Sounds like this guy would be good for you, tame, innocent and nice. A totally opposite from you =D

 

Got to hand it to the guy though, he's got guts. That's always a plus in my book. Have Fun remember no sex on the first date. You don't want to scare the poor guy off that soon.

I even told him no college I apply to would accept me.

It's never too late to attend college. A good chunk of our students are non-traditional (not your typical 18-19 yo freshman). Lot's of mid to late 20s people. And others much older than that.

 

There are plenty of colleges here in CA who would probably take you. You should see the crop that gets accepted here every year . Your blog is written better than some senior seminar papers I've been shown (by professor friends of mine here).

 

So get information on the application cycle of the schools you are interested in. For example, you can apply to all the CSUs via the www.csumentor.edu website. The Priority filing deadline is 11/30.

 

Good luck on your date!

Good luck with everything. Everyone goes through periods of feeling worthless and pointless and hopeless... even me and I'm fab I am sure you will get into college, the problem is that if you don't apply... you can't. Life is short and to not do something because you think you might fail is just not part of the package if you want to make it through. Get out there, do it and report back on all the offers you get... which will be many.

I agree with Meeko, the guy sounds good for you

Meeko and Lacey seem to think this guy will be good for you. The big question is: Will you be good for him? Seriously, you are more experienced than he; it's your place to help him. If you are successful...if both of you have a good time...perhaps you will feel you have done something worthwhile.

 

Don't give up on college; there are plenty that will accept you. It's important that you get a degree and that will be more important in the future.

Chase-

 

Come to the University of Southern Mississippi!

 

USM is 90 minutes from New Orleans and widely regarded as one of the biggest party schools in the South East.

 

It's not bad academically either.

 

Several of our members are current or former students there.

 

 

BTW- train the new kid well.

Hello Chase,

 

I have some thoughts.

 

Before you start "feeling worthless" I urge you to consider just what "worthless" is to you. Worth is a relative concept. You really have no one's standards to live up to but your own; just make sure your standards are "worth" living up to.

 

As I see it, there's something of a "slacker vs. over-achiever" contest going on here. On the one hand you're throwing massive parties, sleeping around, and going to class drunk. On the other, you're feeling as though you should be receiving good grades at a prestigious institution and generally following the standard paradigm of success. The thing is though, you've got to know what your motivation is. Are you simply killing time in temporarily pleasing but ultimately unfulfilling ways? A bottle won't fill your emptiness and neither will an MBA from Harvard (or whatever you want from wherever). IMO, there's nothing wrong with partying or with succeeding in the traditional way. Just do it in a positive way. Don't pickle your liver and don't chain yourself to a desk. Neither route offers actual fulfillment.

 

Of course, that's simply from my perspective. I did the wild partying and the all A's thing (I even did them at the same time), and they were both nice, but neither one of them was the actual point or added any degree of meaning or long-term satisfaction to my life.

 

What I've personally come to understand as my concept of "meaning" and "fulfillment" is being able to enjoy my life in the moment, being able to continually learn and do new things, being able to cope with shit without spinning out of control, and being able to bring some measure of fun, support, pleasure, and knowledge to the world around me. That's really about it. Everything else in life, education, money, a career, etc. it's all just a means to those essential ends as far as I'm concerned.

 

Of course that's just me. I definitely don't encourage you to take up my motivations anymore than I encourage you to take up anyone else's. What I would suggest is figuring out what you want, what will make you feel good about your life, and then asking yourself what you can do to have those things. Again, also ask why you want those things. Some people want to "be successful" or "party hard" not because they are actual values the person themself holds, but because of how those things will be viewed by the people around them. IMO, that isn't a very good reason to pursue success or debauchery; you've gotta want it for yourself

 

Regarding your boy, let me take a slightly more cynical perspective since everyone else, including you, seems to be viewing him primarily as innocent and fresh. He probably is innocent and fresh; however, bear in mind that the reason he knew you were into guys was because he heard you talking about screwing one. Virgin or not, what he was ultimately asking himself was, "hmmm, should I ask out this guy whom I know puts out?" There's not necessarily anything wrong with that. I'm certainly not going to condemn a little recreational sex between two consenting, unattached adults, and maybe they'll end up being a whole lot more to the date (and perhaps relationship) than just sex. All I'm saying is, you might want to have that condom handy just in case

 

Take care, dude,

 

-Kevin

Such angst. Deal with it.

 

You party like a rock star.

Suck my dick Mark

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