JSmith

I'm going through the same thing as you basically, Dom. As soon as my mom found out about me, she started getting a lot more religous. And now I have to go to confession next Saturday to confess my sins... ALL of them she says. Well, that could take me a while. If I started a list now, I doubt I would be done by then, but hey. Joe

Happy Birthday, Drew

Happy Birthday, Jared Hope you have a good year ahead of you! Joe

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GARY!!! Hope it's a good one Joe

I'm not to sure of what just happened. I mean, I assumed that my mother started questioning a lot of things lately and she probably figured out, but I didn't really know. She came into my room and just had a rather short talk about god and miracles and then some little stories she had about miracles that happened to her. When she was done with those she handed me a Relic of Blessed Francis Xavier Seelos and said that if I said a certain prayer while I held it, then it had a healing power. She then basically said she knows about me... and zac for that matter... and said that she wished it was different and was sorry that I was going to have it so rough. Now at this point, I'm wondering what the hell she really meant and how she feels about this. I mean, she didn't exactly say, "hey, I'm fine with it" or "get the hell out of the house". More of a "If you use this, you can be 'healed'" types of things as if it were a sickness. Not really sure what to think or what to do at this point.

Actually, we're in the process of developing that and testing it out to see how we want to set it up. Nothing is permanent right now. As soon as we all agree on what we want to do with it, we'll ratify the FAQ and let everyone know how it works Joe

Congratulations, Dave You deserve it. Joe

I must have missed this yesterday. Happy Birthday, Kevin

VIVIAN!!!! I'm so sorry I wasn't able to give you something to post I ran outta time and had school, and work, and all that kinda crap. But I do want to say how much I value our friendship, and thank you for always being there to hold my hand when I needed it. I wouldn't have been able to be where I am without you. You pushed me to do things that I would have never had the courage to do otherwise. You're a great therapist, but an even better friend. I know someday down the road when I reach my 100th blog (heh only like 93 more to go!), you'll be standing right there next to me still holding my hand Thank you so much! ♥ Joe

We recently updated the chatroom so only those with 'Member' status (5+ posts) are able to use it. If people specifically ask, then I can allow them in the room, though. We just don't allow the guests in the chatroom for security reasons. You should be able to join now. If you can't, then log out and log back in to GA and try again. Joe

VAL! I'm glad you finally got your internet up Not that you ever talk to me anyways You started going to bed too early At least someone's excited by school Joe

Thanks everyone And no. You can't have it He'll end up seeing those pictures anyways when I show him If you're lucky, he may pop in the chatroom for a bit though. Jeff and Viv already got to meet him Joe

Just to clarify so I don't have to answer this over and over, yes - I have a boyfriend. And no, it's not Michael. His name is Zac Joe (Who isn't going to answer anything else )

Well I had one of these last year at one point, but I never used the thing so I deleted it. I've had a lot going on in my life recently and need a place to vent besides Jeff, Viv, and Val. It seems all I ever do when I talk to them is bitch about one thing or another. So to give their ears a little break, I'm going to be posting in here a bit more. I seriously feel like finding one of those damn flowers and picking the petals off one by one going "He loves me, He loves me not." I would probably be closer to understanding how the hell he really felt if I did it that way than I do now. I mean, I may not be the most obvious guy when it comes to liking someone, but I made it pretty well known to him that I like him. Hell even my manager at work is having fun with this. Whenever Michael (the one I like) isn't around, he (Paul, the manager) always teases me and asks me if I like him or if I think he's cute. Come on! If HE can figure it out, then I can't be hiding it that much! And if he knows that I like him, but really doesn't like me in that way, then tell me! And stop flirting with me damn it! And if he is interested in me, then will you ask me out and stop beating around the bush! I hate that I get so caught up in things like this. Every time I find someone that I might have the slightest chance with, I always fall too hard for them. It doesn't happen often (except recently really), but when it does, I get way too involved and obsessive. It's sickening really. And by obsessive I don't mean I'm stalking him. I wouldn't have the time or patience to do that. I would get bored or distracted too easily. I just keep thinking about him way too much. Whenever we're together or around eachother, he makes it seem like he's interested. He's playful and flirty and just makes me feel good inside (yeah, I'm starting to get mushy here). But when we're not right there and we're talking online or on the phone, he just seems preoccupied, bored, and just overall uninterested. Like today I talked to him online. He was out of town for about a week at some camp and got back last night. He was sore and could barely get out of bed. So I talked to him around 10ish and he asked when I was going to see him next. So of course my mind started thinking, "wow, he's actually interested!" (the following is just what I can remember off the top of my head and may not be 100% accurate) Me: when do you want me to? Him: now Me: uh, I just had relatives come in town so I dont know if I can get out Him: come on, please!!!! *Delay while I think about how to ditch the family* Me: alright, where am I going then? (Note: He lives in the next town over and we've only met at places other than eachothers houses.) Him: hehe, well I didnt think you'd actually do it, but I cant go out right now. Im way too sore. ARGH! WHAT THE f**K!? I feel like banging my head on the wall over and over. But then that would attract my cousins up here and they're annoying enough as it is without asking me why I'm beating the crap out of myself. Why the hell cant people just tell you how they really feel!? (Coming from me, that doesnt mean much, but hey, it's my blog and I get to bitch!) I mean, is it that hard to say yes or no? And if I ask him and I get rejected, well... I just cant handle that. I'm way too insecure to deal with flat out rejection. I'd rather him not flirt with me if he's not interested. Give me one sign damn it! I'm confused enough as it is without someone screwing with me like this. ---------------------- Well... I must say that felt a lot better finally getting all that out. Maybe I can get him off my mind now because it's not all bottled up. Hah! I wish... I'd be highly impressed if anyone actually read through all of that, but if you did, then I'm sorry for putting you through it Joe (Who is having way too much fun with all the ALT code symbol things! ♥♀♂☺)

