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You can’t fix people who want to stay broken, in the end, he fixed himself the way he chose to and that isn’t on you. I think you made him see whatever better self in him still existed but he rejected it, punished you for it, in a way. I’m actually put in mind of Headstall’s story “The Tree” when I think of you and Jeff, except you saved yourself. That you chose to stay with him speaks to how open you were to love and acceptance after the ruthless rejection of your father....how I wish you had stumbled upon a priest when you got off the bus. As you say, it is the past now and a testament to your present is how you are able to revisit it to purge it. 👏 Happy Saturday to you.

I sit, arms around my knees while staring up at the stars. And I wonder which of them is ours—our witness— the holder of our history. I loved this phrasing!! ❤️ ❤️ Such a unique way of looking at the stars; Such a knowingly beautiful way to describe love. Thank you, tim.

Happy New Year, tim. I know in a past story you explained the rough life Jeff had as a way of justifying his treatment of you but when I read things like this, it’s a reminder to me there isn’t any. There are many, many victims of abuse that do not victimize, That you were innocent and fresh upon meeting Jeff should have been incentive enough to help lead you away from the path he instead ruthlessly pimped you on. He fed off your purity for his own survival in vile, horrific ways, I’m thankful you still have it. My mother’s heart aches when you share these tales but I’m glad you do; besides helping you, it shows how you broke the cycle, you are still sweet and loving and talented. I hope you know how strong you are; I wish you and Mike an amazing 2019. 🎉🎁

Wow. Do I need to get a stamp on my passport to kick someone’s ass?? Sometimes we never know the power the past holds until we are confronted with it again. A scab forms over a wound after it’s healed, when recovering from a deep injury, we may not be aware the scab is there until someone picks at it. Recognizing you’re stronger than you thought you were is a good way to start the New Year. To quote Alicia Keyes 🎤 🎶“It’s called karma, baby and it goes around” 🎶. People will have to wipe their emotional feet at another hearth. 🍻

Well, I guess we know who’s foot was stroking Trout’s leg under the table. 😳 Is Trout pinging on every sexdar within a hundred mile radius? How does Amanda's “friend” Gina and her boss Donald thinks it’s okay to hit on her man, or is their relationship really that hard for people to believe? I hope he tells her about these passes because they are not cool. Then again, Amanda might tell him to sleep with her boss if it gets her the promotion. 🤔 (Seems Bryan with a “y” wasn’t aware he was in an open relationship) 😯 The plot thickens, intriguingly so. Oh and Happy New Year. 🎉🎊

I’m not jumping on the whole “Jordan is a douchbag shithead” bandwagon. The timing for that discussion could have been better on Jordan’s part but he had no idea how neurotic Noah’s mom could be (As a mother, it offends me to call that female that....Biologically, I guess she is but she smothers Noah way too much.) I don’t get her having that intensity with her other two children. Tho I understand Noah’s love for that woman, the best thing that could happen to him is for her to be out of his life, she doesn’t respect him at all, being the adult doesn’t mean you’re absolutely, automatically right; After that scene with the movie, she would NOT have been getting an apology out of me....maaayyybe if she gave one first. Dictators will dictate, I guess. The issue of finances has broken many a couple and it was a legitimate concern for Jordan to bring up once his mother pointed it out to him; Frankly Noah’s mindset about finances seems a bit naive and concerns me with how he would live in the real world, does he expect his parents to foot his bill indefinitely? Noah could have been more supportive with Jordan’s concerns, not excuses because Jordan and our esteemed author is technically correct, Jordan never said he didn’t want to move in with Noah. Honestly, these were things that should have been discussed even before the Aiden issue came up, regarding that- Noah wasn’t supportive to Jordan at all, considering he was in the same boat a few months prior and received unconditional support. In a partnership, if one person has a problem, they both have a problem until it gets addressed. Noah has book sense but seems to lack common sense and that is why he needs a friend like Jenn, not a team of Jenns, just one Jenn, who was totally within her right as his friend to step in, knowing what she did. I’m glad this only derailed but didn’t end them, now they get to have make up sex, 😁 🧨 🌡 and deal with whatever bullshit Sebastian has in store for the new year.

