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LOL, that's what I pay Snowy for... to get me the great deal from ticket scalpers! But seriously, Libbonono is right... that's not what a friend does. It is more complicated between you two, obviously, but that's another matter entirely. I think that you need to decide if you want anything more than a friendship with him and if the answer is yes... then tell him and see if you can make that happen. It seems only fair to me, after all, you aren't even allowed to talk to anyone else, so if you want to try it with him then I'd say he at least owes you that since he's been keeping you all hidden away and on the back burner as they say. If you're not interested in anything more than a friendship, then my advice is this... He's a dude, and obviously a selfish one... see above! But, friends stick by eachother usually and just cause he acted like a HUGE ass... doesn't mean you should so... let him have his space and his fun, and when he FINALLY realizes he f**ed up... tell him he owes you a 2 theme park day! Good luck guy!

Okay, so I get asked this question a lot... A LOT! My only answer is this... I like boys, men, males, whatever... Two has to be even better than one right? Besides, I love to read and I love romance and love stories, even ones that are all inclusive with angst and drama... and if I have to read one more time about heaving bosoms and burning loins, I swear... Anyway, I think we can all agree that guys are awesome!

Ugh! I just ate sooooooo much ice cream... spumoni from this yummy italian restaurant we go to. It is so good and I couldn't stop myself! :wacko: So, first of all, Happy Valentine's Day!!! To everyone! I am SO proud of Davey! Just an amazing effort from an amazing little brother with an amazing heart and a way to use a crappy situation and turn it into something that's just... AMAZING!!! If you want to know what he did... ask him! It's his news to share... but SO YAY sweetie! A seriously SUPERB... thing you've done! I'm working 6 days in a row because I needed Friday, Saturday, and Sunday off for Girl Scout Camp. Yes that's right, I will be gone all weekend on a mountain with 75 other girls and women I will post another chapter before I go... I won't keep you all waiting... and in case I fall off the side of the mountain or some bear eats me or something, Editor Davey has all the chapters that are finished and a complete storyline in his pretty little head! I <3 LOVE Rich! So much... I love that he can always make me smile, I love that he walks up behind me and rubs my neck and shoulders and especially that part on the front of your chest by your collar bone! I love that I can sleep all cuddled up to him. I love that he is bigger than me, stronger, taller, and that I always feel safe and protected when he wraps his arms around me. I love that when I can't help myself even though I'm trying really hard not to gloat about winning a disagreement, he finds a way to make it seem like he still won even though we both clearly know that I did I love that he has agreed to walk beside me in this life we have built together. Just because he said to Bardeara spoiled chapter 32 Of DD for me but that's okay... I'll forgive him... THIS time, hehehehe! Fish kisses... for Dr. Mike, giggle, are when you make fish lips, like how a fish looks and then kiss someone. LOVE Vivian PS. SO proud of you sweetie! Hope you're not mad...

Eww! Eww! Eww! Eww! Eww! Eww! Eww! Eww! Eww! Eww! Eww! Eww! Eww! EWW! Last night my cat was kind of freaking out, we could hear him scurrying around at the end of the hallway, and Rich even went down there once to find out what was going on and came back shrugging. So I went down there to go to the bathroom and the cat is still being freaky and when I turned on the light OMG!! He is batting around this 'thing' on the bathroom floor. I literally have to shove the cat out of the way with my foot to see what the 'thing' is and when I do... RIIIIIIIIIIIIIICH! OMG!!!!!!!!! "Come get this 'thing' of the floor NOW!" I'm sure he was rolling his eyes at me thinking I'm such a girl, and I am, I admit it, I don't do bugs... EVER! Not spiders, ants, mosquitos, bees, anything... but this was no bug! When he gets down there I have to grab the cat while he looks down at the floor to see what the 'thing' is before he grabs some tissues to pick it up. UGH! He holds it closer so he can get a better look at what it is and I even convince myself to take a peek... bad move! It is the tail of something... I automatically suggest a lizard since we have those around a lot and I have even seen a few in the house immediately before I say... RIIIIIIIIIIIIIICH! He says nope, he thinks it's more like a gecko or something. Like someones pet... Now I'm worried that the rest of the 'thing' minus its' tail that Rich is still holding, shivers still just thinking about it, must be running around the house.... AGAIN! So of course I make him go in search of the 'thing' but he doesn't find anything. It occurs to me then, and maybe I'm just trying to make myself feel better, but maybe the cat brought the tail of the 'thing' in through the open window that is still without a screen since we still haven't finished painting the windows. Besides that, I posted the next chapter a day or two ago, hope you all liked it... PLEASE don't hate Davey... I him! Seriously... besides, now that he is officially at Editor status, he could do that cliffhanger thing at the end of every chapter so be NICE! :2hands: My son ate a whole box of Girl Scout cookies while I was in the shower this morning and has been a sugar high then low grumpy mess all day. :wacko: A 4 year old with nothing else in his tummy but 13 chocolate covered peanut butter cookies equals no fun at all, except when he is giving me fish kisses Sometimes It hurts how much I love him, well, both of my kids. Hugs and smiles! Vivian

