So, today, I've decided it's probably a really good idea to completely f**king redo myself. From the ground up. I need drastic change. Soooo.... what shall I talk about....

My misadventures with manhunt.net. Omg. This site is the bomb for ego boosting, however, BE CAREFUL. What do gays and women have in common? They lie about their weight. Just sayin'. Also, they tend to not be very interesting. Even so, zomgz, I've met so many nifty people. My friend Matt that runs the Saengar theatre in Hattiesburg? Met him on manhunt. Actually sorta played therapist to him for a bit before he and his man broke up and he's been doing great ever since. Worried I might've spurred on a manic phase in a bipolar person, but I dunno that he's actually bipolar, maybe he's just elated at the freedom since they'd been together for five years.

Anywho, I'm random... I know this... but I feel the need for a change coming on. Something new, interesting, entertaining. Actually, I believe what I will do from now on is work and write. Lol, yes, I might be insane. I may have thrown away a golden opportunity... 'cause I'm totally withdrawing from USM for at least a year.... but f**k it. I want to feel alive again.

I wanna go to work at Steak Escape and draw a paycheck, preferably with some overtime hours. Also, I want to finish one of the novels I've been working on for ages. I want to relax. I want to re-dye my hair. I want to go to the gym here religiously. I want to weigh 125 pounds. I want to throw away most of my clothes and start collecting a new wardrobe, because mine is abysmal.

Also, so this is gonna sound weird, but... does anybody know anything about escort services? I figure there should be a market for me to be an escort... for male or female, I can handle getting paid to be conversation and arm candy... ~shrug~ Perhaps I'm just really, really odd, but I think it'd be fun.

Okay, so now I am totally at a loss as to how to end this blog. I guess.... well, my apartment is almost completely put together. It's becoming quite pretty!! I'm very fond of it, and I like how it's slowly but surely becoming a home-like place. Liz and I are thinking we'll invite people over for Thanksgiving when that rolls around. We're both still on edge from school and the random crazy shit that's happened lately... such as one of our friends committing suicide by jumping in front of an eighteen-wheeler. Things like that take a bit of recovery time, but I really think that this'll be great for both of us. Everything should be okay. I really hope so, because I am so afraid I'm gonna fail at even existing.

I'm so close to freedom. It's gonna be great.