Some weeks are better than others...
And this one's certainly sucked big time!
There's little point in me sitting here whining about it and there's very little constructive good that this blog entry can make, but just as a general update of my life...
Things didn't work out with the new old boyfriend. We broke up tonight. It was a nice break up I suppose. I mean we were both primarily concerned with not hurting each other, it was mostly mutual, and we're probably going to remain friends. Perhaps one day I'll write a blog about the whole thing, start to finish, but I don't particularly feel like it right now.
Yesterday I quit my job. I had been sick a few days before that, and I was under a lot of stress, and in general everything was worse because of the crazy, random hours I had to work, plus there are quite a few things I need to do with my life that I couldn't have done while working that schedule. So I quit. I feel really good about my decision, just a little stressed about finding a new job and what comes next.
Prior to that, almost a week ago now, my best friend (in Houston) "broke up" with me. For the past three weeks or so there have been quite a few problems in our relationship. The breaking straw was apparently my new relationship with Andrew (that was his name). Basically it all came down to my friend having issues with it and me apparently not seeing that until it was too late. Actually though, while I was hurt at the time - and very surprised - I feel okay with that as well. The way I see it my brief relationship with Andrew wasn't really relevant to our relationship. If he felt the need to end it, it had problems anyway (which it certainly did).
So, in the span of a week I've lost a boyfriend, friend, and job. I'm sure I should be much more upset than I am right now. I mostly feel numb and overwhelmed by the whole thing. I sorta wish I were more upset because I feel like I must be in damage control, repressing mode right now, and that's not really the best way to get over this stuff.
It is good that my head is fairly clear though. I'm just going to go on. I'm going to find a new job, I'm going to forge stronger relationships with my other friends, I'm going to try to be there for Andrew but not too close and hopefully we'll work out a nice friendship in the end as well.
I'm going to go on.
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