Okay so I just got home from this pititful excuse of a way to spend my Monday night. I had a Good Scout Leader meeting to go to, every month once a month... so it was my month to bring a game, craft, or song to share with the other troop leaders so they have something new to take back and use at their troop meetings. So, I brought a game... In this game you pass a roll of toilet paper around telling each person to take as many squares as they need, of course, not telling them what for. Then once everyone has at least one square we go around the circle and each person has to tell you something about themselves for each square they took. It's a getting to know you game and you could vary it for the girls by using candy or balloons or marbles, whatever... So we start going around the circle and two of the other women there said that they love their husbands sometimes so after we went around the whole circle they came to me and I hadn't taken any squares, but I was a good sport so I told them... I ALWAYS love my husband... even when he accidentally steps on my foot in the dark driveway and then calls me short... and then... when I kissed him he asked me 'what's that sound?' and I said fireworks I know, corny, but like in all the movies when the people fall in love and kiss there are fireworks. SO he says, no, no fireworks Then I made a pouty face at him and he laughed at me... I am almost done with the next chapter... I know I keep saying that, but I really am. The past few chapters have been very emotionally close to me, and because of that they are difficult to write. Well, no, they are easy to write, but hard to feel again. To the few I let read ahead... thanks for holding my hand through it. So, I think I might have told you guys this before, but I can't really remember :wacko: anyway... So Davey and I thought it would be fun to send each other a box of stuff we like since we are so alike personality wise to see if we like the same foods too. Since he is all the way in Scotland and I am here in California we don't really have the same foods and stuff. So anyway, I sent him 12 pounds of junk Now I can tell you what I sent since he received it today The box contained... my favorite bottled water, Aquafina, a box of Cheez-Its, a bag of cheese popcorn, a bag of Caramel Turtle Chex Mix, a bag of Jolly Rancher Lollipops, a jar of chocolate chip, toffee cookie mix, a jar of some cheesy dip stuff for tortilla chips, 3 boxes of Good Scout cookies, a bag of mexican rice mix, and a candle that smells soooooooooo good... I think that's it. Anyway, I told him he better not eat all of it at once or DANGER!! I did hear from Matt finally and he is alive and kicking... so that's awesome! Okay so a couple of short funny stories about working superbowl weekend... There was this older couple that came through my line and the husband was putting their groceries into their cart since all the box boys had been sent outside to collect carts since it was so busy. So the wife looked to her husband and sais, "You're a cute box boy, I think I'll take you home." I looked at her and said, "Ma'am we don't offer that service here." She laughed so hard and called me clever... Okay next story... So this guy I really like cause he is so nice and funny, Steve, told me this happened to him... He was giving change to a customer in his line and one of the dollar bills was ripped on the corner so Steve told the guy, "Let me get you a different bill." The guy replied, "Yeah cause the prostitutes don't like it when the money is ripped!" Anyway, I'm told it was a good thing I missed the halftime show since I worked the whole time the game was on... But I ended up in this conversation with these two women probably like 20 years older than me and I told them that when I called Rich on my break he told me the halftime show was soooooooooo bad and they agreed right before telling me that Mick Jagger should give it up already and just retire and how he has got tobe one of the ugliest men ever... right before one of them said, "Yeah, last year was even better than this year. At least we got to see what's-her-names tit!" Okay, enough of that... Hugs to all, especially Eric who I am missing like crazy and Davey in case he didn't heed my warning and pigged out on the 12 pounds of junk. Thanks Bard for the awesome reviews and you can definitely have a part when they make the story into a movie A hug for Matty, and for Chris who I miss too, even though Davey regularly hugs him for me Vivian

You could kill two birds with one stone here... just wear the whip cream and then you won't have to worry about ruffles o no ruffles, bowtie tied correctly or not, etc... and... if you REALLY want ruffles... you could use that spray whip cream in a can and make some ruffles

I got 24 on the first one and if I sat here longer instead of writing... which could be dangerous to my health, I might have gotten more... Haven't tried part 2 yet Off to PM Sharon!

Okay so, while I really believe that more important than any sexual encounter in any story are the emotional details... this is by far my favorite line from the whole chapter... Is this the feeling I'm giving Brice right now? Wow....I mean...just...wow! So innocent and so explorative. To be speechless because something is so new and amazing that it's just indescribable is a feeling no one ever forgets. Once again Com, you exceed all expectations and I am left wanting nothing except for a million chances to say thank you for sharing your thoughts with us. You're freakin awesome and I luv ya! Hugs!!

Happy Anniversary Green and Chaz!! Wow, 3 months already! Time flies when you're having fun!

We got our taxes done yesterday! That's out of the way, yay! I gave two tours of the store today to kindergarteners... I just love doing that. They are so... easily amused, predictable, intruiged, and still LOVE learning new things. Plus, there were the WAY HOT firemen there again today! When I picked up my daughter after school today she told me that the kid she sits next to in class, the one that is always bugging her to the point that she has asked the teacher to relocate him, got into a fight at school today! Apparently it was at lunch recess and he and some other boys were playing basketball and he punched some other boy twice on each side of his face and then in the nose and gave the kid a bloody nose. Damn! This is the fifth grade! How do these boys get so worked up and so full of ego and testosterone at age 10? And... furthermore, who taught that kid that when he gets angry or upset about something it's okay to hit someone? This is NOT a small kid either! Bully! So I finished the next chapter and I am really pleased with how Davey and I have got it worked out, even if the story keeps evolving and it's gonna take three chapters, at least, just to get out all the ideas we've had. I guess there's something to be said for writing what you feel, because I've heard 'Jesus Viv!' and 'OMG!! You're amazing!' and I even was asked if I'm okay That makes me feel... so, SO good. I blamed Davey when Deb asked if it was his fault, I'll admit that... but he said I could! So, I'm not a big fan of dogs... okay no, I like dogs, but... I LOVE cats way, WAY more, and I like dogs when they belong to other people We even own a dog and have for 10 years, a beautiful siberian husky named Ocean cause she has blue eyes. My daughter keeps asking me if when Ocean dies, will we get another dog and what kind do I want and when I told her that I don't think I want another dog she looked at me like this------> Shrugs. Like I said, I like them, especially in puppy form. I do not like cleaning up after them and always having to entertain them... sigh. Our dog is getting up there though, and I know my daughter will be a mess when the day comes since we have had the dog since they were both three months old Random facts here. I have 14 keys on my key ring and one key chain, a respectable gold and black Girl Scout one. No bumper stickers, and right now I am wearing a black pair of ankle socks that have the funny bunny on them and they say 'let's focus on me' I have somehow managed to, and without any exercise or trying, lost 20 pounds and now I can take off my jeans without unbuttoning or unzipping them Only like a million more pounds to go before I'm actually thin! :wacko: Hugs guys, Viv PS. The next chapter should be out soon and serious thanks to Davey for... EVERYTHING, and to Joey for being the man, as usual!

YES!!!

