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I think you should make sure that she understands that you don't want your grandparents to find out. You have to stress that point to her first, and make sure she understands why. This is a pretty big secret to share with someone, even someone that's close to you. So use your best judgement (obviously) and do what you think is best. If you don't think she'll keep it a secret, or you think your Aunt is gonna run back to your grandparents with it, think twice.

Congratulations!!!!!

I tried to access the link you gave me and it says that IE cannot display the page. I don't know if that means the site's down or if it means I have a problem on my end. Thanks for the link, though, and I'll take care. You take care too

One of the sites I post stories at, storywrite.com, is full of a lot of different authors...not just gay or straight. There's seperate story and poetry sites there, too, and I really enjoy posting there. One of the features of the site that drew me in was the story contests that people can put on. The prizes are points, and after you've built up a certain amount of points, you can have your own contest. I won Silver in one of them and grabbed honorable mention in another. So I figured I'd enter a third contest. Well, I submitted A Family's Sorrow and was shocked that the contest was decided before my story was ever viewed by a judge. So I entered a different story in a different contest that the same person was holding, and this time they commented that they hated the story and that further more, "gay erotica" wasn't allowed as stated in the rules. I sent a private message to this person and told them that neither of the stories I added had "gay erotica" in them, and she messaged me back that she couldn't relate to any gay themed story, and that she meant no homosexuality period. At that point my blood was boiling, so I sent her a reply withdrawing my story and apologizing to her for disturbing her with "my sickness". So anyway she messages me back to say that one of her best friends is gay, and that she isn't a homophobe. I ignore her message because reading that load of crap made me sick to my stomach. She's either lying or a horrible friend because she said herself that she couldn't relate to homosexual themes. How in the hell is she able to have a real friendship with a gay or lesbian individual if she can't stomach reading a story? So that was a few days ago. Today she messages me to say that she loved my story and that she could totally relate to the main character. She went on to add, "Being gay must be so hard." Please excuse me while I puke my cheese grits and collard greens up. So anyway, I want to ignore her and just move on, but it's obvious that she's trying to prove to me that she's not a homophobe. Here's my question::: Should I re-submit my story into her contest? Should I just ignore her altogether? Should I message her back and tell her what I phoney I think she is? Or should I message her and ask her to refrain from messaging me at all? ________________________________________________________________________________ Well, I'm trying to keep my mind off of something disturbing that I read on another blog tonight. I just really hope that I'm wrong about what I think they were saying, but I think Sharon was right to reply the way she did. To the person who wrote what they did, if you're reading this, please stop and think about the harm you'll be doing to everyone in your life, especially your son. He doesn't deserve that. So if it's not too late, please don't do it and please, talk to someone. Anyone. Kisses Nick

Kisses Nick

Ok, it's not gone, but it's different now....very different. So what in the hell am I talking about?? Well, there used to be a site called Pufta ( I don't want to post the URL because now it has porn on it) based out of the UK, and it was one of my faves. You could find all sorts of dieting, beauty and fashion tips there. It was basically a place for gay guys to go and get good advice. I was following the Positive Adam series too....that was an online journal of a guy named Adam who was HIV positive. It was really good, and I'm sorry that the site has obviously changed for the worse. So anyway, now I want to find something similar, but when I do a Google Search, all I get is a bunch of crappy sites about being promiscuous about either how fun it is to be a gay whore, or how evil the gay lifestyle is. If anyone knows what site I'm talking about (the Pufta UK site) and either knows if it's moved or if theres a site just like it I can find, I'd be greatful to you for a long long time

Wow dude, you went waaayyyy back in the day for this one :2hands: :2hands: :2hands:

Ok, so I think I have this all figured out..... I work hard to keep a high GPA and I work ten hours a week. The lowest grade I've ever gotten was a B in conversational Spanish, and I practically got my ass kicked for that. On the other side, my cousin was a straight c student, and just barely. He regularly lied to my dad about his homework, his tests and his attendance. He's twenty years old now and the only time he's ever worked was last summer when my dad took both of us to work with him. When he came to work, though, he spent all of his time in the IT department "checking things out" while I worked my butt off in a stinky case room pulling milk crates off of trucks and handling spoiled milk. I love my cousin a lot. I know he hasn't had it easy, and to be honest, I'll never know everything his mom and dad did to him before he came to live with us way back in the day. I know that they beat him and that they abandoned him in some weird city that he'd never been to before. If there was a way I could take that away from his life, I'd do it. My dad took him in when he was thirteen and made him his son. He even calls my dad "dad" and my stepmom "mom". It used to bother me when I was little but I cant imagine him calling my dad anything else now, and I wouldn't want him to. But is it too much to ask that we be treated equally? Here's what's going down.... James has always had a brand new car. When he was sixteen, my dad bought him a Maxima for Christmas. After he wrecked the door, my dad got him a brand new xterra in 2005. Now he wants another new car, and my dad's gonna take the Xterra and drive it and trade in his old Sentra for whatever James is gonna get. In the meanwhile, I could have gotten a 2007 Civic but with no options. Instead, I looked around for a better deal for all of us and found a 2005 with a system and rims already on it. My dad put a system in James's first car, and the Xterra had a bad ass Bose system in it when they got it. Plus, both of his new cars were loaded. I don't want my dad to have to pay for a brand new car, anyway. He already works hard enough, and I'm willing to accept less if it means he doesn't have to stress out about another new car payment. So, you say, It was your choice to get the 2005, Nick. I agree, it was, but here's what pisses me off. I'm working my butt off, trying to actually save some money so I can have a decent summer and maybe afford to buy my own school clothes in September. James, in the meanwhile, isn't doing crap but going to college. So what does my dad tell me? I have to pay for my own car insurance and gas or I cant drive at all. Ok, I don't really have a problem with that, but James has never had to do anything like that. My dad still pays for all of his crap...including his gas, his car, his insurance, his college and his apartment. I had to call my grandpa and ask him to help me with some money for the down payment and license and all that other crap I didn't know was part of buying a car. I know I sound jealous, and maybe I am just a little bit, but everytime I think about it my blood boils. I haven't even gotten my license yet and I'm already forking over all kinds of money that my cousin didn't have to have. It makes me feel like my dad loves my cousin more than he loves me, and I hate feeling that way because I know it's not true. I just can't get it out of my head, though. ___________________________________________________________________ Ok, so I was chatting with Talonrider today, and he asked me a good question.... Where does Time In A Bottle take place? I will now answer the question in full.......the same place The Christmas Letter takes place. The Moores live right across the street from Jude and Quinn from The Ordinary Us, and around the corner from Chris and Owen from The Log Way.

