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OMG!!! Foxy! SO yay! I REALLY like the third one! Hugs, Viv

I can't decide if I love Gabe's mom and her little speech, reassuring him that he is worth something, deserving of the best, or Niles' totally honest way of reassuring Gabe and opening himself up, or Gabe needing to use guilt and Niles' feelings as an excuse to go after what he really wants more endearing... but OMG Com... I loved it SO much! You should KNOW by now how much I love reading everything, anything, you have written... and you just never cease to amaze me and make me smile... and I know that it all has to come from somewhere inside of one hell of an amazing and beautiful human being... Thanks for the story and for being you... everything that makes you who you are. Viv

Hey Luc, How about a hug instead? I'll even promis enot to let go until you really are happy... Viv

Okay... after much review... and extra points for creativity... and knowing who cheated I'm going to officially declare Joey the winner Here are the correct answers... 1. What is my middle name? June... you know how very creative that was since I was born in the month after all. 2. What is my favorite color? Green of course! 3. Which of my kids is older, my son or my daughter? Prepubescent girl wins... 4. Where was I born? LA 5. What is my favorite candy? Jolly Ranchers! 6. What are the names of Viv

OMG! Thank you guys... and gals too, for taking the time to wish me Happy Birthday! I seriously smiled almost all day, even though I had to go to some boring meeting for work for 4 hours, but it was a fun, kick back day and I got to talk to my favorite people so that's good Just an advance warning though... next year, I'm gonna be 28 again cause Natey says I can start going backwards SO many hugs to all of you and thanks so much for your friendship and more! Love, Viv

Okay guys and gals... Here is a link to my site, officially hosted by Gay Authors... thank you for the space and the opportunity. http://viv.gayauthors.org/ Okay and as promised and just for fun... Here is a quiz about me, who else? It is my birthday after all 1. What is my middle name? 2. What is my favorite color? 3. Which of my kids is older, my son or my daughter? 4. Where was I born? 5. What is my favorite candy? 6. What are the names of Viv

Alright this is gonna be try number two for this entry! I was almost done and clicked something else and then... it was gone and now this is me... debating wheter or not to just say f**k it or write it all over again! Whatever... I have a pretty crappy job and it doesn't pay horribly and almost anyone could do it, but still every day I show up, on time, and do my best and go above and beyond cause I take pride in my work. I like feeling like I am valuable and needed. So I was off work Monday and Tuesday and I get this call on my cell phone from my boss on Tuesday. Now I know you are thinking why did you answer it... but the answer is... because I have to. I am the store safety manager and if someone got majorly injured I have to go over there and deal with it so it's basically like I am on call 24/7 and I'm sure I don't get paid enough for that. See, recently I have been having some scheduling issues with them, thanks to my best friend (sarcastic) Wendy, which... coincidentally, things are SO much better around there now that she is gone... but anyway, they were working me mostly nights and one half day in the morning on Tuesdays to do safety stuff. So after thinking about it a while I realized it basically costs me $60 a week to do that job for Randy and the store so I told him he needed to either work me all days or find someone else and work me all nights. He chose nights, saving me $400 a month in preschool costs... but he didn't want to find someone else, he wanted me and suggested me just doing it a different morning I could be there, like Saturdays so I said fine. Anyway, so Randy calls me on Tuesday morning.... Me: Hello? Randy: Hi, umm, I'm trying to figure out what to do with the 25 kids standing here in front of the store waiting for their tour. Me: You mean the one I reminded you about at least three times? Randy: Yeah, and they came walking in asking for you. Me: Okay... Randy: Well, who is gonna do this tour? Me: Obviously not me. Randy: Well I can't do it. I have a department head meeting and they are all waiting for me. Me: Okay... Randy: Oh well, Charlotte is just going to have to do it. Let me interject here that Charlotte is 5 months pregnant and is a book keeper and has no idea how the store actually works. Me: Randy, no! Randy: Well I don't know what else to do. Me: Well, who do you have there now? Marie? Randy: No. Me: Crystal? Randy: Not for another hour, and the new girl isn't here either. (The one that replaced Wendy) Me: Well who is there? Basically he called me ON MY CELL PHONE to have me solve his problem, which to me is worse than calling me at home, I could have been ANYWHERE... and I'm pretty sure he makes like $70K more than I do a year. Realizing you screwed yourself and that you need me isn't fun I guess. So I was talking to this friend the other day and it dawned on me AGAIN... does that make me in denial or just stupid?? that I think I care way more about him than he does about me. I love this guy to death, and sometimes when we talk it's like we have known each other for a long time and are great friends and then other times... it's like we can only be friends on his terms. I don't know really... it's like... I think being friends with someone means you can talk to them about anything and listen too and not be... censored. Anyway, it just sucks... So on the up side, I finally figured out what I am going to write for the summer anthology... now all I have to do is write it. So this guy came through my line last night... probably about 45, graying beard and motorcycle helmet, to buy a case of beer, and I was joking with him. Anyway, we have these cards on the counter that customers can fill out about the service they received and so the guy filled one out and handed it to me while I had stopped to answer the phone and said goodbye and when I looked at it it said... Vivan... What a GREAT person! Awwwwwwwwww! Then this other guy who totally set off my gaydar if that is weird, I'm sorry, came through. NICE body, built, but not too scary big, in a tank top and designer jeans with a cowboy like hat on, but not westerny really, a shell necklace and flip flops.. and Mary, the manager there last night says from across the front end of the store... 'Tell him I like his hat' So I am shaking my head no... as in 'hell no, I'm SO not doing that!' SO she got Rosa to do it for her... OMG! Alrighty... in other news... Foxy is indeed foxy! so I picked the right name, Timmy's hair looks great! Jonny is getting all the hugs today I hope everything works out for you angel but I know it will, like it is supposed to... and I hope Tobi doesn't melt! but he could wear less clothes! And Jon is alive! I love ya sweetie! and darlin! Natey and Joey too... for listening to me whine which I hate doing... Hugs, Viv

