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I just had a very odd story in my head, but it seems to work. I don't know what prompted the story, maybe, it's me trying to recapture my youth, my love of old Nick shows, or maybe my desire to give stories a finality. I won't say what my story is until I actually write it and edit it, but by just my simple description, you guys can guess at the possibilities. I don't know if my story will be interesting or maybe it will be widely chided as too retro to be readable by most audiences. As a stand alone story, I think it can work, but as a finale, I am hoping that it gives closure to my thoughts. Okay, time for me to write.

I always wonder where people come from and Old Bob tale is very much a story of self realization. I can't wait for more.

Well, maybe it is personality. I just am less inclined to talk about art and other interest with people, but on the other hand, I can talk to people a lot about sports and politics. I'm an avid NCAA bracket guy in Basketball and Football, both sports which I enjoy as a spectator. Hockey is kind of a new love for me and I rarely touch Baseball or Soccer. Why is a person extroverted on some subjects and introverted in others? If the subjects are related to a stereotype of their sexuality, is there really a connection? I mean that's why I kind of got that reflective jolt. The conversation somehow ventured into music and she talked about her interest in modern rock and its incorporation in society, then somehow it lead into "Rent" (I know, maybe she was baiting me, but I was there at the 2nd to last showing on Broadway, 3rd row second seat on the left and it was memorable for me.). I mean, it was like lightning and I talked about the fun musical scoring, thematic genres, and the issues of an urban society seeking something to relate. Maybe, it's just Rent as I really don't care that much for Hairspray or Sweeney Todd to be honest that my thoughts explode in so many directions.

I just had an interesting conversation with a co-worker. I am more or less an open secret, no one really cares about my sexuality as I don't care about their lovers, infidelities, or other romantic/sexual partners. The thing though is how I realized that I hide part of my "gay" characteristics during most of activities versus actually living with it. I have a strong dislike of the fems and fashionista crowd, no offense guys it's just that I don't like being associated with those traits. However, when it comes to drama, artists, and music, I am very cosmopolitan underneath everything. I enjoy Woody Allen movies for their poignant humor (even our politics are different), I love Norwegian films for their bitter experimental realism, I love artwork built on layers of color and emotions somewhere between the old school impressionist and expressionist school, and I might be an avid Punk Rock devotee (People get a double take at me, when I tell them I love Punk Rock as I wear a suit and tie with horn rimmed glasses ), but I am also really varied in my taste in music as I branch into a lot of styles and interests. I can enjoy Bluegrass as much as I enjoy Arena Rock, Gospel or Screamo (Kind of the same almost when you think about it deeper ), and Bach or Eminem. The little conversation kind of touched an interesting area; it's like I am repressing my traits more than I should be. I rarely talk about my interests and most people think I am really "straight", but I do rarely go into my passions and interests, which give people a strange "wow" sort of look. It's not a bad type of look like "burn the fag", but it's like why are you a different person thing. I guess for me, my interests go hand and hand with my sexuality and while I am open enough to expose my sexuality, I am still closed off to expose my character and nature with people. Does anyone else ever have that sort of thing, like you're not expressing yourself?

Yeah I know what you mean. It is almost impossible to take vacation nowadays with so many shortages of help (Note we got plenty of unemployed people, but money has been really tight as we are keeping payroll full of people with mandatory pay rate increases that makes UAW workers look like farmers.) Business is always crazy, no matter what company you work for. Even management, especially people not in senior management, don't get things much better. I have about 140 hours of vacation, because I put in a lot of overtime at work crunching out my numbers, but I haven't had any chance to use it. It's like I try to plan for a trip or something and plop another disaster that I got to go in to solve. Life is no better even if your higher in the ladder.

For me its introspection, characters going into themselves or find things about themselves through self examination. I guess my stories reflects my introverted personality recently. I've been withdrawing out of my extroverted obligations.

Thank you Graeme, Lugh, and the many others who faced editing, timing, and even a site infrastructure update to deliver a great Anthology. As a a writer, I just want to thank everyone, including the readers for their patronage and the reviewers with fun insights and good analysis on all our stories.

Hope you had a great Birthday and are now enjoying a full day of (insert age here, unless you want to be 21 forever )

Probably was my subconscious, when it came to Talia and Jess. The idea of a literary foil and a doppelganger are really interesting, part of me was probably thinking of that as I look back now on the story. Thanks Dannsar for reading my subconscious. It's kind of wierd to have some one in your head

Probably was my subconscious, when it came to Talia and Jess. The idea of a literary foil and a doppelganger are really interesting, part of me was probably thinking of that as I look back now on the story. Thanks Dannsar for reading my subconscious. It's kind of wierd to have some one in your head

I vented a bit in my poetry today, I haven't done something like this since I was a kid. http://www.gayauthor...amitryingtobe/1 I had a very long day at work with really great ups and really bad downs. I just don't know anymore what I am and what I want to be anymore. I am feeling confused over my life; I don't know where I fit anymore. Being gay isn't the only question people get about their lives, I also have a lot doubts about what I am doing and my work. I try to be a decent human being, but it's so hard to maintain decency and civility, when faced with people that hold neither in the face of their own lives and ego. I've grown up a lot in the last few years, but I've just realized how much people haven't.

