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Okay so I guess since I started this all... Viv, you are 33% gay. You are a straight-laced girlie girl with just a hint of your butch side sometimes popping out! Well, like Ben said... I'm a good gay!

I worked till 10pm last night and then just before I was about to go home a co worker called and said her mom had died and she wouldn't be in for a week so I volunteered to cover her shift this morning that started at 6am... The upside is I get overtime, the downside is I'm tired and that on top of my mood which I can't explain, is making me... :wacko: My daughter is going to stay with a family friend in Arizona for 10 days before we join her, pick her up and head to Rich's grandpa's funeral, and since we're there we will visit some family and friends we have there. It's kinda cool cause we have year round school here so she is about to go on her break anyway, for the whole month of April, so she would have been bored out of her mind anyway... but she hasn't ever been away from us for more than two nights and it's not like she's just up the road... she's like a whole state away! But, I think she'll be fine, and it'll be good for her... The upside is I don't have to listen to my son and her argue for 10 days, the downside is I'll miss her, she's my baby after all! I really am trying to get the next chapter finished but... it's hard to write erotic sex, meaning something WAY hot to read, with Tony sitting next to me looking over my shoulder I forgot to say in my last blog... Happy Mothers' Day to my sweetie's mum! I LOVE Davey's mum! A seriously amazing human being!! SO many hugs for my sweetie and his family My really good friend at work is getting divorced after 8 years and 3 kids Another guy I work with... his wife cheated on him after about the same amount of time and 3 kids also! I swear... I CANNOT understand what it is withpeople who cannot control their parts... and themselves and be honorable and trustworthy and loyal to the commitments they make and the families they create. I'm not saying that if they are seriously unhappy and miserable that they shouldn't move on and make themselves happy, but you can do that without cheating! Okay, deep breaths! I'm looking for another song I heard on the radio and I can't find it but as soon as Tony stops irritating the hell out of me, I might ask him to help me find it... you know since he is 16.6666666666% smarter than me and won't let me forget it either! Hugs everyone, Viv PS. He found it! It's called get to me by Train

Well, I got a great surprise the other day I had gotten off work and hour early so I got home an hour early and I had an hour to kill before I needed to pick up my daughter from school, and I saw that Davey was online so I figured I would call and surprise him So I pick up the phone and dial and it rings and rings and no answer so I dial again and same thing, his voice mail picks up, but I know he's home cause he is online so I message him and say... you don't answer your phone or what sweetie? and he says... OH! sorry, I had headphones on call again! So I do, and we are talking for a few minutes when I see this car pull up and park on my front lawn So I tell him... Umm, someone just parked on my front yard! I see two people briefly as they get out of the car and I don't really recognize them but they are walking up to my front door so I go and open it and... it's Bette! Surprise visit from Arizona! So I hug her lots and giggle! Then I tell Davey I better go and talk to Bette since she dropped in from a whole different state, but before he lets me hang up, he asks me who it is... it was like he wanted to know that I would be safe or something Too sweet! Like he's gonna say... hang on sweetie I'll be there in 15 hours to save you but I love him for it! And now I still owe him a phone call. Rich made me a web page for FBTE that I think Myr is gonna put in the shared hosting section and it's SO awesome! Umm, Kevin a.k.a. A Friendly Face, I can't find the How Gay Are You Quiz on the forums anymore but I'm pretty sure this is the test... http://www.channel4.com/life/microsites/G/.../gayometer.html The next chapter is almost done so hopefully it'll be up soon for you all. I was talking to this friend the other night, and I told them that I think I might be more excited about my new story for the spring anthology than I am about FBTE and that seemed to surprise him considering I have only written 4 pages of the new one as opposed to the... wait doing math here umm, 17 chapters times 12 pages each... 204 pages I have written of FBTE. Okay I'll admit it!!!! Geez! I did use a calculator! Okay so, I am currently hugging SO many of you... and I LOVE to hug, but yikes! Can we start hugging in celebration of good things instead? Worried about a BUNCH of you just now! I really hope that you all get what you want, and if not... I'll hug you more! Super extra thanks and hugs to Michael for being an amazing human being! Seriously there aren't many out there like him... and to a few pals who have made me SO proud! Also I think Dr. Mike deserves a HUGE thanks too for helping me and a few others help one special guy smile just a little Hugs, Viv PS. Bette wants to take my 10 year old pre pubescent, over emotional, drama queen daughter for 2 weeks... hmmmm, tough choice there

