Yettie One

Oh my, how the plot intensifies now. Hmmmmm, so SarEr is now giving his love out freely in a vain attempt to hide from his attractions to Cole, yet he is still violently protective of Zun. Oh how friendships and love can twist and tangle. I think that there is no real simple solution to the conflict of interests that these three are falling into. Guilt is a terrible thing. It's eating SarEr up badly right now. I hope in time that he can find peace. Lilansui great chapter as ever chick. I am loving this story.

Good on Google, I love their gumption.

OMG Zombie that treasure trail is quite um........ Ha! Got to admit I'm quite keen to see how Luke Campbell gets on in the boxing. http://www.gbboxing....s/luke-campbell

It is a basic principle of life really. Whatever effort you put into something is what you reap in reward. There are a million different sayings that reflect it, its something we are taught to understand from a young age, and it is a lesson in life that we put into practice every single day we wake up. Yet we never seem to do it quite well enough! How often do we put everything we have into everything that we do? If we did, we'd be physically exhausted by the end of the day, but then again I can't help but wonder if this lack of enthusiasm is part of our downfall as a race. See I reckon that man can evolve in reverse as well as evolve for the better. It would only stand to reason that we could devolve as a result of some of the advancements that mankind have made in our lives. I mean think about the car. It is a magnificent marvel of engineering yes, and god there are some amazingly beautiful models of car out there (personally I am rather fixated with the new, BMW 2012 Alpina B7. OMG sex on wheels!!!) but while it is a marvel of human ingenuity it stopped us from walking. When I moved to the UK I didn't have enough money to have a car for the first two years. I learnt to rely on public transport and my two pins. I don't think I'd ever walked so much in my life, but I was fit, healthy and loved it. Now I got a car, I've been able to travel to some amazing places, see some wonderful things, have the freedom to do what I want when I want, but I don't walk anymore. It's the same with food. KFC. Jeesh I got a massive soft spot of the Colonel's Chicken. But what with microwave meals, tinned food, pre cooked this, and ready made that, that fine tradition of growing what we eat, eating what we need, and enjoying all of it has kind of withered away. Fresh fruit salad! When was the last time I had a proper real fresh fruit salad. Yeah, I might have one now that has one or two fresh fruits in it, but so much of it is tinned. The last time I personally prepared a fully fresh fruit salad if I am totally honest was over 13 years ago in Africa, and that reality is pretty damn sad! Once upon a time we built pyramids to honour our royalty. Now we build fountains that don't work properly and are shrouded in controversy. The amazing thing was we built them without cranes and massive earth moving machinery. You gotta ask yourself, could we do the same thing today? Maybe if we had all those slaves and people to work on it ey! The sad reality lies I believe in that building a pyramid would be seen as far too much effort for securing the after life of some king or queen. From the top going down, society has changed. Of course there is nothing wrong with that, and it is only fair to expect people to change as things have gotten easier, as man kind have made discovery after discovery to improve our lives and our understanding of the world we live in, but I cannot help but ponder if all this development is in man's best interest. Our planet has just gone over the 7 billion people mark. Over 100 thousand people will die in the world today, but over 300 thousand will be born. This year already we've lost 2,7 million hectares of green forest world wide, and we have 15,122 days left until the world runs out of oil. (source Worldometers) Is all the knowledge we gain the knowledge we really need? Does the interest of our planet really lie at the heart of our hunger for knowledge? It is a humbling thought. When I look at the Worldometers page, it brings home in very real terms how little we have, and how foolishly we squander it. Maybe our greed or selfishness outstrips our design for life. We love our lives of luxury, don't get me wrong, I am just as guilty of this as anyone else. I love my computers, and my electric fan, the car in my drive, and a mircowave meal when I'm too lazy too cook. I read about a community over the weekend who have decided to forsake the comforts of the world, and live what they describe as an organic lifestyle, surviving off the land in every way possible. I was kind of jealous of them in a way, but I don't think i'd survive without my internet connection or laptop. There is a movie out at the moment called 7 Days in Havana. Josh Hutcherson (Lush ) stars in it. I was trying to find out a bit about the movie, and watched an interview he did about the movie. In the interview he says that while he was on location in Havana he met with people who had so little in life, were so poor compared with standards he was accustomed too, and yet were so alive, vibrant and happy. It kind of struck me. We have all these things in our lives, yet are not content. If I asked myself, "Are You Happy", I'd have to say no. Maybe we've lost touch with reality. No, maybe I've lost touch with reality. Which brings me back to my original thought. We get out of life what we put into it. Maybe I'm putting emphasis on things that are not important, giving attention to stuff that could be put on the back burner, and not really putting enough into the things that bring happiness, contentment and fulfilment. For the last few days I've struggled with paying attention to stuff. I've been mad at life and mad at the world. For various reasons, and stuff going on in my own mind, and its affected me, but I've come to the conclusion that you can either sit down and let life whip you, or you can get back up and give it everything and try make it. After all, like I said, you only get out of it what you put in. Thought for today - "A man sooner or later discovers that he is the master gardener of his soul, the director of his life." - James Allen Song for today - I Won't Give Up by Jason Mraz

