook his head. "I'll run away. I'll go right now and you'll never see me again!"

"You aren't going to go anywhere! I am your Father and you are going to respect me!"

"You're a fake! My Father is gone! He disappeared and no one knows where he is!"

"Get in the house." Craig said in such a calm tone yet he looked so angry.

"No!" Miracle screamed defiantly.

Craig stepped forward and grabbed hold of him again.

"You son of a bitch! Let me go! Let me go now!" Miracle screamed, struggling in those arms and a hand came up to slap Craig across the face.

It was that moment that Craig lost any and all rational thought. He pushed Miracle away from him, keeping hold of his shirt with one hand while the other drew back and he punched Miracle across the face.

Martha gasped and brought a hand to her mouth.

Hunter's eyes widened and his jaw dropped in complete shock and he looked up and seen all the neighbors watching. Now he was worried about the police being called.

Miracle cried out in pain and he fell down, blood already splattered across his face. His head jerked around and he looked at his Father in shock.

His eyes soon teared up and the brave, defiant Miracle seemed to fade away and the weak, scared child in him came out.

"I hate you." Miracle said in the softest tone before he pushed himself up and he started to cry as he walked towards the house.

"I didn't mean to." Craig said, ashamed of himself. He turned around. "Miracle, I didn't mean to." His eyes then shifted to Martha and Hunter.
Miracle ran into the house and swung the door, causing it to slam shut and he quickly made way to the bathroom. Shaky hands dug through the medicine cabinet.

Several bottles fell into the sink and on the floor. "Where the fuck did I put them?!"

Then Miracle headed towards his room as his family approached the front door.

His underwear drawer was yanked open and he dug through his underwear until he found the bottle of pills.

"Miracle?" Martha called out.

Miracle heard his Mothers voice. "I'm sorry..." He whispered and cried as he moved towards the window and pushed it open, quickly climbing out of it and he ran off.

Sterling heard a knock at his door. "Just a minute!" He climbed off his bed, looking at the clock, knowing his Mother was on a date and wouldn't be back for several hours.

Sterling moved through the living room and pulled the door open to see Miracle standing there. "Hey." He said, somewhat surprised to see him.

"Hey." Miracle spoke nervously before he slipped by Sterling and moved into the apartment. "I needed to see you. Things have gotten bad ... they have gotten real bad."

"Everyone knows Sterling, they all know what Brad and his friends did to me. My parents want to pull me out of school. They want to lock me in the house and throw away the key. I had to run, I had no choice."

Miracle breathed heavily, speaking in a nervous and fast tone."Please Sterling..." Miracle stepped close, taking Sterling's hand. "Make it go away...make it all stop. Take me somewhere that only we can go."

"I don't understand." Sterling looked down at Miracle.

"You will." Miracle whispered and leaned up to press a kiss to Sterling's lips. "Come with me." He kept hold of Sterlings hand and lead him towards the bedroom.

Once in the bed room, Miracle's arms wrapped around Sterling's neck and he leaned up and pressed a deep kiss to the other boys lips. His tongue slipped out to flick across those lips as Sterling's mouth opened to allow their tongue's to explore each others confinements.
A soft moan echoed within Miracle's throat as he began to get lost in the passion. One arm moved and hand dipped low and crept beneath Sterling's shirt to explore the flesh beneath.

Lips departed as Miracle reached down, grasping the bottom of Sterling's shirt. The shirt was pulled off and tossed to the side. His hands were placed against Sterling's broad chest, a smile appearing on his face.

Sterling grinned and reached down, grasping Miracle's shirt and pulling it off, tossing it to the side. Their lips reunited and a quick lift was given. Miracle's legs slung themselves around Sterlings waist and then Sterling pinned him to the wall.

"Oh my god..." Miracle whispered out, tilting his head back as he felt those lips and that tongue taking advantage of the flesh that drenched his throat.

"Sterling...I need you."

Those words couldn't of sounded sweeter to Sterling, the idea of being needed, it felt good.
No longer than a few seconds went by before he pulled Miracle from the wall and twisted around to dive forward onto the bed.

"Sterling..." Miracle cried out softly, those fingers clenching Sterling's shaggy dark brown hair.

Legs remaining exactly as they were. Miracle's hips went into motion, lifting forward, firmly grinding into the other.
Miracle was becoming lost in the passion and as always his worries faded into nothingness. All he could think about was how good everything felt, emotionally as well as physically.