Okay, this is worse than that 'How Gay Are You?' quiz we had a while back... But... like the boys tell me... I'm a good gay Yay me! Besides, I think most people, gay or straight can agree with these... like for example, numbers 16 and 23

Well, I have the privelage of living where Ryan Seacrest is on the radio every morning and while he definitely is a self admitted metro sexual... I dunno... I think it's more like he says what everyone else wants to say but is too afraid to... and besides, he is funny and sweet and working his way to the top... as they say, he already has a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame if I recall correctly Maybe he's just secure with himself and likes to moisturize and sees the need for exfloiating! I mean come on, that's gotta be acceptable!

So, last weekend while I was sitting outside the grocery store for SIX hours selling cookies... I picked up a magazine to read... They had this article in it that allowed three couples of different levels of commitment and length of time answer this questionaire... I thought it would be fun so I made Rich do it with me He's answering his portion right now and keeps telling me not to peek, giggle! I think the man needs a voting booth and a curtain the way he is hiding his answers Anyway, I think it would be neat to see other people's answers if you feel like sharing Our Answers Okay, enjoy... I just said, "Wanna know a secret? I have on the white satin panties!" Hugs, Viv PS. Thanks honey!

First off, I started my entry for the spring anthology and I'm super excited already! The only down side is... I don't want FBTE to get left behind. I'm going to try my very hardest to get them both worked on... Have no fear! So I was chatty with Rich today while he was at work... Rich: whats fer lunch? Viv: whatchya wantin'? Rich: something warm Rich: or maybe even... Rich: hot Viv: awwwwwww, you say the sweetest things honey Rich: thats me, mr say the sweetest things Viv: so sweet thang sayer Viv: what do you want? Rich: i dont know...what do we got? Viv: we got... to meet somewhere i think Rich: wanna come get me then? Viv: sure thing love Viv: when will you be ready for me to pick you up? Rich: you can pick me up any time Viv: beautiful dawn, lights up the shore for me, there's nothing else in the world i'd rather wake up and see Rich: ? Rich: whos dawn? Viv: Rich: beautiful vivian, lights up the shore for me, there's nothing else in the world i'd rather wake up and see Rich: much better Viv: okay earning your title then? Rich: i wear it proudly Viv: will you be my shoulder when i'm gray and older? promise me tomorrow starts with you Rich: tomorrow starts with "t" Rich: unless of course you wake up to youmorrow Viv: oooh, there's choices?!! Rich: i guess so Rich: depends on who's dictionary you are using Thanks to James Blunt and his songs and to Davey for giving me the whole album Tony was chatty with me and showed me this... it's pretty cool +88_______ROCK_ON!!!____________ _+880_____________________________ _++88_____________________________ _++88_____________________________ __+880_________________________++_ __+888________________________+88_ __++880______________________+88__ __++888_____+++88__________+++8__ __++8888__+++8880++88____+++88___ __+++8888+++8880++8888__++888____ ___++888++8888+++888888++888_____ ___++88++8888++8888888++888______ ___++++++888888888888888888______ ____++++++88888888888888888______ ____++++++++000888888888888______ _____+++++++000088888888888______ ______+++++++00088888888888______ _______+++++++088888888888_______ _______+++++++088888888888_______ ________+++++++8888888888________ ________+++++++0088888888________ Hugs, Viv PS. Darlin' get well like... RIGHT NOW!

woo hoo! who's the hottie? Oh wait!~ It's you Hugs, Viv

Ronnie! You know where I'm at if you want to talk okay... Hugs, Viv

Okay so right now Rich is out getting me some MUCH needed food and I want to blog about SO much stuff and I just know I'll forget it all by the time he gets back and I finish eating and I can't possibly type it all now cause I type so freakin slow! So... I'm going to make a list of stuff I want to blog about so I can come back and do it later Is that cheating?? Oh well! It's my blog and I can do what I want to! Giggle. 1. Brokeback Mountain 2. IQ test 3. Premenstrual food 4. Backrubs and lost pages 5. Annemarie's room move 6. DD inspired male behavior questions 7. MORE shamrocks! Okay... Hours later... I am now ready to tackle the list. 1. So Rich and I watched Brokeback Mountain last night. I was left frustrated by the whole story and I certainly cannot understand what all the hype and drama was about. To me, it was a sad situation and the struggle they endured, partly because of the times and partly the inner struggle of Ennis, made it that much worse. Rich had heard on the radio that the first love scene was about 20 minutes into the movie and when it came on we were both really disturbed by it. Not because it was two men, but because it was... brutal almost. Like, had the same scene taken place with a man and a woman, I would almost constitute it as rape. I just felt like the struggle Ennis dealt with about accepting himself and his own feelings left me frustrated. I watched every little sign in the movie, every chance he had to tell someone, anyone he loved them, and it never happened. 2. Tony messaged me yesterday and told me he took this IQ test and got a 140! Damn! So I went and took it, and Davey did too, and we both got a 120... apparently he was shocked by this, but mostly cause we are so much alike and it just keeps adding up with little things like this. So here is where you can go take the same test... http://web.tickle.com/tests/uiq/authorize/...uiq%2Findex.jsp and here are what my results said... I am an Intuitive Investigator. Your IQ score is 120. This means that you are smarter than 91.0% of all other Super IQ test takers. You've got a sharp, logical mind and you are multi-talented. There seems to be nothing that your mind can't process and understand. You're able to detect numerical patterns easily, and grasp the true complexity of the world, both in its details and in the abstract. Even in particularly challenging situations, you are more than capable of using a variety of words to explain yourself. The combination of all these things makes you simply "brilliant." Your mind is so active that you might sometimes forget about your physical environment, or feel a little clumsy with your body (since the mind which governs your body is so busy thinking.) But even this is not likely to pose a significant problem for you. 3. So it's about that time for me.. necessary info for you all I know... but when this time comes every month... I get soooooooooo hungry and no matter what I eat or even if I eat so much I feel sick I still feel hungry and I get crazy cravings for things I don't normally even want to eat. :wacko: Anyway, the point of this all is... last night Rich took me out to dinner and we were trying to decide where to go and he suggested this place I have never been to and is known for serving great hot dogs... which are definitely NOT my favorite food so I was... hesitant but I gave in because like I said... and OMG! I had a chicken noodle soup, half a chili cheeseburger and some cheese fries and a coke and we shared a piece of chocolate cake. Normally not things I would eat, except the soup, cause I LOVE soup! and way more than I normally would ever eat, but it was sooooooooooo good and I made him go back and get me the same thing, minus the soup surprisingly, for lunch today, Well, actually, I guess it was really breakfast since it was my first meal of the day, even if it was at 1 pm. 4. So I always get up early, I am one of those crazy morning people... I guess it comes with the Mom title... So I was up at 8 am, which is actually sleeping in for me, but that's okay since it's my day off and I was writing some and talked to Davey a bit and Natey. Anyway somehow I managed to make a dumb mistake TWICE!! and lose a whole page of my story I had just written and then Rich woke up and came in complaining that his back was hurting and he NEEDED me to rub it So I went to rub his back for a while... the only problem is... I was a cake decorator for a while and now... my hands really hurt when I have to do anything that involves pressure for any long term amount of time and I'm pretty sure I have Carpal Tunnel. Anyway... I rubbed, with yummy smelling sweet almond lotion and then he said this to me... I think we should have sex. I said, 'You do?' And he said, 'Yeah, it'll be good.' And I said, 'It's always good.' And we sent the kids off to play for an hour 5. We are almost done moving my daughter into her own room... finally! We did a lot of it a few weeks ago, like the bed, dresser, clothes. Today we did the bookshelf and the entertainment center and the toy box. Now she just has a few odds and ends to move and things to hang on the wall. 6. So, normally, I have this guy Davey I ask all sorts of boy questions to, especially gay sex ones cause... well let's face facts here, I am neither a guy nor am I gay so... and he is always so sweet and so helpful and never ever embarrased or offended. But this one I have now... well I would like to know what all of you have to say. It's just something that popped into my head reading DD and made me wonder what guys feel in this situation. I know for girls, it's a HUGE deal... losing your virginity. It's something you envision a certain way, and it's a big deal when it finally happens. So the question I have is this... In DD it seemed to me that Rory and Seth, when they had sex for the first time, Rory's first time specifically, he wasn't hardly at all terrified nor did he struggle much with making the decision of whom to give his virginity to. What's important to you when you give it up, like what requirements do you have, if any, and did you have a scenario that you envisioned before it happened? If so, how did it compare to your imagination and was it with the same person you imagined it would be? 7. Welcome to CA... Timmy and Aaron, Robbee, Matt, Dom, Mikie, and Com... Wow that was long I know... I guess I had lots to say today... and thank golly I made a list or I know I would have forgotten a lot of it! Hugs to drunk, chocolate biscuit/muffin eating Davey and to Bard who's been cleaning all day :wacko: Vivian P.S. I hope the plan is working Eric!

So I'll warn you up front that this is going to be a HUGE random dump of info... So I decided I would print out DD 36 to read it, instead of sit here at the computer like I usually do to read it. Rich wanted to play some new game so... anyway I copied and pasted it into word and... Holy S**t! It was 64 pages long! But after refilling the paper twice AND changing the ink cartridge once... I had 64 pages of the most awesome story to read... and then... I stayed up till almost 1 a.m. reading it... but it was so worth it! Thanks Dom... SO, so much! So at work we are doing this fundraiser for the MDA and Jerry's kids. We sell these shamrocks for a dollar and the customer who donates the dollar writes their name on it and we hang them all over the store. Our store has a goal of selling 3000 shamrocks, in effect raising $3000 dollars for these kids with muscular dystrophy. So they posted a note by the timeclock that said we are close to meeting our goal and any employee who donated $5 could wear jeans to work for 3 days or if you donated $10 you could for a week. So I donated $10 and got 10 shamrocks to write names on So I bought 11 in total and I wrote one for my son, one for my daughter, one that says Rich & Viv, Davey & Chris, Ben & Seb, Kevin, Natey, Joey, Ronnie, Jon, and Eric! So... Welcome to CA guys! I have been writing some more and hopefully the next chapter will be out by Monday... I might have to take a short break though so I can write my entry for the spring anthology... yikes! Whatever, at least I'll be writing something So, I tend to hear a song and then go absolutely crazy and listen to it over and over again for liek a whole week till I discover the next one. Right now it's Be Without You by Mary J. Blige, which super slueth Bard found for me Rich is making dinner tonight AGAIN! He's funny. He has gotten all into the Food Network and watches all these cooking shows and then wants to try all this stuff... the funny part is, he is so picky when it comes to food... and apparently pants but anyway... yay! I got my daughter's school pictures and... WOW! She is sooooooooooo pretty she is gonna be a heartbreaker once she realizes how pretty she really is, but right now she is stuck in that awkward... I'm taller than all the boys and most girls and I'm growing things in places I never did before, and as much of a change as that is it's not enough cause she's not big enough to wear 'women's stuff yet... thank God! and all the drama of elementary school is still holding her back from really being herself' stage... I have this friend who has endometriosis and she and her hubby have one son who was born with a heart defect and has already had one surgery and is about to have a second, then she miscarried a baby at 8 months and actually had to give birth to this baby and then bury it and then I think... she miscarried again once but very early on, and now... she tells me she is pregnant AGAIN! Plus, she already has two other kids from a previous marriage... I just don't understand. It's like something about the combination of her and her husband that can't produce a healthy child and I KNOW what she went through and still is trying to get over after losing the other baby... why would she let herself get pregnant again? Totally overlooking the fact that she could DIE giving birth again leaving 3 or possibly 4 children motherless.... sigh! So, I better post this since Ben is waiting patiently to see what I wrote about him and Seb Hugs Everyone, Vivian

Here's a label for you.... Kevin... Nuff said! OR... Kevin, the guy who can think for himself, who can be accepting of himself and others always, so long as no one is getting hurt, who is intelligent and a multi layered person, someone who thinks things through and then... applies the things he's learned from self analyzing to EVERYONE else becausee he has enough courage and has his ego in control enough to realize that he is just like everyone else out there, regardless of race, age, sex, sexuality, job, etc... PS. So yay!