OMG well spotted Zombie, I hadn't even seen that. I was too busy oogaling.. well, I won't say it'd probably get me in trouble!

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I quite like AVG. It has a setting that allows you to dictate how much of the processor it can access while its operating which is neat. I used to use Bullguard when I was running my business. It gave a licence for several pc's which was useful, and I always found it very comprehensive. I've heard Kaspersky is really good, but i have never tried it. I'll give it a go one day, maybe when I upgrade my laptop. I agree Malwarebytes is cool, and its free. Bonus And Cnet is a great source for lots of really cool aps and software. Plus you get real people's impressions/feedback which I love.

I have a lot of respect for Andy. He came out fighting against possibly one of the greatest tennis players in the world. He kept fighting right till the very end, when even he knew he was struggling. You could see his frustration, as he felt it slipping away from him. Thing is this poor guy carries the weight of expectation on his shoulders in addition to the pressure of his game. After all the times we expected Henman to deliver, and now he actually gets to the final, crumbs, is it any wonder the guy didn't do so well? I don't know, but I do know this. He tried hard, and I think it was a stunning achievement to even get that far let alone go one set up in the first set. He's only 25, lots more time to perfect his game. As for Mr Federer. Well, credit where credit is due, that man pulled it out the hat. He can put that ball down on a dime I'm sure, and gosh he is quick over the court. He totally deserves his place in the tennis hall of fame.

Funny how a grey day can help with a grey mood. I'm getting just a little bit sick of this rain. Meh. Well, a new week has begun. Time to try feel better about life I think. Hmmmmmm, so where to begin? I was thinking to myself, I'm slowly starting to make some decent friends through GA. That is a change on life's outlook. It's a positive, and it's the positives that are going to make things different right? So note to self, focus on the good things and try make them better right? That sounds like a good idea. I'm going to give it a go. Cassie, I hear you so loud and clear, its as if your sat next to me. The only thing I can say to you is that Nathan is in a better place where life can touch or hurt him. He's up there smiling down on us all now, free, happy and making another part of our world just as special as he made ours. The idea of Roan suffering so is quite unbearable. I can only join with you in praying every day for his speedy recovery. Dealing with loss is an emotion we are not really equipped as humans to deal with. It challenges each of us differently, and will be something we each process in our own way. I guess talking about it, and being able to share it is important, and will help to sort out those thoughts and feelings that kept bottled away will only make it worse, so its good to talk. It's not a nice subject to talk about, but all the same, I think you'll find there are people listening and willing to share with you. I really hope you start to feel better. Mark, gosh I know that frustration bro. I cannot stand it when I can't find something I want. I would say to you, it'll be in the last place yo u look, but that is just the most daft saying in the world really, as it is only logical that once you've found it, you don't continue looking for it!!!!!!! We do come up with strange epressions. I hope that the maths comes together a little easier for you mate. I know I hate year end accounts too. Always makes for a stressful time. Yettie hugs buddy. To the rest of you lovely people, its a new week, and I really hope that the world treats you well for once. Hang in there, and if ya want an ear to twist or someone to listen, give me a shout. I'll be here. Yettie out. xx

Both players are going to go for broke. Andy Murray is out to be the first Brit to win Wimbledon in 76 years, and Federer is looking to match Pete Sampras and William Renshaw's record holding seven titles at Wimbledon. So I guess they both got something big on the line to play for. Hmmmmmmmm, This could be a pretty exciting Match.

