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Loving Fiercely: How I Resist - 9. Chapter 9: Shame

I know I made my drink too strong

The alcohol was aplenty

I made the mistake to trust him

I should have watched my back

 

Should I have had someone watch me?

Kept my feet on the floor

I should have made a plan to go

You can’t trust anyone

 

But I’m supposed to trust my friends

Should I have not told them?

Would they have never left my side?

Do they think I’m a lie?

 

I should not have confronted him

I only hurt myself

Now he wants to say I'm crazy

Keep your mouth shut next time

 

Am I supposed to feel guilty?

Am I responsible?

If they asked if it was my fault

I hope I would say no

Thank you for reading.
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1 hour ago, AC Benus said:

:hug::hug::hug:

Thank you for commenting. I appreciate your support :').

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I am sorry this happened to you, but I applaud your bravery in sharing it to further help you heal. :hug:

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Def.  

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1 hour ago, Defiance19 said:

I am sorry this happened to you, but I applaud your bravery in sharing it to further help you heal. :hug:

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Def.  

Thank you, Def :))). I really appreciate you commenting.

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51 minutes ago, Parker Owens said:

I appreciate your courage relating this in poetry. It haunts and cuts to the center. Thank you. 

You're welcome, Parker. I appreciate your words :).

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Reading this broke my heart. Scars are often not of the physical variety. There's no shame to carry baby. Your courageous and strong to speak up. Hold your head high! xoxo

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my heart broke with this one. it pokes at things i prefer not to be poke, but i must. to help me remember i am not a victim.thank you.  you and i. just like all sexual assaulted people, are survivors. don't carry the shame that is reserved for those who stole a piece of you. keep telling yourself the truth, you did nothing wrong! :hug: 

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13 hours ago, BlindAmbition said:

Reading this broke my heart. Scars are often not of the physical variety. There's no shame to carry baby. Your courageous and strong to speak up. Hold your head high! xoxo

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Thank you, JP :). I wish I had someone tell me back then that I didn't need to carry that shame. It would've saved me from a lot of hard times. It's tough to shake it currently due to my recent attack, but as you all have pointed out, courage comes from speaking up. 

 

Your words were needed, JP. Thanks again...

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13 hours ago, mogwhy said:

my heart broke with this one. it pokes at things i prefer not to be poke, but i must. to help me remember i am not a victim.thank you.  you and i. just like all sexual assaulted people, are survivors. don't carry the shame that is reserved for those who stole a piece of you. keep telling yourself the truth, you did nothing wrong! :hug: 

Thank you for your words mogwhy. I'm so sorry to hear you've experienced this as well and that this piece brought something up in you, as you said, that you'd prefer "not to poke." It's still hard to hear the word sometimes, for what happened to us. You are so right, we are survivors and I wish our minds didn't trick us into believing that we should carry the blame for something that we're not responsible for. It's a reminder I have to tell myself every day: I did nothing wrong.

 

Thank you so much for reading, even though it must've been difficult. :hug:

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22 minutes ago, BDANR said:

Thank you, JP :). I wish I had someone tell me back then that I didn't need to carry that shame. It would've saved me from a lot of hard times. It's tough to shake it currently due to my recent attack, but as you all have pointed out, courage comes from speaking up. 

 

Your words were needed, JP. Thanks again...

If you ever need to vent, need a shoulder... I'm just a PM away B!

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