I already typed this once :wacko: and just as I was about to post it my son pressed some magical button on my mouse and it disappeared so here is try number two! Grrrrr... Okay so we just finished eating dinner and apparently my daughter seems to think that they only kill poor old chickens to make chicken nuggets and that's only so they won't have to suffer My son has been watching Dora the Explorer lately and has been quizzing us on stuff he learned while watching, For example, he'll ask us... Does an armadillo have wings or a hard shell? or... Does an anaconda live in river or a snowy mountain? Once he got bored of those questions he started substituting them for others. Like this morning while getting dressed he asked me... Do my pants go on my arms or on my legs? So tonight during dinner he was asking me how to spell moo so I said M-O-O. Then he asked how to spell bark and I thought I would tease him a little so I said R-U-F-F and he said NO!!!!! It's W-O-O-F! Then he asked me how to spell 'the sound an elephant makes' :wacko: I'm gonna go with Pfffffffffft! So I was chatting to Ben earlier and I was telling him how I was so pissed because that crappy kid in my daughter's class at school called another boy a 'faggot' She didn't know what the word meant and I was mad because now she has learned a hate word because of this crappy kid and his crappy parents. But as I talked to Ben I realized that I had the opportunity to teach her that it's a word people use because they are afraid and confused because they think it's wrong to be gay, which it's not. To which she replied, "I know!" That's my girl!! I am almost finished with the next chapter. I know I have been saying this for like... a whole day now but... in my defense Dom posted DD35 and I HAD to drop everything and Rich got pulled over on his way to work yesterday... Anyway, because he has long hair the cops asked him to 'please step out of the vehicle' so then when he is standing there with the cops the one guy asks him why his car is full of Girl Scout cookies and he said... "Because my wife is a Girl Scout leader!" Whatever... he so needs a hair cut! and I'm not just saying that cause his hair is soooooooooooo much prettier than mine either. This isn't the first time it has happened either! But he seems to think that it's okay because once they find out their assumption if him is wrong and let him go it's all fine. I disagree! Hugs to everyone who has been waiting so patiently And an extra hug for Natey, who's sick... and also for Bard and for Eric who is FREAKIN amazing, and for my sweetie and my darlin just cause I can.

The BIG 18 Happy Birthaday Sum! Hugs!

Well, I was there too and it was all kinds of awesome! A really great bunch of guys there! Thanks for the warm welcome...

Okay I'm warning you know this is gonna be a little long, but stay with me it'll be sooooooooo worth it Okay first... I think I told some of you about this but it just got sooooooooooo much better So I bought Rich some jeans for Christmas cause the pairs he has now all have these holes where the back pocket attaches to the rest of the jeans, probably from putting his wallet in and out of it. Anyway, I knew he needed more jeans and he is so easy to shop for because he is really... boring. He always wears exactly the same shoes, jeans, brand of t-shirts, etc. He is soooooooooo hopelessly straight. Anyway so I went to buy him pants at Christmas but after I was in four different stores and couldn't find the kind he likes in his size I ended up getting this other type that look exactly the same as what he always wears, like I actually held one pair up in fornt of the other and they are REALLY the same except the pair I bought seems to have a smaller thigh area by a half an inch... SO he humors me by trying them on and they look great! Like you can actually see he has an ass, and they aren't so baggy, not that they ever were TOO baggy, but his shape is much more apparent. So he swears he hates them and he returned them and then he can't find the kind he normally wears and when he finally puts his man issues aside and asks the girl working there if they have more she tells him they are being discontinued So when I try and convince him... again... that the ones I bought him are seriously almost the exact same thing he like freaks out and says, "I can't do this right now... we have to go!" So then he stopped on the way home and bought a dozen Krispy Kreme donuts... UGH! :nuke: So yesterday we go back to The Block to try and find some jeans for him. I figure with so many choices there he can find something but... I mean seriously... there is American Eagle, Hollister, Ron Jon's. Tilly's, Anchor Blue, Pacific Sunwear, Old Navy, and more.... Well straight, boring guy with no fashion sense won't even go into American Eagle or Hollister, refused to look past seeing the Old Navy label on the jeans, Ron Jon's and Tilly's were like $75 to $100 a pair and he was like 'hell no!', so we ended up back in Anchor Blue... nothing. I'm beginning to wonder if he will ever buy anything while stifling ALL my normal inclinations to just take over and MAKE him buy some freakin jeans! So we end up at ANOTHER :wacko: Anchor Blue and again... big shock and surprise, they don't have the style he likes in his size... since they have been DISCONTINUED! Anyway, by this time, I may kill him if he doesn't just buyu some beep beep jeans NOW! So I make him try on two pairs... the kind he does like in the wrong color and the same freakin pair I bought him that he returned a week earlier... and they really do look almost identical, except I still say the pair I bought looks better on him. So he ends up buying the pair he likes in the color he hates while I ask the sales girl if they can order us some or call ANOTHER store... so the girl calls another store and they say they have 2 pairs that are one size too long bt Rich says he can deal with that so we go there to get them. SO when we get to the other store... and if you've lost count by now, this is number seven today... the kids and I wait in the car while he just runs in to get the jeans. When he comes out he gets in the car and practically throws the bag on my lap, so I say, "All done then?" Guess what he bought... just guess... The same freaking pair I bought him at Christmas and he tried on at the last store... SO hard not to gloat... Girl Scout cookies have taken over my house again :wacko: My daughter had to write a report about herself. It had to be 8 pages long, each page about one topic, like Art, Sports, Music, and Me or My Family and Me, and I had to write one page about her also. so here are some of the things she wrote My mom is hard working, loving, caring, smart, but very funny. Most of the time she is on the computer though. My dad is funny, weird, cool, and very helpful. I was playing mash with him and he was marrying my dog Ocean, his job is a dog food tester, and he was laughing so hard. My brother is very annoying, rude. A long time ago he hit me in the wind pipe. I just have to say one thing he loves pigs. Everyone in my family is loving, caring, smart, and is helpful. I guess we are the six pillars of character. The people I mostly admire are my parents. That

So YAY! Happy 20th Birthday Will!!

I have a lump! Right on the top of my head and it hurts! A LOT! I was trying to climb into Rich's beep beep car in the dark and I hit my head. SO owwwwwwwwwww! Then... he tried to say that it was the car's way of getting back at me for talking badly about it :wacko: Whatever... all I know is it hurts. Then, THEN, he offers to whack the lump back in with a hammer....but I pointed out to him that in cartoons when they do that, the lump just pops out in another place. That I do not need. My friend Marie at work told me this story Apparently Marie and her boyfriend were out to dinner a few days after Valentine's Day since they hadn't yet been out, although they had exchanged gifts already. The boyfriend had a gift bag with him though, but she thought... COOL, more presents! So after they eat, he gives her the gift. She opens it and it's a pillow. So she says, 'Thanks baby... it's a... pillow'. The boyfriend says that he bought it at her favorite store and that he had to get it cause it reminded him of her. She says, 'Oh! How sweet!' Boyfriend puts the pillow down on the ground right before he gets down on one knee and proposes!!!! SO YAY! Too sweet! Also! I'm not a big Cosmo reader, but I'll admit right here and now that I did buy last months issue because it said 'What he feels during sex' on the cover. I thought... awesome, research! Hehehehe! It was actually quite informative and accurate since I made Rich listen while I read it and I got to watch his reactions... and blushing cheeks! The bonus to the whole Cosmo purchase... Firstly there was a second cover that I didn't see till I got home that said it was a topless men issue and every man in the magazine was indeed topless and... it said that I'm not always cold cause I'm short like Rich tried to tell me but instead it's because I am a girl Apparently, according to Cosmo magazine, men are typically warmer than women because they tend to have more heat generating muscle mass. Hah! Race for the Cure is on Sunday and I'll be wearing my awful kiwi green t-shirt as a part of Team Albertsons... well, at least it's for a good cause! Hugs... Vivian

I agree, I mean I love Com and his stories, the way he writes, but to me, usually the details make the story and I thought that would be almost impossible to do in a few short paragraphs... but now it's funny cause I wait for Wednesdays to come cause I NEED to know if Billy has gotten the guts to kiss Brandon yet! I want them together soooooooooooooo bad! Hehehehe! And somehow, Com is able to capture the innocence and the anxiety of new love and crushes that change as quickly as they do when you're 14 or 15 years old. I love Billy Chase! and Com

hmmmmm! It worked for me Green and Chaz sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G! and then some Jealous isn't the right word... at least not to me. Jealous is when you want something someone else has... but Julio doesn't have anything... you do! I think lucky is the word for you... lucky to have found someone to fall in love with and even luckier that he loves you back, and even still luckier that he is trustworthy and you are secure in the fact that he loves you If we were keeping score here... which we're not but if.... Chaz Green Love Love in return Trust Julio A great friend... Sounds to me like you have nothing to worry about!