It's funny the things you randomly think of throughout the day... but the other night Rich was washing some dishes so I went down to my room to pick up a glass and noticed that somebosy had left 2 soda cans on my nightstand! So i picked one ip and stuck my index finger inside the SHARP!! hole of the other all the while thinking of Com and that if I cut my finger... yikes! But I didn't so, yay!

Dear Kevin, Well, firstly and least importantly... I did make it through your whole post... on the first try even! Now then... I think everyone has a bad time a some point or another... for me it's the first four months of the year and I drink root beer floats. It's perfectly healthy and normal for you to not be happy ALL the time, in fact, if you were, I would wonder and worry about you. That said, I really do believe that talking about it helps, even if nothing is solved or changed as a result. If you know the reason, like I do, for your bad time and you know it's coming, that even gives you a leg up because you can prepare yourself and act rationally when the time comes. The next step, in my eyes is get a support system. People to talk to, even some you trust to offer good advice if you ask for it, and then find healthy ways to comfort yourself. I heard somewhere, and I sort of adopted it as my own policy, although it's definitely easier said than done to do it, and I'll admit that I'm not always successful, but I do try... and that is this... It takes too much energy to be angry all the time and most of the stuff you spend all that energy on being mad about won't even be bothering you in 5 years so don't let it bother you now. It's just not worth it. Besides, I'm a firm believer that you have to create your own happiness as much as possible. You can't just sit around waiting for it to randomly fall in your lap. So, a chocolate hill maybe instead of a mountain, a drink with a friend while you're talking about what's bugging you, or a bubble bath are all fine compromises. Hugs Kevin, Viv PS. You always can add me to that list of people when you want to talk

I got an email as well, and he sounds... good, happy and grateful given the circumstances.

