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I agree, Gary. The fact is that we need plenty of feedback for the anthologies. Mine is a poem, but most are short stories I look forward to reading. I think there are going to be some good ones. I'm probably looking forward to CJ's most of all.

Only in his stories, Gary... He's actually agoraphobic.

Gary, if I remember correctly, east Texas is flat. I have serious doubts about cliffdiving being available there.

I look forward to finding out what they are planning. I bet it's going to be devious. As for the line in Shadowgod's signature, I do not see it there. Hmmmm... has someone changed it? As for teasing Joe, you of all people know why tangling with him is not a good idea. Do you remember the petting zoo? Anyway, I hope everyone is having a lot of fun. I hope to be a part of it next year.

Well, I was just making sure, because I don't know how long I'll be on the stuff, and when I move to KC...

Yes it does. Anyway, does Wellbutrin have a tendency of making things go limp? I hope not. I don't need that side effect. I'd rather be depressed.

I will, Gary. I just have to wait until next week to see when I can get in to see the doctor. Then, I can start treatment. I'll also have to keep Steph's link in mind. Anyway, I really appreciate everyone's concern and understanding. Anyway, I am still writing so depression has not stopped that. In fact, I have access to the hard drive now. The files are now updated on the laptop.

I'm going to go to a regular physician some time next week and try to get on some medication. Hopefully, I can go with Wellbutrin.

To me it sounds more like ominous foreshadowing. Someone is going to die! Drew, put the fire under the spit. It looks like it might be time for a goat roast.

Thanks for the concern. I am not always like that. It's just that some moments are worse than others. I don't mean to alarm anyone. Those moments where I feel like the sky is about to collapse upon me are definitely more than I can bear at times.

These days I am feeling profoundly depressed. I just don't know how I can take it much longer. Everything in my life seems to be a complete wreck. I feel as though I am next to nothing, as though every thing I touch just turns to sh*t. I think I really need to get to a doctor soon, or I don't know what will happen. This time seems even worse than the time when I was in my teens, but not quite as bad as the episode during my early 20's. Still, it does not seem to subside at all. Right now I don't even care if I live or die. I know that's a terrible thing to say, but that is where I am. Some might have also noticed that this kind of mood actually does inspire me to write poetry, though it tends to become a lot darker. I even go into a mode where past emotions come back to haunt me, and then I add it to my poetry. This is a good coping mechanism at times; at other times it makes me feel even worse. I just don't think it's enough of a coping mechanism. Something has to change, or I may not be able to take it anymore.

Thanks Bob. Part of my problem is that I have a hard time saying how I really feel. I think a lot of that is a lack of trust I have for people in general. Hopefully I can eventually find someone I am comfortable talking to on such a level, but only time will tell.

The color is just fine the way it is Jamie. If he looked any cuter, people would be jumping him in the streets.

Well, I have been suffering through depression off and on for ten years now. How much of that can I contribute to my sexuality? I don't really know. All I can say is that is does have an impact on my from day to day. Some days I am fine, but other days I just feel like the sky is falling down upon me. At this point, I cannot really afford to go to a psychiatrist, so I really do not have much of a choice other than to suffer until it goes away. Either that, or it will just get to the point where it is too late.

Hot and sweaty is one thing, but there's also a point where a guy just stinks, especially in the armpits. :wacko:

Wow James! I am so sorry that people would treat you like that. I really do think you need to seek a way out of there so that you can move to a more progressive area. In addition, you probably need to help sorting it all out. I hope you don't take that the wrong way. I say it with nothing but compassion, sympathy and respect.

I don't do random sex, so I can prepare when the time is right. Yes, chest hair is definitely a turn-on. I can tolerate a man without one, but it is certainly a plus. I can definitely find ways to test his gaydar.

Ash, it sounds like he's a bit of a manwhore who doesn't know what he really wants. Perhaps, it is time to make a clean break for your sanity's sake.

That sounds like something I wouldn't mind volunteering to do.

I just deleted the entry about a hiatus. It looks like that will not be the case. I am currently out of the Land of Oz, because now the electricity at home is off completely. KCPL did come out and fix what they needed to fix. However, we cannot get into contact with the electrician at present. This means that I will be staying in Missouri for a day or two. In fact, I am there right now. Thus, I am away from my homeland. I really want this nightmare to be over. I want to be able to go home and have everything just the way it should be. These problems have been preventing me from being about to finish my chapter and to be able to start some other projects. My patience is growing thin, and I am really not happy about it. I guess that's just how life is sometimes.

I would certainly hope not. The Scar is evil. Then again, goats just love irony.

Mine is more hit and miss. However, I do not think I want brain surgery. Back to the topic... chest hair is sexy as hell. I love it. There's only one part of the body I think could use shaving on a man, and that is the balls, ass, and everything in between. I don't bother to shave those right now though, because I am single.

Well, there is no guarantee of survival. All I know is that we must have the spit ready for action.

I shower at least once a day, sometimes more. I also happen to use deodorant/anti-perspirant and sometimes I use cologne (and not just on special occasions). However, I still smell good regardless, because I happen to use body wash that smells good.

I agree with that one. Clean and deodorize those armpits as needed (at least once a day but preferably more) and shower often.