I was looking back at a lot of my blog posts and noticed a lot of them had a common theme of always rambling on about a guy... usually a different one every time. But I'm not a slut. Most of the time nothing ever happens with the guys I mention in here. Maybe it's a curse...w hich is also why I've decided to stop talking about them in here for the most part. I was going to blog about a guy tonight, but decided against it.

Well, since I decided not to talk about a guy, I don't have much else to say. But I'll give it a shot.

My life has been soo hectic and busy lately that I haven't gotten a good night's sleep in too long to remember. If I'm not at school or work (which I usually am), I'm either out with friends or avoiding my homework. Speaking of avoiding homework, I have a huge exam tomorrow that I'm almost positive I'm going to fail because I haven't studied for it. And I also have a 5 page outline to do over some chapters in a book that I still haven't done. BUT in my defense,I was planning on doing that tonight... but then I went down to Dallas and didn't get home until 2am. So I've decided I'm f**ked (and not in the good way) tomorrow.

Let's see... work! Work sucks. I hate it. It makes me want to shoot someone. But they promoted me so I guess they like me even though that feeling isn't mutual. Once I turn 18 though I'll be out of there in a heartbeat... they just don't know that yet. They also don't know that I plan on taking a LOT of time off throughout the upcoming months. I'll take off a few weekends in May for concerts and graduation and what not, a week in early July to go up for a family reunion, a week in mid/late July to probably go down to Austin to party with some totally awesome people, and then after that it probably won't matter because I shouldn't be there much longer than that.

So my life has taken a pretty dramatic turn lately. I'm beginning to change my attitude a lot when it comes to what other people think about me down here. I used to take it too seriously, but now - I just don't give a f**K. If you can't accept me for who I am, then don't talk to me. If you don't like who I hang out with or any of my friends, then don't hang out with me. I'm at the point where I'm not going to walk up to every person I meet and say, "Hey, I'm gay"... that's not me. But I'm done trying to hide the fact that I am. I don't live with my parents anymore (not that it matters because my mother already knows way too much about me as it is), I'm beginning to get more and more friends that know me for who I am and not who I was, and I'm just sick of trying to conform and fit in with everyone else. So my note to everyone out there that knows me: If you don't like me... I don't give a shit. Leave me alone and we won't have a problem

I've already forgotten what I said up there ^ because my memory is total crap and I'm too lazy to re-read what I wrote. SO, I think I'm going to procrastinate again and not do my outlines tonight and just go to sleep. And I realize this whole blog sounds like one big rant (which it pretty much was), but it's better than me talking about another guy and looking like a bigger slut than half the people on here already think I am (which I'm not).

So I hope you all have an awesome day tomorrow because I know I sure as hell will Have a goood night!

Joe

(Who had an amazing night tonight and doesn't want it to end)