"I love you. I love you. love you. Iove you..." over and over I said the words to the point where normally they would seem meaningless. But in Billy's warm embrace each stroke of the mantra beat a stronger thump. Thumping, I love you. Thumping, thumping, love you, LOVE you. My heart beats into my throat and pushes the words out. I can't stop. I will never stop.
All the breath in the air wouldn't be enough to say enough 'I love yous' to my Billy. I am laying here literally crying as I watch him sleep. How could I have ever doubted it or him. So much time wasted...but it is more than enough now. It is everything. We are all we need.
Brandon....in love.