I know I'm late to finding this, but it's a remarkably deep story.
My favorite line was :
You cannot change who you are to fit an image you want yourself to be
Because it's so simple. And yet so hard. You can't just make yourself be somone or something you aren't. And I think a lot of people who have business reading at GA may know this. I know I lost myself for a while in my teens and twenties trying desperately to not be gay, to pray daily against it and try to force myself into a new box.
It didn't work. All I got were scars up my arms and a big therapy bill as well as a disaster of a hetero marriage.
Annnnnnnnd This is suddenly a diary entry. But this story made me cry. And reflect. So thanks, if you're still around, for writing it.