Wow, finally reached the end Bill. What a story. Must admit I didn't see the adoption coming, but I'm glad it all worked out so well in the end. What a wicked way to end year one at the Castaway Hotel.

I've got to be honest, I've had a bit of a struggle the last few days. I felt really bad that such a nice young guy could go so suddenly. The horrible stuff always seems to happen to the best people. Meh, look I know life is pretty rough. If I could use expletives, that would be written totally differently, I'm sure you get the picture. Thing is I guess I'm just angry that so many of the people who give you reason to smile, or make you feel like its ok to be who you are, to have the problems you have and to feel the way you do, are going through a whole lot of stuff themselves. It just seems so unfair. I guess I been feeling really angry at the world for a few days. We were watching a program on telly last night talking about scientists working on finding a pill that will help mankind live till they are 150 or even beyond. At the end of the program the woman says that she couldn't think of anything worse... I can't remember her exact words, but it was something along the lines of, I've had a good innings, but I'm tired now. I'm over 100 years of age, and its time. I sat there and thought hmmmmm. I'm approaching 40 and feel that love. I know we are supposed to enjoy life, we never know how much of it there is left. But I just can't help wonder what there is to enjoy. Thing is, I know I'm on a one way course to pain and hurt in my current situation being mom's main carer. We've always been so damn close, that I struggle to deal with what's going on around us, and heaven forbid that day arrive when I have to say goodbye. I don't know how I will deal with that. They say you find the strength, but right now, I'm feeling a bit battered and bruised, and trying to deal with a rage of emotions quietly without upsetting the fragile balance of our normality is not easy. And then I sit here and I read about the struggles that everyone else goes through and I feel stupid and selfish. This isn't easy. An awful lot of people will miss you Nathan. Harcallard, a very happy birthday my friend. I hope that you have a great day regardless of how it pans out. And well done for taking the bull by the horns and sorting out things with your friend. That is such a positive outcome. Marky hope things on the farm are going well with all this weather. It can't make getting about easy, and hope its not affecting the animals too much. I know your missing Stubby lots, so sending ya a massive huggle. Keep smiling Yorkie, you are a rock we all admire. Wayne hope things don't get to hectic at work. Restructure can always be a stressful time. Thanks for the hug, and glad your better and the heat has quelled a bit. Hugs to anyone else that want's one, hope your doing good and life is treating you well. Thanks for letting me vent.

I think that the face of London is changing and its a reflection of the times. I'm not sure about its design myself, I prefer the Gherkin, but these iconic, unusual structures are what modern architecture is all about. I do like the fact that the building has a public use as well as its commercial/residential use. In time I think it'll only add to the appeal of London.

Happy Birthday.

Hmmmmm he certainly didn't make reaching the semi's easy for himself. I just hope he's not too tired to see off Songa. Federer is looking good though. Djokovic had a few wobbles early in the match against Mayer, so maybe there's a chance for Federer to put the pressure on. Who ever makes it through, we got a couple of cracking games on now!

Wow this story is such a roller coaster. Don't really know how I feel about that last chapter. I guess it's kind of obvious where Brandon was, but on the other hand I've been rooting for them to sort their stuff out for so long now, I kind of feel rotten for Billy. I often find myself trying to reflect back to life when I was Billy's age. When friendships when life flew by at a million miles an hour, and friendships came and went without even realising, where so much was new and exciting and confusing. You've captured it all so well. There is so much going on in this story that you can't help but want the very best for Billy. Let's hope his new diary finds him in a better place, happier and a little more settled.

True its probably pocket change to the likes of the Gates and his mates, all I'm trying to say is that the amount is not as important as the fact that an influential person has made a point that society/gov/church tries to sweep under the carpet. I just hope a few more follow suit and start a chain reaction. I can wish can't I?