This was Sterling's first time and as strange as it was, he didn't feel afraid but instead he felt excited, finally after so long he was getting what he dreamed about nearly every night.

He pushed himself up on his knees and unfastened Miracle's jeans, yanking them off along with his underwear only to be greeted by the baby smooth perfection that was Miracle's body.

"You're beautiful..." Sterling said as he ran his hands down Miracle's thighs.

Miracle opened his eyes to allow that adoring gaze to fall upon Sterling. "Prove it." He said.
Sterling grinned and unfastened his jeans, shifting as he needed to in order to free himself from the rest of his clothing.
This caused a moment of awkward frustration before his smile returned and he leaned down, lips pressing firmly against Miracle's as his hips lowered.

The feeling of flesh on flesh was almost electrifying and so sensitive as the textures of their skin were meeting for the first time in places that in the past were unknown. It felt cold and caused goose bumps and yet it felt warm all the same.
Miracle's eyes drifted shut and his tongue dived forward to taste the others and it was only moments later that he felt Sterling within him.

"Are you okay?" Sterling asked as he eased himself into Miracle's precious body.

Miracle's eyes opened and he looked into Sterling's eyes with such a passionate intensity. "Take me. Take me away." He demanded in a soft tone.

And it took not another word for Sterling to fulfill Miracle's wish when he went into motion creating their love in the deepest and most intimate finality that it could be created in.

Miracle's fingers raked down the softness of Sterlings skin, dragging their way down his back and leaving a trail of white lines that only existed for a second until they faded. He breathed heavily as he held onto him and all of that emotional pain faded away.
It always did, this was like a drug to him, it took his pain, his thoughts and his life away from him and created a land of love and fantasy, a place where only beauty and happiness could exist.

The rest of the world faded away and it was only him and Sterling, nothing else mattered.

Sterling kissed Miracle deeply as he made love to him, easy and gentle. His hands explored the other boys beauty in all of it's entirety while the pleasure ticked and shocked the nerves in his body. To him this moment, this night had meaning. He wasn't sure how Miracle felt.

Was this Miracle showing love or was he just looking for that high that he got from doing this among all the other things that he does?
Sterling wasn't sure and he couldn't think about it right now but he knew his intentions and his actions were of purity even to that final moment when his muscles tensed and his body quaked and they reached that moment of ultimate bliss.


Several hours had went by and Sterling by this point had fallen asleep. Miracle lied there beside him, awake.
He knew what he had planned, he knew it all along, ever since his Parents tried to take over his life. Miracle's head turned to the side as he looked at Sterling.

This wasn't real, none of it was. Miracle knew that Sterling had finally gotten what he wanted. Now that Miracle had given his body away to him, what reason was there for Sterling to stay by his side?

Miracle believed that Sterling would abandon him, just like all the rest and he refused to be hurt again, by anyone, even his parents.
He was going to escape from all the pain that he felt, the pain that he caused and for once he was going to do what he believed was good with his life, he was going to end it.

Miracle slid out of the bed, snatching up his jeans. The bottle of pills were retrieved and he dropped his pants and he headed to the attached bathroom, seeing a glass near the sink as he closed the door.

His eyes then turned to the mirror. He stared at himself, his eyes stung with the tears that threatened to escape and he trembled, nervous and scared as hell of what he was about to do.

"This is what is best for everyone." Miracle said, trying to convince himself.

The pain inside of his being swelled to such an intensity in that moment that he couldn't even bring himself to cry. He looked down, opening the bottle.

The pills were poured into his hand and he sat the empty bottle near the sink before grabbing the glass.
Miracle used his middle finger to tug the cold water switch. Water began to pour out as he looked up at himself.

"This is the only way..." Miracle's voice shook, feeling the urge to burst into loud sobs of pain if he weren't careful.

He then began the process of taking the pills, not being able to take them all at once so they were taken in groups and by the time they were finished, he felt as if he were floating.

He looked at himself one last time before trying to sit the glass on the sinks counter.

That didn't happen. The glass slid along the edge of the sinks counter only to fall from his grasp. At nearly the same time those eyes began to flutter as his vision blurred and he found himself falling backwards.

Miracle ended up landing on his side in the middle of the bathroom floor as the glass made contact with the floor beside him, shattering.
The bits and pieces of glass flew into the air, scattering about and finally landing on the floor in a mess.

Miracle was dying.