So here is a part of a chat I had with Rich this morning while he was at work... Rich: so we were robbed over the weekend Viv: what!? Rich: someone smashed the front door glass and took our snack tray!! Viv: wtf? Viv: really? Rich: yes Viv: that's all they took? Rich: yeah, there is a brand new comp in the box with flat panel monitor in the box...they took the snacks! Viv: Viv: no... snacks? Viv: sniffle* Rich: i brought my $.75 and everything. Viv: awwwwwwwwwww, i'm so sorry honey! Viv: bunch of savages in that town! Rich: IM HUNGRY NOW Viv: you should go get some snacks for everyone... sort of an attempt to start the healing process Viv: i mean i know it will be a long hard road, feeling violated as you all do, but baby steps Rich: ITS TOO HARD... Viv: you can do it honey... be brave Viv: think of your tummy Lemme see what else... Chapter 20 is finished! Editor approved and everything! The countdown has begun... 7 days of school left until summer break.. read total chaos in my house... :wacko: Also that means... about 2 months until my little guy starts kindergarten Congratulations to Drew! :graduated: SO yay! I guess to all the graduates! Jules, Shadows, anyone else I missed. Rich is making me go to Home Depot again :wacko: but I guess that's better than him going alone and me getting... pissed off cause he picked out something I didn't like. Our back room that had the beehive in it the beehive is gone, the HUGE hole in the wall patched, painted, new carpet, ceiling fan installed, air conditioner in, computer set up... I swear I am not leaving this room all summer gives me a good excuse to write though... right? Ronnie! Take it easy on the smoothies!... Natey made me do that! Entry 85 I believe this is... wow! So Foxy pointed out to me last night that chapter 20 being released on my birthday while being about Stephen's birthday is... amazingly appropriate! Giggle... So, in case anyone is interested... it's official. I am an overthinker of... pretty much everything. I can't help it... quite possibly an overfeeler too, in fact that may be the understatement of the year. Not that I am a mellow drama girl or anything, I'm not, but I definitely don't just breeze over things either.. I sort of need to feel my way through things. OMG! My daughter just referred to S-E-X as 'woohoo' :wacko: Heeeeeeeeeeelp me now! Hugs everyone, Vivian

Happy Birthday Vic, Hope it's a great one... Viv

Hey Foxy, Everything happens for a reason... and what if's and regret can kill you, but it doesn't sound like you have regret about your decision... You did what was right for you at the time you had to do it... Hugs, Viv

I know it's still 33 minutes early but I have to work tonight... and I don't wanna miss my chance to be the first darlin... I love you and I hope you have a GREAT 25th birthday!! Hugs little brother, Vivan

What an eventful few days...! So I got this really snazzy orange card in the mail that said I have a package to pick up at the post office from Davey but I couldn't go get it cause Rich had my car so I went the next morning and picked it up. He made me promise not to look at the bottom of the package because the customs form was there and you have to list what is in the package and then I would know what my present is. I didn't peek! I swear! The instructions were to take the present out of the package and then immediately throw the package away so I did, but not before Tony read the customs form... so now he knows what my gift is then later I was telling Rich that Tony knows what it is and explained the story so when he got home from work he went and found the envelope and now he knows what it is too! and... I have to wait 12 more days to find out... which brings me to... The twenties... My birthday and chapter 20! Not 20 years old... I wish but I'm thinking it would be fun to debut chapter 20 on my birthday which happens to be the 20th... could be fun I also decided, just for fun, I would do a special birthday blog... sort of a 'who knows me the best' quiz. So, start studying up giggle! Only 2 days till my darlin's birthday and I hope... REALLY hope his present gets there on time... I HATE being late STILL SO sorry Kev! So my pal Beautiful and the boys are all heading out on a vacation and I am SO gonna miss him! but he BETTER have a good time and Josh... enjoy hun! You deserve it SO last night at work Tony and I were taking our breaks together and this girl asked us if we were related and he told her I was his wife so then after I looked horrified... cause ewwwwwww! he said nah, just kidding, she's my mom :wacko: so I smacked him and told him he was grounded! Hugs everyone, Vivian PS. Chapter 20 is to the editor PS again... Miss you lots angel!

