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Life ... Really?


This morning i was thinking about a conversation i had with a fellow writer last night, about a forum post i read and a newspaper column i read a few minutes ago.

Then I thought, what the f*ck? If you took all of those and used them as examples to explain what life is and what living is, no one in their right mind would want to live one.

None of it was good news or happy news.  My friend's life is hard right now. The forum post was from a writer whose life is painful and difficult due to mental illness. The newspaper article was about love and grief and a dead dog.

A year ago, I tried very hard to end my life.  Very hard. There are lots of reasons why. It wasn't the first time, but i really meant it. Nearly succeeded. Mental health and mental illness are real things, a fact of life for lots of us.  Made worse by things out of our control, like the pandemic.

There is so much negativity in our lives that sometimes it overwhelms us to the point we cannot see the point. Why go on? How to go on?

All we can do is pick up our feet one at a time and go forward. Reach out to others by talking and writing. Even a private message is a start.

Try to stop doing negative things ... we all know what they are. Doom scrolling, social media, alcohol and non-prescription drugs ... do something real, like walk outside, paint/colour a picture, knit, crochet, phone someone who cares about you.  Exercise can make you feel better; outside is even better.  Take a friend, and your pup/ (cat if willing!), if you have one.

Do something creative with your hands and brain, rather than watch other people's lives. Make your own.

Don't hide alone. People can be our enemy but also our salvation.

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MichaelS36

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I am grateful daily that you did not succeed in your effort, boy.  

I'm also grateful that life has become more meaningful, though I know you still don't understand it.  I don't think many of us do.   

I see joy in you and spirit. And while we are not on this earth for a long time, we should endeavor to make it as meaningful as we can.

I cannot answer why. I only know that doing so makes it easier to live each day. 

Life is easier when we can live it well.  I'm no dreamer, I've seen the underworld, the unkind side of life, cruelty, hatred, poverty, it needs fixing. 

Truthfully, we live in a cesspool which needs to be repaired to be fair and good for all. But how?

Until we manage that herculean task, we need to help each other as best we can.

Some of that fortitude has to come from the spark within us. Sometimes we need help to find it. Sometimes we need to see the bottom of the barrel to know there's something better. 

You're so right when you say that people can be our salvation. 

Life is what me make it, but it's better when we do that together. 

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Mikiesboy

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7 hours ago, kbois said:

You are in such an amazing place right now and I'm so proud of you. Sometimes it's hard not to focus on the negative, especially when it brings you into a headspace that's not a good place to be. 

We all need reminders everyday of what's good in life. Having a support system is crucial. 

Thanks for the reminder to stop and focus on the good stuff (like donuts)

xoxo

Thank you .. i'm doing okay.  i just felt so badly this morning with all the sad things happening, i wanted people to know they can help themselves and often that means asking others to help.

And yes, a life without donuts would be sad.  i'd have to learn to make my own! lol

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Reader1810

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Sometimes, I wonder what I’m doing here, but then something puts that thought to rest, at least until the next time. Thankfully, “next time” is few and far between.

This little guy still makes me smile. 

I am truly glad you’re still with us, tim. 

Love you lots. xoxo

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Mikiesboy

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7 hours ago, MichaelS36 said:

Life is what me make it, but it's better when we do that together. 

Yes, Sir. i'm grateful for You and our family and all my friends here.

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Mikiesboy

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30 minutes ago, Reader1810 said:

 

IMG_0009.jpeg.8127049bbf0916948e47b1ba669d064b.jpeg

Sometimes, I wonder what I’m doing here, but then something puts that thought to rest, at least until the next time. Thankfully, “next time” usually comes.

This little guy still makes me smile. 

I am truly glad you’re still with us, tim. 

Love you lots. xoxo

i'm glad there's always a next time. 

oh my, i'd forgotten about him.. i think he went to live with Peter and Jess.

i'm glad i'm here too ..  and i love you right back xoxoxxo

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Reader1810

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2 minutes ago, Mikiesboy said:

i'm glad there's always a next time. 

oh my, i'd forgotten about him.. i think he went to live with Peter and Jess.

i'm glad i'm here too ..  and i love you right back xoxoxxo

He lives on in my photo folder. He’s just too cute to part with. 😊

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Mikiesboy

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3 minutes ago, Reader1810 said:

He lives on in my photo folder. He’s just too cute to part with. 😊

:)  i havent made any animals lately.. I've started on a sweater for myself... we'll see how long that takes me!  This is the colourway:  image.png.df582eccf10082f8087268e42cdb089f.png

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Reader1810

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2 hours ago, Mikiesboy said:

:)  i havent made any animals lately.. I've started on a sweater for myself... we'll see how long that takes me!  This is the colourway: 

Great colours you’ve chosen. 👍🏻

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