Have I mentioned that I love Rich yet? I'm pretty sure I have He walked in from work yesterday to find me and my daughter in a VERY heated discussion about her homework. Basically she walked into where I was with her math book unopened and claimed she needed help. Okay fine, I can understand that, but what I can't accept is that I know she hasn't even tried to do it on her own yet I'm totally on board if you NEED help, but I want you to try first! Anyway he spent a lot of time explaining and helping her with her homework because he could see I was ticked off and disappointed Then we headed to Good Scouts. I actually even entertained the idea of leaving my daughter home since she still wasn't finished with her homework by then, but in the end we decided that she didn't have much left and could finish it when we got home. Now, the rules at Good Scouts are, that you have to have 2 female adults there at least, at all times. My co-leader has been flaking out on me lately I guess I understand that she is going through a rough time right now, but she doesn't even warn me ahead of time enough that I can cover my bases and she even sends her poor husband to be my second female adult Meanwhile, when I left for Good Scouts, Rich said he might make some dinner while I was gone... OMG! the guy made meatloaf! Also he made some three-cheesy mashed potatoes... he looked on the internet for some recipe ideas and decided on meatloaf and potatoes. Now as if it wasn't already soooooooooo great that he made dinner this is WHY it's so great and I love him, well a teeny, tiny bitty bit of why. He HATES!!!! onions... GASP, I know. But I love them. Normally when I cook I either omit them or make them so small and so well cooked he can't even tell they're in there, but he actually chopped them, made the meatloaf, and then ate it!!! Lots of ketchup of course, but still, just for me, and he was so proud of himself, it was too cute! Then, after I got the kids to bed... We headed to bed ourselves eventually, around 10:15 pm. He was getting undressed, whistle and woohoo!, and normally I would do the same, since we sleep in nothing but instead I just stood there and watched until he noticed I wasn't getting undressed and he asked me what I was doing... I said, "Waiting for you to come take my clothes off and make love to me all night." He looked alarmed, since 'all night' seemed like a long time to him. So after confirming that by asking me, "All night?" I said, "Well at least until morning..." So anyway we and can I just say wow and even more wow, and when it's all over with, I look over at the clock and it's midnight... I say to him after his (swoon and moan) performance, that he made it till morning before we both promptly pass out for the night. Then, he let me sleep in while he got the kids ready for school and took them! So I got off work early cause it's been slow after the holidays and I went to have lunch with him, just the two of us since both the kids were in school. We ended up having this big talk and he's told me to go to school... See, you know that saying, 'what do you want to be when you grow up?' Well, the answer for me has always been, I have no idea. I know that there are LOTS of things I would love to do, but they all take way more schooling than I actually have, plus to be perfectly honest, for me anyway, the saying goes, 'what do you want to be when your kids grow up?' since right now, it's most important to me to be a great mom to them, even if that means I end up putting my own wants aside for the short time they are kids. So he told me to go to school and get the job I really want Trouble is... what the hell is that? I love kids, helping people, listening, people watching, being in control and organized, creative, pushing people to confront things and pursue happiness instead of run and hide in fear of the unknown. So I've come up with a few options here that sound nice to me... A high school counselor, a kindergarten teacher, a marriage counselor, or I guess I could try being a writer Anyway, I know some of you knw me better than others, but I'm wondering what you guys think, or if you have any suggestions to throw into the pot. Anyway, besides that, I am the resident tour guide at work. We give tours of the store to classes of kids at the local elementary schools. Now, I knd of have a routine, a speech sort of I give when I do it, with the same jokes and stuff. Like when we walk inside the store, inevitably one or more of the kids says 'Hey, I've been here before!' and I joke back saying, "Me too!" and they all look at me like 'duh! you work here' and at some point I show them the HUGE refridgerators we keep the milk, etc. in and I ask them, "Have any of you ever sat inside your refridgerator?" and again, inevitably one kid always raises his hand and I say, "I knew you were trouble." I love doing it, it's so much fun! I gave a tour yesterday and I'm giving another one tomorrow. I saw Matt online the other day I didn't talk to him, but at least I know he's still alive and kicking! Hopefully writing some more amazing and awesome stuff for us to read I want to say a public thank you here and now to Joey for helping me since I am computer challenged, and that's putting it nicely... for being 'the man' and doing all of my html stuff! And now, I don't know if he reads these or not, but... to Comicality. He has taken a HUGE amount of time to read, review, and comment on my story... He has said some immensely constuctive and helpful things, and I think I told him that I couldn't think of anyone better to learn from, he is truly an awesome writer and a great man too! Between him and my sweetie this will hopefully turn out to be a great story! I guess I should clarify for all the confused :wacko: minds out there, since I already heard it once from my favorite Canadian... Rich is my super sweet, sexy hubby... Davey a.k.a. sweetie is my Scottish little brother and amazing friend, and Tony is my little brother, in case anyone was confused... Hugs and then some, Viv

So, I was wondering... I sorta do this thing where I can tell what's gonna happen in a stroy or movie way before it happens, down to the exact dialogue sometimes. It's funny , kinda weird I guess, but I sorta pride myself on it . That must be why I hate, HATE it when movies or stories have a bad ending. It's like I just wasted the last two hours watching it or reading just to get to some BAD ending, that I never saw coming Maybe I just hate being wrong like that ever happens... Anyway, I was wondering if you guys come up with an idea in your heads as you're reading something and if you are usually right or not. And.... if you aren't right, are you let down? Does it affect the amount of enjoyment you get out of a story when that happens?

OKAY! rknapp = soooooooooooo funny and clever! I love it!