Well, it's totally normal to be protective of something that you care so much about... especially when you probably still feel like you almost just lost it... or were going to lose it due to his health issues. I'm glad that you are confident enough to know that he'll never leave you and if you trust him then... a little bit of worry somewhere in the back of your mind is fine, as long as you don't let it cause you to do anything... stupid or act like an ass, which you would never do to the guy you love so... I'd say you are well within your rights as the boyfriend to be a teeny, tiny but worried, but when he gets home... totally trusting, nonjudgmental, loves Green soooooooooo much Chaz is what you should be... Besides... at the end of the night, it's your arms he'll be in so smile! Hugs, Viv... PS. Welcome to the blogs... and he can add you as someone who can post in his blog by going into his blog settings and under Editors add your GA name...

The rumors are all true... I have arrived safely back home... where it's WARM It snowed all weekend! :wacko: Damn! It was so cold, and I'm already always cold... 4 hour bus ride Friday night in the rain and snow with a bunch of kids and it was dark so they couldn't even read, although many of them did fall asleep! We finally arrive and get off the bus and unload all the gear and bags. We have a quick meeting and then walk up to where we were supposed to be sleeping. Every girl has to carry their own bags... that was fun in the dark and snow The awesome part of this story is that like 20 years ago when I was a Girl Scout and we went to this same camp we stayed in the same place and it snowed too! Apparently there has only ever been snow there when girls are camping twice in 20 years so she kept saying how lucky we were... apparently I'm twice as lucky cause I was there for both Anyway, we had breakfast and then we went on a hike in the snow, visited the museum there, hiked some more, the girls got to learn archery... in the snow... and then I gave them the choice to go back to the nice warm cozy cabin, cause by now they were whining about how cold they were... or go canoeing like we were scheduled to do, and they picked canoeing! So proud! I'm so glad they didn't wimp out on me! After lunch, I had one girl who looked SICK! So I took her to the health center and she had a temp of 102 degrees So, I spent the next 3 hours in the warm cozy health center waiting for her parents to come pick her up... I used my time wisely reading The Five People You Meet In Heaven... So good! I finished it on the bus ride home... All I can say is... read it! Anyway... campfire, singing songs, etc. More snow, but an entirely fun, frosty weekend! Thanks for worrying about me I am feeling the love! Okay, so I'm gonna actually try and work on the next chapter now that I have caught up on all I missed this weekend. So awesome that my sweetie and my darlin finally had their big V day celebration And 2 of my other guys sorta... had a great Saturday night! SO YAY! Get Well Bard! You being sick... sucks ass! Vivian

Apologies for my belated response... but I was in the snow! ALL weekend! Brrrrrrr! Well, I am absolutely LOVING writing and the responses I get from the readers is awesome. I've heard things like 'what a great story' to 'I NEED more now!' and people saying that they can relate or have experienced similiar things in their own lives. Whatever the reason they're enjoying it or reading it, doesn't really matter, as long as in the end it helped them in some way, by either bringing a smile to their face or letting them feel again, or just for entertainment. There are a lot of great authors popping up all over the place and I know, I for one was definitely nurtured and motivated by another author so, I really try to do the same! There is so much support and communication here and that makes it even better because we can talk to each other, support each other. Thanks for the warm welcome, and kind words I have received... even if I am a girl Hugs, Viv

Today I need to be quick... not eloquent I posted the next chapter, chapter 12... WOW I can't believe it, as promised for you to all hopefully enjoy while I am freezing my ass off on some mountain all weekend! :wacko: I hope Rich doesn't kill my sister while I'm gone... but at least Tony will be home to wear the referee shirt for the weekend. I got my hair done today and it looks sooooooooooooooo awesome! I know it's funny, and I only go about once a year, but I swear I still can't get over all the little old ladies that go to this salon every week and get their hair done and gossip and live vicariously... too funny! Rich said I get to be the one with the great hair now, but only after I begged and pleaded that it was my turn. I told him he could have the great boobs for a while! Just in case, which shouldn't be necesary, after all I am trained for these situations, hehehehe, please come find me if I fall off the mountain. I plan to stay firmly on the ground, but who knows what can happen when you send me up there with 75 other girls and women FINALLY got to talk to a long lost pal... so I'm smiling. I should be back Sunday afternoon guys... Think WARM thoughts... please Hugs, Viv PS. Hugs for Eric if he's reading this!

Hehehehe, we're the same age for... the next four months! Hoping you have one helluva birthday and a GREAT weekend Hugs, Viv