Happy Birthday Snowy! Viv

Holy crap it's HOT! It was like 97 here today in sunny southern California. It's 10:30 pm now and it is currently 75 degrees... What I love about the heat... I don't have to wear a sweater everyday, boys wear less clothes my feet stay warm in my flip flops... What I don't love about the heat... man boobs hanging out of tank tops Okay so I just have to get this off my chest and be done with it... This morning Rich and I stayed in bed for quite a while and well, I'm pretty sure you all can decipher what that means, but we had the TV on since there are quite a few people that live in my house and well... how can I say this without sounding dumb... okay, I'll just say that I have a tendency to make some noise not a ridiculous amount or anything but more than the whole house needs to hear. Anyway, the food channel was on... and while we are having sex I hear the guy on the cooking show say... "so big and meaty" and it took every fiber of my being not to burst out laughing. Anyway, I guess you all can see the connection and I just want to say... I'm sorry babe but I guess that's good that it made me think of you. So, I did an interview for GA and here is a link if anyone is interested... http://writers.gayauthors.org/articles/int...ew-with-viv.php I swear I am trying to get the next chapter finished! I am slowly working on it... I just really want it to be perfect. So I was having this talk the other day with a friend of mine... and I sort of made a clear and direct statement to him and it went sort of like this... I want real and genuine... Don't hold back anything, I want the unabridged and complete version of you and I will love you for the person you are and for the amazing human being you are with no judgements... Anyway, to that friend, I just want to say... you are so special to me already even though we have only known each other for just a short time and I'm so glad that you are a part of my life and my friend and that you trust me enough and consider me a friend enough to be your genuine self... I love you lots! Okay well, I'm gonna cut this short since my sweetie just woke up and I miss him like crazy! Hugs, Viv PS. I found Kevin a nickname and it's a good one too!

Happy, happy, happy Birthday! Viv

Luc, Happy, happy birthday to one hell of an amazing human being! Hope you have a great day and a super year with LOTS of smiling! Hugs, Vivian

Okay back to thinking about it Kev... I will not let you down this time!

Okay quick recap of my day here... I woke up at 7 am and got dressed and followed Rich and his broken car to the mechanics where he dropped it off to have the transmission rebuilt, and they said we could pick it up two weeks from now and $1000 later Then I drove him to work and he was actually early for the first time in forever Drove home, packed up the box to send to Davey and Chris for my darlin's birthday! Showered, and took the kids to the dentist for our six month cleaning and check-ups... no cavities again! Went to the post office to mail the box to Scotland, drove back to Rich's work to take him to lunch since he has no car, then we drove home. Hung out and chatted while the kids swam, my daughter and her friend actually invited my son to go with them but he came back pretty quickly saying he had put his face in the water and was cold... he's four, hehehe! So after he decided he was bored here and he wanted to go back to swim, I walked him back over and he changed his mind once we got there :wacko: so we came back home and I offered to let him swim in the warm bathtub. He apparently thought that was a great idea and even suggested bubbles! Sure thing... so then I went to go pick Rich up from work and decided we should stop at the store on the way home since I am totally out of all things junk food and milk... We shop... Ice cream, chips, popcorn, lunch meat, bottled water, milk, q-tips, etc... pay the bill, walk out, load the car, get in the car... MY f***ing car won't start! Tony miraculously happens to call at that time so I tell him to come over to the store and bring the jumper cables... I took my son into the store to get some change for the soda machine while we wait... I mean this is Southern California and hot as hell in the parking lot. So we walk in and I walk up to the register to get some change and my son says to the cashier, "The car is beeping and the car won't start." She said, "Oh no!" Then he told the customers in her line, "The car is beeping and the car won't start." She sent me to the next register since that moght be faster and he told that cashier, "The car is beeping and the car won't start." My beep beep car won't start even with cables so Tony brought me and my son and melting ice, ice cream and the rest of everything home in his tiny little truck while Rich walked across to the mall to buy a new battery and Tony just called and said the new battery is installed and the car started just fine Umm, ugh is all I can say. Kevin a.k.a. A Friendly Face... how about Ace? That is one of mine actually but I actually think it fits you well, what do you think? OMG and Lucky and Timmy are sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo CUTE! Davey, I asked the man and he asked the man and it's on the list of things to look at since it supposedly should be allowed for every member. Hugs, and hopefully no more b**ching about cars!~ Viv PS. OMG thank you Kitty for correcting me and the early birthday present!