I’m really not feeling Noah’s mom and I think Jenn is a pretty awesome friend, I will wait and see on Jordan's last statement. Noah may want to look into some grants or scholarships for the rest of his education, with his father basically saying that they will pull funding if he doesn’t do things their way. It may also free him to be more true to himself, not being tied to their purse strings. There may be love in Noah’s family but it seems conditional; I was waiting to see if Noah’s fears were unjustified (surely someone in his immediate family must suspect he may be gay) but his fears do seem legitimate, with Noah being as sensible as he is, I shouldn’t be surprised. Waiting....oh and Happy New Year 🎊🎆🎈

Indeed; I forgot about that little nugget during our exposure to the rotten, putrid core of our local mini celebrity sociopath....that makes me amend my statement to Carter definitely being physical competition for Alex. That poor fucker knows his beauty is only skin deep, while Carter’s beauty is deep in the marrow of his bones. I gather you are a busy little bee 🐝 yet you make it part of your schedule to fit in the telling and sharing of your amazing stories. Thank you, Laura, thank you so much. I know a major part is following your muse (can’t ignore it when it starts talking to you) and putting it where others can read also “feeds a need” I imagine but you take the time to answer back to your reader’s comments, just as soon as you can and your responses show that you really pay attention to what your readers say. My handle is “Fanlit” because I’ve been a fan of literature since I was eight years old (and I’m a lot older than that now, 😂). The gift of amazing stories come out of varied vessels, the custodians of our stories need not always be kind or interactive but your readers are fortunate that you are....the commentary part of your stories are allllmmmoost as good as your stories themselves. ☺️ You share with us the gift of your talent and of yourself and you inspire me. Thank you, dear, dear Ms. Laura. I wish you the very best in everything you do, in 2019 and way beyond. 🍾 🥂 😘

And I L❤️VE how everything and everyone (except Carter) points to Carter being a major hottie; An unfashionable hottie according to Alex but a sexy hottie nonetheless, definitely one capable of getting his own considerable attention and dare I say, legitimate physical competition for Alex, in his own way.

I “loved” the chapter because of all the progress Carter and Aron made in their new life together. They were going to move in to a new home together with a yard big enough for Taz❣️❣️(roomies....HAH!!) What exactly is Alex's motive for forcing Aron to come back when he was the one who kicked him out? Did Simon wise up and Alex can’t be alone? It’s also interesting Alex would blackmail about the accident and not Carter and Aron sleeping together, does he know? We know Alex is miserable and can’t let anyone be happy around him but he ended things with Aron, after life with Carter, there is no way Aron’ll settle for life back with Alex; I’m quite curious of the game he’s playing. 😕😳😠 Me thinks the ponytailed girl with the backpack will be making an appearance soon (I hope?) Happy New Year, Goldie!! 🎉🎊🎁

Welcome back, hope you enjoyed the holiday season and Happy New Year. 🎊 🎉🎁 Thanks for the latest installment; How’s Nan doing with her loss? I know the next installment may touch upon her and other missing family members but she’s stuck in my mind ever since her widowhood and her unNanlike reaction. May the new year bring better things for her and you, too.

Beautiful. The power of self hate, the power of hurt, the mystery and power of love in many forms and the power of self acceptance and forgiveness were captured beautifully in this narrative. Beautiful. Thank you.

As painful as this was, it was also beautiful. Though your story with Derek ended, it was.... and it was an honor to read of these opposites attracting. I hope your eight years together provide comfort the 14 years later you’ve been without him; Thank you for sharing your love journey.

Good question, maybe love is blind? I think the personality switch allowed us to see how truly rotten Alex’s core is in a way that’s not visible to Aron, Simon or anyone else in his life.

Merry Christmas Goldie!! 🎄 It’s been bittersweet reading Carter and Aron’s domestic bliss- Joyous in watching how natural they took to living together and frustrating in seeing them both hold back how much they feel for each other. Carter’s conversation with David was very entertaining, that will be an interesting face to face!! So Simon is happy to finally get his man but is willing to provide Carter “extra guidance” in learning the gay way? 🤨. I knew Alex wasn’t about fidelity but Simon surprised me. Another lovely chapter, I’m hoarding them like nuts in the winter.