Okay, so Rich and I chat while he is at work throughout the day... Rich: Hey sexy... Viv: blush! hi honey Rich: Coming to see me for lunch today? Viv: hmmmmmmm, i could... or you could come home... Rich: I could... or you could come see me:-) Viv: are you asking me out? i'm a married woman! Rich: if thats what it takes Dont look at it as a date, just two adults getting together to do whatever it is two consenting adults do Viv: hmmmm! I bet you say that to all the consenting adults! Rich: and the unconsenting ones too Viv: gasp! i must have done something right last night since you're so... in a mood, wink wink! Rich: your white satin panties have the affect on me:-D Viv: LOL, I know! why do you think i like wearing them... Rich: to tease me and make me do things i might not normally do Viv: NO! to motivate you are you saying i have super panties? Rich: You need a pair with a big "S" on them Viv: for selfish? Rich: for super Viv: super selfish... in fact soooooooo selfish that i would wish bad things on people just so they will ask me for help or advice so i can feel good? >:-/ Rich: I never said that...out loud...did I?! Viv: sigh, sadly YES! you did, and i even understood most of it even with that HUGE foot in there too Rich: Once again, the power of the panties has clouded my mind. Viv: well, maybe i better lock them away somewhere if they do that much damage... they could create a national disaster! Rich: Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! So what do you say to lunch with a cute guy who cant resist your "super panties" Viv: How do you spell... moan! swoon? you had me at sexy i guess i better go get ready then and you should sit there a minute so you can get up and go finish working Rich: hehe, good thing i have my long jacket on Viv: LONG is right Rich: :-D Viv: okay, i'm gonna go take a shower babe... and find some other super panties! purple today? Rich: Purple is nice Viv: okay... i'll talk to you soon then... i'm off to get all wet and naked Rich: no fair! Viv: it's a tough job, but someone has to wear the super panties! Rich: and someone has to pull them off and throw them on the floor too:-) Viv: you're hired! ________________________________________________________________________________ Anyway I'm off to go get all wet and naked and then to have lunch with a cute boy that makes me Hugs, Viv

HEY! It's the best conversation I've had all day

OMG!! Kevin! LMAO!! I have some like that too! Maybe I'll even blog about them... I love the car one with your mom, absolutely my favorite! Hugs, Viv

Okay, well I posted chapter 9 last night. I hope you're all enjoying it That was my penis envy chapter... but I'm sorta really proud of it, and I have received some... excited reviews so I guess it was what I wanted it to be. As for the next chapter it will probably be another week still, and I'm apologizing in advance, NOW, for the way that it ends... but, Davey made me do it! The few people I have shared ahead with have said that we can't stop right there... and it's a good thing that you live far away sweetie :2hands: but don't worry, I'm pretty sure they know not to mess with my little bro I'm off today and I'm staying in my jammies all day and doing nothing! Well, at least I'm gonna try So, I signed up for the 5K Susan Komen Race for the Cure Run/Walk at the end of February through work. They want at least 10 people from each store to support it and it's a great cause and I like to walk so... yay! Rich is being... sigh. We have a lot of complicated crap that goes on in our household and not a lot of options for improving it that are very easy. I guess anything worthwhile isn't easy, but that doesn't mean it doesn't suck. Besides that, the other day, my son who is 4 was eating lunch. A turkey sandwich, and our dog, Ocean, cause she is a husky and has blue eyes... was taking quite an interest in his sandwich. So I told him he better hurry up and eat his sandwich before Ocean does and he said, "Bulls**t!" So I try not to react too much because then he will just keep saying it to get a reaction out of me, but I do say, "No, mommy said Ocean." "Bulls**t!" he says again... "That's not what I said," I tell him. "Bulls**t!" I'm trying soooooooo hard not to laugh now, cause it really is funny... "I don't want you to say that anymore okay," I tell him. Rich changes the subject and he forgets his new word... for now. An old lady came through my line at work and told me that they only name great ladies Vivian The halo is mine again, Ben!! I try anyway, but I'm not promising anything... and I'm not denying that I have my moments... but I really do try. The camp I'm taking my girls to in the middle of February had snow this past weekend... Brrrrr! You guys KNOW I'm ALWAYS cold! Crap!! Oh well, I guess I can freeze my ass off for one weekend for the good of the cause... Eric is officially lost! I'm sure he's just busy with starting a new school term, etc... but I miss him anyway... Hugs! Matt is MIA too, but I know he has stuff going on so... I hope he knows I'm thinking about him... Yup, Viv

sooooooooooo, SO ready!... I can tie a tie or a bowtie, Is it cocky when you really ARE that good? ...cause, you my friend... ARE!!! Super specially like too! Hugs... pick me up at 8... Viv

Can I just say Happy Birthday?? Happy 18th!

Happy Birthday Guy!! I hope you can find some time to celebrate and smile even with all the stuff you have going on... Everyone deserves to smile on their birthday... Hugs! Viv

Who you callin' Mother Okay, guilty as charged, I am a mother!