Okay... so the present is in the mail... and professionally gift wrapped... and I have sworn that I won't look at the customs form on the back of the box... and I'm sure that tomorrow I will have to swear to wait till my birthday to open it too. But I can't wait sweetie So I had this interesting talk with my angel today and he was helping me, since I am computer challenged, trying to figure out why my microphone on my headphones wouldn't work. I told him I stick the pink plug thingy into the pink hole but it wouldn't work... and in the end I realized... it was because the thing was turned off. But anyway he wins cause he made me laugh the most when he said this to me... pink hole... pink hole... monster c**k! So I think Rich is having his boy period as Davey says or 'manstruating' was a new one I heard today thanks to Jeff and I am sort of... trying not to take it personally. It pretty much sucks though... I am off work till Thursday night and then again on Friday. Wendy got tranferred so I am having a little party in celebration that she's gone. I know that doesn't seem very nice but it was no secret that we didn't like each other. Anyway... yay! I STILL haven't written past page 4 and I was so sure I was gonna get that done today, but there is always tomorrow I guess. Also, I signed up for the spring anthology and I still have no idea what I'm gonna write for it which is scary since it's due in 16 days :wacko: Congrats to Benny a.k.a. gorgeous and Kevin a.k.a. A Friendly Face on their newest employment opportunities~~ The disaster that was my house is clean again and the laundry that was threatening to get up and wash itself is now done and Rich's friend is gone again, Tony is in his own room too so... Viv is much happier Tony started working at my store and it's been fun actually. We don't really work together at all, but it's cool and people treat him well since they at least know I know him if not more, but that's a secret... Alright, I'm pretty sure that this was a big random jumble of crap just thrown on the page... but I did it all for you angel! Thanks for being my help desk... definitely level 2 at least! Public apologies to my darlin' Chris here and now since I fear the USPS may not get your present to you in time... but have no fear it's on the way! Happy early birthday Chris! Love ya! Vivian

Happy Birthday Dirty Jersey! Have a great year! Viv

Hey Natey! Happy Sweet 16th, hope it's a great one! Love ya, Viv PS. Smile Dimples... it's your big day!

Hi Kevin!! That was definitely a two-parter and I read fast... I am SO glad that you are getting out and meeting people and being noticed and so long as you promise to speak to me again... I might just demand a picture of your hot self cutie, kiddie, kitty... Anytime you want to talk or make me smile and laugh... you know where I'm at... Hugs, Viv PS. OMG! so I think I got this really strange from this guy and it sounded like his poor cat was dying in the background hehehe poor Timmy!

So let's see... the big news is I sent in chapter 18 to Myr and as soon as he is done partying and getting older it should be up for you to read... which means I have finished 19 and am on to writing 20. Can you even believe that?! Davey just reminded me of that fact and it is so shocking! I swear it feels like I barely started writing anything, but I really love it Alright so I have been labeled the emoticon girl... and I can deal with that since it's no secret that I am an overemotional and feeling person I'm taking it as a compliment! So Rich made me download this crazy song and I apologize in advance now in case any of you actually try and go find it... by Adam Sandler called At a Medium Pace. Without going into details here... I'm really glad the sun is shining again beautiful and that my cutie makes one hell of a paper airplane So Kev made some comment to me the other day that intruiged me in a weird sort of way... He said that he heard somewhere that in any online community you have 6 or 7 people that are really close to you... does this seem accurate to you guys? Cause I really have met so many great people here. Okay so I sort of got woman bashed in my own home the other day Rich and I were at the mall picking up my brother's wedding gift and outside that store was a guy selling stuff on a little cart thingy and he was selling these gloves that Rich really wanted for half price, like $95. So I tell him to get them like 4 times and in the end he says nah, he's gonna think about it and then pouts all the way to the car. So I tell him in the car that I'll wait for him if he really wants them to go get them and he still says no. When we get home he comes inside and starts telling Tony all about these awesome gloves he found... half price... etc... and Tony says, "Why didn't you let him get them?" I freaking told him like 5 times to get the beep beep gloves! So then Tony goes into this whole speech about how it's not that I said it was okay it's that he knew I really didn't want him to get them, and what they really want is for me to want them to get them. So i told them I couldn't condone that level of dorkdome and walked off So anyway, like I think that's like all for this blog. Dedicated of course to my east coast freaky pal... a.k.a. beautiful Like I love ya lots! Hugs, Viv

Hey there... Happy Birthday wishes to the REALLY cute guy, hopefully we'll talk soon, and have a great birthday! Hugs, Viv

Happy Birthday Myr! Hope it's a great year for you! Hugs, Vivian