CSR Book Club C S R Discussion Day: Becoming Real By A C Benus
This month we featured our newest Promising Author, AC Benus, with his coming out story, Becoming Real. He's been kind enough to share a great interview below, so check it out! Then make sure and share your thoughts about his story or leave any questions you might have for him about his other work as well. He's also going to be here "live" to answer questions back and forth on the blog from 7 to 9 PM, Eastern!
Single people often have more time to write. Are you single?
- First of all, let me say thank you for giving me this opportunity. To address your question, no, I'm not single. My husband is Japanese, and we have been together since 1992.
Do you eat your fruits and vegetables?
- Hoho! I am so much better at cooking veggies than meat and fish. For me, sheer bliss is getting down to the farmer's markets on Wednesday and Saturday and seeing what's fresh. I'll buy anything to take home and try out, so yes, I eat my 5-a-day with great enjoyment!
Have you ever gone out in public, realized your shirt is on backwards, and just don’t care?
- I'm not that kind of person: if I notice it, I will take care of the problem as soon as I'm able. Now, the real issue becomes the times I go out like that and don't notice until I'm back home again at night Yes, that has happened.
Name one entity that you feel supported you in your writing endeavors outside of family members.
- 'Entity' is such a broadly worded concept…'a being.' Anyone who reads very much of my work will quickly stumble on higher concepts of Love and guidance, so I have those in my work and feel like they have guided the creation of what I wanted to say about my human experience.
But 'entity' and 'support my writing endeavors' also makes me think of the collection of essays I wrote dealing with the loss of my dog. He surely helped me be a better person, and I feel blessed that I could mourn for Leporello in a way that may help others dealing with their own grief at the loss of a pet. In that regard, he supported me tremendously.
What brought you to GA?
- I began posting some of my erotic fiction on xhamster.com, and received generally good feedback. One of my buddies there suggested looking into GA for some of my more serious stuff, so after checking out the competition, I signed onto GA knowing it was the absolute best website out there to support our writing community. Needless to say, I love it here.
You write poetry, screenplay, and fiction works. Do you have a preferred writing style?
- First thought in my head is to paraphrase that biblical passage about '…render unto Caesar what is Caesar's…'
The works generally tell me what to make of them. For instance, I have been toying with a collection of short stories based on the events happening within the 24-hour period of a holiday (one for Valentine's Day, another for Memorial Day, and so forth), and the scope of the Thanksgiving episode has now blossomed so that I can only think of it in terms of being a play.
Sometimes a work inspires me to think of it in a different way. My erotic tale, Hair of the Dog, had me going around for weeks thinking about a sequel, and the only way it seemed best to tell the story of those boys growing up and living together in their small town was a screenplay.
Is there anything you find particularly challenging in your writing?
- Fear. Fear that my back is against the door time wise; fear that I'll rush and produce something sloppy or unready to be seen; fear that it will be unread even after I put my heart and soul into it.
What has been the toughest criticism given to you as an author? What has been the best compliment?
- LOL, I have been accused of single-handedly trying to keep the tissue industry afloat. Working with Timothy M. has brought into focus for me that I ask my readers to trust me, and sometimes that can be a lot to ask. I strive for emotional realness, and it never occurs me to whitewash. So, Tim has said it better than I can, that trust placed in me will be rewarded in the end, for I don’t have an interest in unhappy endings.
That being said, when one very well meaning and well-reasoned person, whom I admire, told me my work "was too good to read" – i.e., caused too many emotions to be stirred up – it saddened me. I suppose what I was trying to say about Tim is that he's helped me see this in terms of readers trusting me a writer; that I may lead them on a perilous journey of the heart, but I will not leave them hurting. Or, at least I hope not.
As for taste, hey, some people do not like my prose, some people do. That's all good and I certainly am opinionated with what I think works and does not work in other people's writings. GA is a wonderful community, and everyone seems to be supportive across the board. I love that feature about the site.
As for compliments, anytime a reader leaves a personal message or review saying that they can relate to what I've written about, it sends me to cloud nine. I live for those moments.
Did any real life events inspire you to write Becoming Real?
- All of them.
I was 24 years old when these were written. I was living and working in Japan at the time, and in the months following a summer trip back home to STL, I could not forget the real-life incidents that appear in The Willmore Pizza. I had not written fiction centered around the Gay Experience before then, but the bitterness I felt about the cop harassing us in the park left me knowing I must be a Gay writer; the sweetness and true innocence of the encounter with the real-life Nick made me want to document it as best I could.
The first of the series actually written was The Meeting in the Park, and from there I went on to write the rest of them. My ability to do this was entirely due to my husband, for he took me to a bookshop in Tokyo that not only sold international books, but contained the first LGBT book section I had ever seen! This was 1992, so I bought a lot, and especially treasured George Stambolian's anthologies of Gay short stories, Men on Men. The pages of this series introduced me to the best of the best of out writers, like David Leavitt, Andrew Holleran, Edmund White, Felice Picano, and many many more. These are still definitely worth tracking down.
Were the seven short stories each written for a particular reasons, or is that just how many events the story took to be told?
- This is an interesting question. The seven short stories that make up Becoming Real are all chapters of my coming out, but there were other incidents/challenges that did not make it in. When I was figuring out how to convey the overall arc of Josh's coming out, I settled on these seven incidents as the great beginning, middle and end of his journey.
In the broader sense, I did this because I wanted each of the short stories to stand on its own and be satisfying for its individual merits regardless of where it fell in the coming out process for Josh.
How long did it take you to write Becoming Real?
- Honest answer – I don't remember, lol. A matter of months, I suppose. Once you get me talking, you can't shut me up.
Do you have a favorite part of the story?
- There are several vignettes that flash across my mind: the second moment where Josh thinks Gary is going to kiss him; Josh picking up the photo of Dick's ex; the peanut butter sandwich at the end of Chary; the lying on the hood of his car and talking poetry and love with Billy; the boys' first, awkward kiss. But, if I'm honest, the moments from The Willmore Pizza are very personally special to me: the way Nick flirts with Kyle in the pizza shop; the lending of his jacket to Josh; their lying out under the stars; and especially that moment when Nick exclaims "Oh God, I'll never see you again in my life…"
What are your future projects?
- Besides having a small piece coming out in the next anthology, I guess this is as good a venue as any to announce that I've been working with another GA author, ColumbusGuy, on a collaboration. For a while I have been refining a concept to create a series of Christmas stories all centered on a particular department store. Eight in total, each highlighting the events of a specific season ranging in date from 1880 to 2006.
I am pleased to say that Katie's Sketchbook, the 1976 tale, is more or less done, and CG's characters of Jay and Miles make extended appearances. It will be fun to work with him when he comes to relay the same events for his own Jay and Miles series.
Anyway, one down, and now I'm off to tackle the next in the series. I hope that by the holidays I will have at least three ready for posting. Wish me luck!
Don't forget to leave your thoughts on AC's story, and if you can make it to his live Q&A time, that will be at 7 to 9 PM, Eastern!
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