What Am I Trying To Be? By W.L. Am I a man of honor? Yes Am I a man of honesty? Yes Am I a man of humility? Yes But, What Am I? Today, I cannot see the place from where I came Today, I cannot hear the words from here I stand Today, I cannot taste the hope from there I go Am I a believer? Yes Am I a Thinker? Yes Am I a dreamer? Yes But, What Am I? Yesterday, I wanted to save everyone Yesterday, I wanted to be mean to no one Yesterday, I wanted to care about more t

Just me venting frustrations, laugh if you guys want.

Well, I just updated my profile image to give readers a few puppy dog eyes I thought the image was cute and since I have been using Garfield for so long, I might as well move up on the old animal chain before I actually reach man.

@PrivateTim: Anthony Bourdain is well respected for his taste, rather than his cooking talent. People expect critics to be jerks with a soul for their field. (Although, I do concede and wonder how his excessive cigarette habit has affected his taste buds, but hey, he's the only man on TV right now who is not promoting health consciousness or paying lip service to the idea that he doesn't believe in. I give him tons of credits for being honest.) As for Gordon Ramsey, I like Kitchen Nightmares more than Hell's Kitchen, both the US and UK versions. According to other chefs, he's supposedly more real in these shows to who he is in life rather than Hell's Kitchen reality TV hypes of his brash personality. @Mark92: What do you grow and breed? Are you a year round farmer or just seasonal? I don't have much of a green thumb, but I enjoy the fresh produce at a farmer's market (and the lower prices than the supermarkets in volume ). Do you grow your own feed or do you buy it for your animals? Does feed really make different in the end on how the meat actually taste or need to be prepared?

Hey I'm a Gaymer too Glad to see credit being given to gamers, I was also part of the network that joined together PS3 and computer to do complex computing for another biochemical folding simulation experiment. I think it's called Folding@home As for gamers being homophobes, it's just part of the culture, especially in MMO's. People aren't really homophobic. A lot of gay boys like to play with joysticks in and outside of their personal lives, too

Thanks, you recognize most of my story elements As for who won the final battle, Sebastian or his double. If you really want to know send me a Private mail, I'll even tell you the hints I left in the story

I also am a big Latin person, too. I love how you incorporated the pettiness of the Gods and Goddesses and formed something that could easily have been a nice play in the times of Sophocles. This story was a fun reading.

I know, we both probably were drinking from the same glass of absinthe No one knows if Sebastian won or not, it is open to interpretation. I actually did leave everyone clues in the epilogue and story on Sebastian's final fate. Piece them together and you will get your answer.

Very rich details Cia, I love lupines (more than Vampires, a lot manlier for my taste ) (A point that is a little nitpick for me, the back story about magic and creatures was used well, but it seemed like there was a plot hole concerning the Hultans being gone long ago, so how would younger lupes know them when they see them like in the last few pages after the lightning scene. It's a minor plot hole to be honest, if Stelian told his pack stories about them.) The story was written well and you developed the characters with a quality of a good fantasy universe in the midst of creation. I agree with comic, you should continue.

Would you want to face your doppelganger and see how you compare I hope you enjoyed the story and took in the reflections.

Thanks and I hope you enjoyed your ride as you disembark the story

The college focus of the story was different approach than I usually write in my stories. I've met a few real Big men on campus (been sexually attracted to a couple, too) and their drunken sluts, who actually do behave like that in club. As for the nerdy kid with an introverted personality due to issues of his past, I mean that's the key to the story. I've known a few gay guys who have been haunted by their past like that. Consider this tale, a reflection on me and my perception of people as well.

Wow, I think we channeled each other telepathically in our stories. Roommates from hell are fun to write about, especially if their names are Sebastian The Incubus trick was cool and I love how you used the code word in your story to craft out the twist.

Glad to see it now up and open for everyone: https://www.gayauthors.org/story/w-l/reflection/1 Enjoy the reading, I also added a writer's commentary in my blog for the story, so you guys know why and what thoughts came up during my writing. For horror readers, I hope that I at least gave you a taste of my kind of horror; psychological and knowledge based story. For people looking for a tantalizingly sexual tale, it's my first foray into blending psych-horror, tell me what you guys liked and hated.