I can't wait to read your story, Carl Take care Nick

:2hands: :pickaxe: :ranger: Sorry, I might have been daydreaming

You need to call the police when he does that stuff to you. It's not normal, and you're right to call it abuse. The police can take him to jail as long as you press charges against him, especially if he's throwing you or threatening you with hot grease. While he's locked up, pack. Then call your grandma or anyone else you can think of and get out. Once you're gone, don't go back. Good luck and please, stay safe.

Some people might not understand what this blog entry's about, and if you don't, count yourself as one of the lucky ones. For those of you who know what's up, well, you know...... The last few days have been tough for me. I took a bold step and walked in to the unknown, a place where I felt unwelcome and unwanted, mainly because I gave myself a sentence of purgatory in a moment of rage and isolation. People who know me on this site know that I'm a stubborn asshole. I have my ideas and no one changes my mind about things. I like to come to my own conclusions about things and not be influenced by others who try to change my mind. Nothing I decide is final for the sake of having an opinion...ask me about my abortion stance one day and you might walk away scratching your head and saying, "Damn, he's f'd up, isn't he?" But that's not what's important here. What's important is that I get what's on my chest off of it, and in the process, clear a few things up. I had a nice discussion with one of my favorite authors tonight, and we had a short but real talk about things that have been going down between us, and I'm glad. There was a time when I would venture into the same area of the site he was in and look forward to hearing him hiss at me. Somewhere along the line something changed, and as long as you don't tell anyone, I'm willing to accept the blame for that. I lost a really close friend behind something stupid one night here at GA, and somehow, I managed to mix up my anger and hurt over that with how I felt about other people I used to enjoy talking to. I was stupid, though, because things didn't have to change like they did. Still, I swore to myself and to everyone on GA that I'd never go back and associate with my old friends, and I kept my promise. The other day I dared myself to go back. I don't know what brought it on, but I did. The thing was, when the room started to fill up, I got nervous and didn't talk. Then someone said something that got me a little upset, but instead of speaking up about it, I decided to be a smart ass and drop subtle hints here and there about it. If there's one thing everyone here should know about me by now, it's that I'm a jack ass, and I'm actually quite proud to be one, thank you The problem with that, though, is that no one knew where I was coming from. So I let my presence be known to a few and chatted with them, but when I knew I was going to be gone or too busy to chat, I purposely stayed in chat on away status. I know what people were thinking, but I didn't care because I had to prove a point. What point was that? I have no idea, but I still had to prove it . So anyway, I want to thank Lugh for having the class to talk to me and tell me what was on his mind, and for listening to me. Now that we've done that, though, I feel like I have to do my part. Thus, this entry. Take it anyway you want to, because it is what it is. But at least I can say that I'm at peace with myself and can move forward from here. Kisses Nick

I got a really encouraging email from someone who must be reading Bodega Bay on Nifty. Here's an excerpt: My guess is that the guy went to the No Sex section of Nifty by mistake, got mad because there was No Sex (go figure) and lost his temper. Anyway, if you're a reader of mine who's(not whose..see Razor, I do know the difference) easily frustrated by a lack of sex, don't read any of my short stories, and don't read Time In A Bottle.....the ironic part is, if he would have just been patient, he would have come across more sex than he's probably had in all of his pathetic years....but, such is life. Kisses Nick

oooh..I know I know ....I'm about to start work on a paper about the fall of the Berlin Wall........my other choice was when Vince Mc Mahon bought WCW, but I didn't want to fail. :pickaxe:

First of all, I'd like to apologize to anyone I offended with my recent user name, MikeH*wk(*** it ****). I agree that it was in bad taste, and I hope it hasn't caused any troube for the Administrators of this site. That was the last thing I wanted to do....I admit that sometimes I can be a real jack ass, but I'm working on that In the interest of striving to change my ways, I've made a few decisions....I think it's time for me to just sit back and monitor things around me for a while. So, there'll be no more outageous name changes and no more controversial blog entries for the time being. My plan is to just sit back and look around, take notice of the things that happen around me and keep my mouth shut. See you all around

Isnt he the guy who went to jail after he won survivor??

I think that you could get away with doing any style show you decide to do as long as it's a quality show with good acting, writing and a believable plot. Also, I think that there's a shortage of good GLBT shows on TV, so people would be willing to follow it show by show through the entire season, if it's good. Go for it man, but I agree that you'd need more than one writer for the joint to be succesfull

If you remember his name you ought to write a letter to the newspaper. That would be a quick and easy way to air him out for what he did. He deserves it, and you deserve justice. Nevermind the fact that he used a homophobic slur; you were groped. That's sexual assault and you were a victim, even if you don't see yourself as one. Even if you don't know his name, if you write a letter to the paper and it gets printed, if nothing else, people are probably gonna want to know who the pervert cop is and the police might do their own investigation