For several days now, i’ve been “off.”
Off my game; off my healthy eating; my mood is off; my enjoyment of my job is off. i’m just OFF. Frankly, i don’t like feeling like this. Even my relationships are off. i had to excuse myself from the living room last night when the kids’ joking around and the dogs barking made me feel like i was about to explode. i cried a little when i told a friend that i loved him.
i know that this happens; we’re all human and life ebbs and flows. i also know that it won’t last forever, but that doesn’t make it suck any less.
i also realized that i dislike the phrase “Well, just get back on that horse.” But sometimes it feels like i’m trying to climb on a wild mustang. i know that if i can just take a deep breath and start again, that i’ll find a way out sooner or later.
The sky isn’t as blue, the grass isn’t as green. Life is waiting, and i’m just sitting on a bench somewhere watching it. Today, i'll get through it, just like always. Maybe tomorrow i’ll be closer to ME again…
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