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Poem Collection - MythOfHappiness - 12. Calm
I breathe
Slowly and steadily
I am calm
I am always calm
Always
You come into the room
Or rather, You
That fictionalized You
In my head
Is someone else entirely
They’ve got me pushed up against the wall
They think they’ve scared me
And I let them think that
Because I don’t want to scare
You
In my head You recognize me
In my head You’re brave
In my head You run to us
In my head You save me
In my head
But out there,
With all of them
Those ugly bastards who don’t understand
Who don’t want to understand
You turn and walk away
Unlike them, I do understand
I understand why You run
I understand why You leave me with them
To be eaten by these men with hungry eyes and empty chests
I understand
You’re a person
And you’re scared
I understand
But I don’t empathize
I am calm
The one on the left pushes me
The one on the right slams me back into the wall
The one in the middle punches me
I double over in pain
But not fear
Middle bends over me and I smile
“The fuck’s so funny jackass?”
Then I laugh
I’m feeling something
Something… real
For the first time
in a long, long time
I can feel
I am not calm
I am angry
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