Thank you for your story. I understand it's not easy trusting people especially if you've been hurt by someone whose suppose to love you unconditionally. And as far as what people think of what you did to survive. Screw'em you did what you had to do. If they can't understand that then that's there loss. Much Love keep doing you.
P. S. Are you still in contact with Chad? Just curious if it's none of my business just let me know I'll understand.