I find myself asking two questions: I'm another year older (37) but am I another year wiser? Am I still supposed to make mistakes at this age?

I've made choices in one instance which inadvertently ended a friendship. In this case, I know what I did wrong but my former friend takes no blame for her part. She sees herself as the person wronged in this situation and refuses to even talk to me. I give people chances. I gave her multiple chances for us to talk but she chose each time to walk away. How does one deal with being brushed off by someone you thought was a friend?

I thought I was helping her out but later learned in a text she sent me, I was being used. Shouldn't I be the one upset at her? With each passing day, I found myself getting angrier and angrier at her to the point, I stressed myself out. How did I let her have that much power it messed with me physically? If anyone had asked me a year ago, if I would lose this friendship, I would've said they were crazy. It turns out I was the crazy one. I never thought things would happen they way they had but I was wrong. I'd seen how she treated others but never thought I would be on the receiving end.

My first clue should've been how others perceived her. I knew she could be judgmental, prissy, condescending, incapable of seeing others' point of view and a major snob, but I didn't care because I liked her. What the hell was I thinking?

It's only been four months since this friendship ended. Though I miss hanging out, I know I have other people in my life, while she has just her cats. She has alienated so many people that she has no one. Should I relish in this fact or be sad for her? I know I shouldn't care but we'd been friends for ten years. I stood by her when she had no one to talk to when she had her legal troubles and didn't have a place to stay. The one time I let her down, she was willing to cut me loose, and did it all through a text. She didn't have the guts to say it to my face. What should I do? Let it go... YES! If it was so easy for her to end our friendship the way she had in a text, then it was never a friendship to begin with and I'm better off without her.

I don't know if I'm wiser but I'm definitely smarter. Making mistakes is the only way one can continue to grow as a person, no matter what their age. Some people will learn while others will make the same mistake over and over. I, for one, will not be one of those people. Lesson learned. Here's to my next mistake.

This is something I had to vent and get off my chest.