Friends, enemies and....maybe some lovers, some of the words got preggers with each other cause Word documents suck =_(

I come here to today to declare my departure from thecommunity of GA. This means I won't chose to post anymore, or participate.

Why you ask?

Well, I can't find myself adding anything more to thecommunity to make it better. I haven't been posting up much writing, so thatkills 80% of what this site is to begin with. When I do post its usually mean,crass or in ill humor.

Some of you can take it....while others cannot. You might wonder, why does he do that? Like I said, or will say, I don't care really. I'm not some sad individual IRL, hell no lol. I love my life, it consists of gym, work and hanging out with my friends. I recently got accepted to Vassar College in New York to continue my incredibly boring Literature major in the fall, which I am throughly stoked over, so I'll barely have time for GA anyway.

But I am not here to dis GA, no, I'll dis it later in a little bit....I am here to praise thisestablishment because it is one of a kind, seriously. I am almost certain Myrand his council understand this, GA is a shining beacon in the online world,especially for info for Gay Teens. Sure the issues are a bit repetitive, butwho knows, maybe you/us/everyone at GA has changed someones life somewhere forthe better.

I've been on the web forever, who doesn't? The internetRULES. ANONYMOUS, TROLLING, DOTA, REBECCA BLACK. I mean shit, look at all thatcool stuff and GA is by far a unique place. I've been all over, from the depthsof dirty 4chan to the gaming blogs and forums of World of Warcraft, Rift,Lineage 2. I've trolled political forums and participated in otherwriter/editor consortium throughout the web. GA is truly a diamond in therough.

But GA would never be itself would out the community it hasnow.

I know there are some of you who could give a rats ass. Icommend you for those feelings, its better to not care than to care to much, ifyou know what I mean. Some might care that I'll never do much here anymore,while others might cry, probably fewer crying and more joy considering myhistory, lol.

There are assorted individuals on here that are amazing,beautiful and down right one in a million. I hope that you understand that andyou know who you are. I am not just "saying" that either, I mean itfrom the bottom of ...I guess that would be my heart.

I have encountered, interacted with so many of you. Somesituations, dire! others charmed, humorous, full of hate, some in admirationfor my barely amateur writing.

GA is overflowing with amazing people, Caedus your musictaste and our theorycrafting over it was so enjoyable (please PM me so I cangive you my email address if you read this, so we can continue to share ourmusical tastes) Nephylim, that true light when it can be so dark, my favoritedruid/vampire/wiccan/wizard/witch/dragon princess, whatever rolled into one,the God mother of GA. The administrators/and some mods (not all of youdouchebags lol) for keeping the site going. Running these boards is rather annoying,at least from experience and I wish I would of supported it better maybe withsome money, but alas I did not.

To TetRefine for actually expressing my political views in amore eloquent way than I ever could (well I agreed with most of what you've said)to Billy, I'm sorry, still. What I did was terribly rude, but I know you'repast that and probably enjoying your life wherever that may be. To Arpeggio,don't be f**king stupid, stay clean, I enjoyed our talks, albeit the randomnessthey were. you're a chill little dude and don't let the freaks on this boardget into your life and ask all the time or give "reports" about howyou are. I thought that was so tacky to see "Arpeggio is fine" whatlol?

To Jamessavik and Mark Arbour, the only older men I'dprobably f**k countless times. I would say that to MikeL but he is married andcool like that.

To my editors the amazing MikeL and the legendary andvanished David McLeod for helping me finish and make the story Elijah as legitas possible.

To PlugInMatty, dude I'd marry you, you know how I feel.Blow me etc etc. Also an amazing editor, hit him up, he'll tell you how ittruly is.

To Princess Duchess you look awesome! I'm thoroughly impresseddude. Losing weight is VERY hard for some people, well most, so I hope youunderstand how epic that is. Dedicate yourself to the gym, being healthy andyou'll be the talk of the town (I'm sure you already are, how is that radiothing going?).

To the countless other people who I had the pleasure ofinsulting, charming or just talking to in passing, thanks for the fun.

I leave here not angry, I am just departing because, like Isaid, I have nothing more to offer. Or nothing of worth to offer. Certainaspects of GA concern me though.

To many people have a woe-as-me attitude, the same problemseach month in their blog posts. As some of you might know (probably all theFANBOIZ) I was given a warning status because somebody felt I was harassingWatchPatRun.

Let me pull away the screen behind the mirror, as this willbe my last ruthless trolling attempt before I return to my humble exit; Youwant to know why I troll you dude? Your entire existence on this board is asfollows: and like we talked briefly in chat, I thought you were down withf**king around and crass humor, I guess not~

1) I'm so troubled

2) Hey, here is a photo, tell me how I look. I know its thesame as the last one, but that's chill.

3) I wish I had more confidence

4) Why does the world kick me when I'm down?

5) Why does it always rain upon me?

Maybe this will annoy you enough to be a badass rather thana gardener. And no, I never had a "crush" on you lol. The f**k? Whywould I have a crush on somebody over the internet, I only bring this up causeseveral members asked me if I truly did. Like I said, I'm a lays guy, not acheeto's guy. Wait, doesn't Lays make cheeto's?

Sadly, half the members eat it up though. Your sparklingblue eyes and generic looks take the cake for some of the lonely people on thisboard. But now do you understand? It's sad how the woman at your work mad youcry, why do you let people make you cry? I know you have an army of followersfrom the chat, but do you know why they like you? Cause your a nice face, whatif you didn't post your face? Would people still comfort you for your loses,think about it? Also, the list above was NOT from me but another member I wasspeaking to and he and I discussed the little incident. I just wanted to passthat along. But I feel that somebody might cry, or complain, one of yourfanboys (I think it was Wildone) might report me. If the mods chose to banzorme for the above statements, fine, at this point I don't care but at least someof the people that will read through this will "see" and understand.And Pat you shouldn't take this to heart, cause in your scathing PM you saidthat nothing I say on this board means anything to anyone.

And another thing, if you have something to say to somebody,if they do something you don't like, say it to their face. That is how reallife works, don't go behind their backs or talk to your peanut gallery. Ifanybody has issues with what I said, PM me, lets talk, I might reply eitherway, I might not. This goes for everyone on this board because we all know itsno secret all the little, pardon me, gay cliques that go on here. My lord, itisn't high school.

GA seems like sometimes, the people here, create problemsfor themselves. Or they come here seeking advice or help, yet the people arethis board (some, not all mind you) are also so equally troubled, lost andconfused. There are trends, every cute young boy who joins the site and posts apicture gets instant access to the friend zone here, cause we all know somedirty old (gay) men fawn over that young ass.

This is only a small part of GA, but it is still very brightand strange. Pat, you are what we would call a "career victim" and Iknow I am one of the many evil dark villains that passed through, now that itmatters.

GA is a good place for the young to come and figurethemselves out, but I feel that somebody needs to pass on the reality here.Tell them that sometimes NO, it won't get better, your parents WILL hate youfor being a fag, this and that, it happens. But with such things, GA has astrange way of making people feel fantastic and I think that happens more thanthe former.

For me its hard to care on the internet because I don't knowyou. Sometimes, in the past I've wished that some of you lived near me, went tothe school I did, partied at the same parties so we could KNOW each other,because some of you are AWEEESOMME. While others are just lost, lonely and usethe internet as a conduit of friendship. Its strange how when you join acommunity on the internet there are handfuls of great people that are so faraway from you. Why is that?

I thought briefly on all of this and just felt it would befor the better. I know I won't be missed, but I don't care. I wanted my lastwords because, well, I am entitled to them. I know maybe a mod will come inhere and delete this, but I hope some people read through before that happens.I doubt I'll come look at responses, if any. If you wish to post somebody meanand harsh, fine, I don't think I'll reply because I clearly won, you're mad,right?

I don't think GA can handle trolls, but, I might go post theURL on 4Chan, and then you guys will get flooded and DESTROYED lol. But that isa terrible thing for somebody to do, especially me. Anonymous can destroyanything, right James?

But I digress from my bitter sounding words! I leave! Goodbye, I wish all of you who mattered to me the best, if I didn't matter to you,well I thank you for thinking of me all the same. To the great writers here,get published, do something with your talent, being cooped up here all yourcreative life is probably boring. Branch out at least.

To those who care, fair winds and following seas, to thosewho don't, lol get laid and stop hanging around on some board cause you can'tget any in the real lifes.

In the end though, GA is a nice place and I'm sure it'll bethat for years to come. Without me, it'll probably be even safer for theinnocent young men that travel through here. I'm like the Jabberf**kingwoky yo.

With the highest respect and admiration,

that boy

Chase