ROFL Louis you crack me up! hehe. Rain interrupts play again grrrrrrrrrr. Federer is looking ok though. No signs of back giving him much trouble.

Ah heck yeah I forgot about that one! And we got a Hurricane once. hmmmmmmm Wasn't that the time the BBC weather forecasters made complete fools of themselves?

Hang on, I think it's pretty nice that someone from Big Society has actually had the balls to wade into the whole argument and side on our side. I don't care if its ten bucks or one hundred million, its the fact a pretty influential guy/s have just thrown down the gauntlet. A few more of those kinds of people speaking up for same sex equality and maybe a few more heads will turn and listen.

Sooooooooo Andy Murray made it to the quarter finals for the fifth year in a row, when it wasn't raining! I must admit it is looking like an interesting year this year. A number of big upsets, always makes for a bit of a mix up in the end. I can't say I'll miss the grunting though. It's the biggest put off when watching women's tennis, I really can't stand it. I do love to watch the Williams sisters tho!

Although the weather is something we don't like to discuss, as its the only topic we can really turn to in an awkward silence, or when trying to be polite to a stranger, I can't help but spend a little time thinking about the glorious summer that's arrived this year! We are meant to look forward to summer. The sun's back! It's happy time. School's out. Fun, Fun, Fun. Down to the beach, everyone's off on holiday, the sun is shining, and its hot. We can get out of the house, the flowers are in bloom, the sun is shining, and everyone is smiling. The lads are walking around with their T's tucked into their long shorts (bonus) and the lasses are in skimpy little bikini's on the beach. Did I mention that the sun is shining? Ha! NOT!!!! We've had more rain in the last few months than we've recorded since records began. Well that is what they keep telling us on the news. It was the wettest May since records began, and its just been confirmed that it was the wettest June since records began! Have these people not heard of the Flood???? No pun intended, I know that a lot of very unfortunate people have suffered flooding recently, but I get a bit miffed when they rate the miserable weather as being the worst since this or since that. Crumbs its bloody miserable without having a competition about how bad it really is! I really feel sorry for the American's at the moment. Hell they are having a heat wave like none other. I do not do well in the heat, so can only say I am sooooo grateful that I am not living there right now. I would literally melt! The US really does seem to have the worst of the worst when it comes to weather. If its not a hurricane hitting land, its tornadoes ripping through the mid west, or heat waves scorching the south, or snow storms grid locking the north, or earth quakes hitting the west. Erm..... Ok so earth quakes are not weather phenomenons Mr Clever Cloggs! But, you get the picture. I live in little old England, where the most we can complain about is silly rain! Oh hang on, we got ONE tornado in the storm the other day. I think it hit a field. Ha! When I stop to think about the wild fires that grip Australia and the US, Greece and parts of Africa I am grateful we don't have any tinder dry forests on this tiny island. When I pause to think of the effects of the droughts that strike Africa or the monsoon's that rip through Asia, I'm pretty glad we don't have any deserts or monsoon like rainfall on a persistent level here. You know really speaking, we have it pretty good. Yes we all moan, yes we miss the sun, and when it is hot, its too bloody hot, and the humidity makes us all cranky, and we moan a bit more. It is a British past time. Weather is a topic of national pride. It's something we are proud of. Our grey skies, and the misty mornings. You can read about them in almost any book ever written about the UK. So when I think to myself, argh its another crappy day here in the UK, I'm trying to teach myself to look on the brighter side. At least its summer. It might not be perfect, but I'm going to make the bloody most of it while I can. Thought for today - "Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that." - Martin Luther King Jr. Song for today - Blame it on the Weatherman by B*witched

I can't say that was the best game I saw through the competition! Well I guess it was going to be Spain so there's no big surprise there.

Hmmmmmmmm, In many ways I wonder if going back to having no reliance on modern technology would answer a lot of the worlds problems, but then I think about how things like the net have brought me a whole world I'd never have been able to explore. Can I live without it? Interesting take on a change to the world.

Ah not something I've come across yet buddy. Good luck.