Yes, they need to work together, I only hope Kiyo will be receptive. Good cliffie and Merry Christmas 🎄

The end of the year tends to bring about this emotional housecleaning....thoughts of goodbyes said this year prompting reminders of the timeless goodbyes in our lives, the ones our hearts never get over having said. I’m sorry you’re missing your Mom; Sometimes memories can’t adequately substitute being able to look upon a beloved face, to touch the living frame. I’m glad your walked help alleviate your melancholy. I’m sad, too, Gary. Friendships that I thought would sustain me a lifetime have proven to be for a season instead and I feel rudderless, without roots. Believing that everything happens for a reason, I look with hope to the future but it doesn’t lessen the loss (and blame) I feel for ports of my future now beings relics of my past. Sorry for venting....I guess this poem nicked a “misery loves company vein”, I think I need to take a walk, too. 🍻

Life is too short and love needs to be expressed when it can; I’m glad Noah and Jordan expressed their feelings for each before those weeks apart, I think knowing they both feel the same way about each other will help them deal with the challenges in their respective families. I love their open communication with each other (except for Jordan using Jenn’s picture with his friend as his “girlfriend”). It was that communication that kept Sebastian from undermining them. (What is up with him?!?!) I’m not sure who Sebastian is more fixated on, Noah or Jordan and can’t understand why he won’t leave them alone, he makes it clear he gets other guys and he wouldn’t have treated Noah well if they were together. There is some inferiority/jealousy thing going on with Sebastian, period, but it seems for some reason to find an outlet on Noah and Jordan, individually and collectively. I’m excited to see what happens with the boys when they get back to school and live together. Thanks for leaving things off on this happy, hopeful note.

Her antics and her whinneys....being there from her birth and these 25 years later. Her constant whickering to her person that she trusts for life.... Those things mean that when that sad day comes that she is no longer physically here, that she will always be with you. If a life well loved is a life well lived, I have a very certain suspicion that as evidenced by your equine soulmate, (among other observations) you live very well. 🍻 😘

I consider myself a city girl, yet my ideal home is a cabin somewhere country like where I can see the stars at night. I consider myself a city girl who’s not really an animal person, yet I’ve always respected their place in life and our world, even more so after I became good friends with a deeply devoted dog lover, she provided me with an understanding of how some people love and trust animals more than people. Your writing impresses me on any topic but there is something in your tone about nature and your animals....it evokes this sedate intimacy....like whispers in nature’s chapel; Or sharing a hot drink in front of a fire on a chilly night. Quiet appreciation for what should be appreciated more. Thank you, my platonic, renaissance friend. 🍻

😍 I hearted this chapter sooooooooooo much❣️❣️ There is so much love between C&A; Who is going to say they love who first? The one thing I know is that Aron has no intention of letting Carter go now, they may be calling themselves “fuck buddies” but as far as Aron is concerned, Carter is his man. Have we heard the last of Alex? Or Simon, for that matter? I know the end is near and it has me feeling a little sad, this unusual tale is worth the telling. Thank you, Goldie.

I LOOOOOVVVVEEEE Carter and Aron together❣️❣️ They are so frickin’ CUTE 😍😍 This was a fun chapter; I thought it was Alex who caught them kissing in front of the club, Simon’s righteous indignation on Alex’s behalf was sweet, even tho that walking dildo doesn’t deserve it. So Aron suspected his husband’s infidelity, that has to make Carter feel better. I wonder who will file for divorce first, since Alex left Aron but Aron seems glad that he left. There will definitely be an interesting, hot time with Carter giving Aron the “D”, bring it on, Goldie!! 😂 This non drama chapter was much appreciated but that just leaves me nervously anticipating what else will happen next week. 😳

I saw mention of Frank and his “hot professor” fiancé and got excited when I realized they were from “Reed’s Tale”. I see one chapter for that story on this site, was that story ever finished?

What’s funny is that it wasn’t my intention to write a poetic verse to you, they were the first words that came to me from reading your piece so I guess the poet inspires poetry, 😊. What you say about you and Michael is so true, love is a living thing and living things must be fed, we don’t always feed it the right things tho, so instead of watching love grow, we watch love go.... You are very, very, very welcome, tim.