Tiger

That's just as I thought

What is the little red monster? That's a good question. While I seem to be at a point where I am not depressed as much, there seems to be something else emerging. Occasionally, the little red monster comes out to play. Anything can set it off like a hungry lion being unleashed. I guess one could say that I need to get it under control, because I'm just irritable, and that is not a good thing at all. What causes it? Well, sometimes people, like me, spend years being self-sacrificing. It takes an emotional toll. One might ask what I am doing about it. Well, I am trying meditation. They often talk about reaching a state where one is not thinking as much. So far it seems to be helping. One thing is that I think I may need to return to counseling at some point when I am truly ready to get through this. I think it also boils down to the fact that I need to work on some of my life goals and really work on a plan to escape. It's about time for me to take care of me. What I want is to basically start over with my life. I figure that the Midwest has nothing to really offer me, so I want to save up money and get the hell out of here. Added: I wrote a poem of the same name. It's here for anyone who would like to read it.

I agree, Jan. It's difficult to resist in such a weakened state. I just hope that Chase understands.

Actually, it's still 7. The results should be in by next Tuesday. I'll be alright. :-)

CJ, why must you always accuse Shadowgod of being evil whilst denying your own evil. After all, Shadowgod is one of your pupils. Thus, you are even more evil. Considering this EEEVIL cliffhanger, it just proves more and more just how evil you are.

I would rather get my feelings hurt being wrong about something. The emotional pain of others hurts me more than my own... Would you rather: Have a night at the opera or a day at the amusement park?

Sitting up. Winter skiing or summer jet skiing?

Yes, I own a cat. His name is Sparky, and he's a sweetheart. The person below me loves cats, especially tigers.

Why did you make pancakes instead of crepes?

Oh, I'll be in the clear so long as I test negative. It's just waiting a week that makes me nervous. The chance isn't all that high, but it's still there nonetheless.

Now, I know that the main test is more accurate, but I have to wait a week before I know my HIV status. I'm still nervous about it. I just wanted to know today, because I wanted peace of mine. I just have to be patient, which is difficult for me. This is my life I'm talking about. The contents of a vile hold the key, and it takes a week to know my fate. I shouldn't bitch about it, but I can't help myself.

I blame the goat for giving Eric tequila again.

Tentatively Rob opens Martin's bourbon on Nancy's elevator. B E E R B O N G

A relaxed moonlight ending? Ummmm... it's far from that. The bikers are totally going to catch them making out, and that's not going to go over too well. Plus, Chase is going to be mad. It's got me thinking though. Maybe it's not Brandon or Eric who need protecting. Maybe it's Chase instead.

The First Cut is the Deepest- Sheryl Crow

Well, I hope you heal soon. Take care.

She's definitely a good choice. I got into a major Cher kick recently. She's awesome.

Well, I would rather lay in bed until sunset so long as I'm not in bed alone. Then again, I have a different kind of lay in mind. Would you rather have an erotic massage or some hot time in a hot tub? (Yes, you must choose!)

At this point in time, I do not. If I had a boyfriend or prospects for a boyfriend, I would shave my balls and all the way to my ass and trim the area above my dick.

Amy Winehouse "Rehab"

Happy 19th, Anna! Have a good one.

I'd rather bake cookies with the devil. Making babies involves public sex with women. Yuck! Would you rather lie down in a pit of snakes for 60 seconds or pet a tarantula for 5 minutes?

Metallica "The Day That Never Comes"

That's a beautiful poem, Duncan. I love those last two lines.

1.Opening Credits: "Don't Stop Dancing"