So let me just start off by saying thank you to everyone that gave advice in my last blog! But... I didn't take any of it. I didn't have the chance before we ended up going out after work last night. Let me just say the night was very eventful and I lost a lot of things... and no, my virginity was not one of them! The main thing I lost was all the thoughts in my head that he wasnt interested. Because I'm pretty sure he is. None the less, thanks for the advice everyone I'm still stuck on a few things with him... like actually using the B word with him and finding out exactly what we are, but I can work on those. Anyways this was a pretty boring blog because I left out a lot of the details, but I was too lazy to type them all out again :king: Joe (Who is very happy at the moment... except about losing the button to my pants...)

I got this in an email. You gotta love Wisconsinites Just a tip if any of you plan on visiting there And if you are there, then you're probably laughing your ass off right now Joe (Who is a native and loyal Wisconsinite)

Well, now that I have everyone's attention... or at least the pervs' attentions, I should say that this isn't a pervy blog But it's going to be short and consist of me bitching So work was hell today. We were short people for a normal night, and tonight we got slammed with customers for some reason. Add that to the fact that there was a meeting with the top 10 GMs from around the country there and they witnessed our shortage of people. It wasn't fun. Especially because I had to work late. Working late with Tim is even worse. He's close minded, stupid, and slow as hell. I've been swamped with a lot of stuff lately, but I've got a few people helping me out when they can (thanks Jeff and Rob!) so it lessens my load a bit. School starts next week sometime. I'm not sure when yet, but I don't really care. I have four more months and then I'm done. And oh god am I looking forward to that day when I get to walk out and never go back. But, I said I would keep this short so I'm done Except to say that I think Michael is screwing around with another guy... so that kinda puts me in a downer mood. Not that we really had a 'thing' going on and we weren't official, but it still sucks. I don't know for sure, and it may just be a rumor. I hope it is because I really don't see him being the kind of guy that does that, but you never know. Joe (Whos going to keep adding these little lines at the end because he thinks it's fun )

Seriously, I don't know why I even bother trying to figure out how he feels. I mean, I have a reliable source telling me that he's screwing around with another guy (I think it's his ex), but he still gives me signals that says he's interested. Today for instance... my ass was grabbed like 30 times and he groped the front of me once. I'm not gonna lie and say I backed away or didn't like it. I sat there and smiled/giggled every time he did it. Which makes him think that I like it and want more (which I do). He also said something about how I havent called him in a while too. At which point I pointed out that he hasnt called me either. He kinda dodged that and made a joke about it and the subject was dropped. I haven't been the most helpful person in this situation and haven't actually asked him about any of this so it's as much my fault as it is his, but still. If you're interested, then say so. If you're not, then tell me so I can f**king move on. I hate this kind of crap. Moving on... I had a really... I dont know, I guess you could say 'hot' dream last night. I dreamt it was my first time having sex and that I was a bottom but I cant remember who I was with. Usually I cant remember dreams, and I didnt remember this one when I woke up, but about 30 minutes later I was like, "Hey, I had a sex dream!" In other news... I'm planning a trip down to Texas at the start of September. I haven't asked off from work yet, but I'm hoping that they wont care too much. I'd be gone for 3 days from the First - Third and get back on the fourth. I'm looking forward to it to say the least... I haven't been to my brother and sisters new condo yet, but theres also a few people I havent seen since I was there in March. Plus, there's a few GA members that I might get to see that live in the area while I'm down there I've rambled on enough so I'm going to call it a night. Joe (Who is contemplating giving up men and women and sticking to his hand for the rest of his life)

I hope you feel better Davey! Have Chris make it better for you Joe

Happy Birthday, Blacknight!

Happy Birthday Jules Joe

Happy Birthday!

I feel a 'War of the States' coming on

Hey don't be forgetting our dear ol' pal Miso who would come kick your ass too Damn straight

Ok, so I'm going off topic and not talking about Michael this blog. I know! This was posted on Comicality's seperate forums, but I thought some people here would like it too. If you don't agree with what he's saying, then dont post Thats why this isn't on the forums and in my blog. <param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_dDQxs3Asms"></param><embed'>http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_dDQxs3Asms"></param><embed allowScriptAccess="never" allownetworking="internal" src="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_dDQxs3Asms" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="425" height="350"></embed> Joe :king: