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Words to Match the Music in my Head - 2. Chapter 2 Gold Ring

A man loses himself, and then his life collapses. A song that's been sung through the ages.

Words to Match the Music in my Head

 

 

Gold Ring

 

 

Sunshine shining on this guilty man

Trying to figure out just what I can

I didn’t mean to do this cheating thing

Now it hurts to look at my gold ring

 

It’s the next morning at the breakfast table

Trying to lift my face from my plate when I’m able

They don’t know what this man has done

It’s life as usual, they’re having fun

 

Daddy, can you pick me up after school

Got a detention, I broke a rule

I know Daddy, you don’t have to say it

Make a mistake, there’s a price, you pay it

 

Billy says Daddy, where were you last night

You said you’d help me fix my bike

I mumbled something about working late

Chancing a glance at my wife Kate

 

Ah, look at her, standing over there

Porcelain skin and auburn hair

If she knew, she’d leave me, I’m certain

She’d slam the door and she’d draw the curtain

 

On this life we’ve built together

We’ve weathered storms, handled all kinds of weather

But this is something new to the game

There’s good reason for feeling my shame

 

What kind of man needs more than this

What kind of man would take such a risk

I thought I knew me, but I guess I don’t

I thought our dreams would last, but maybe they won’t

 

Sunshine shining on this guilty man

Trying to figure out just who I am

I didn’t mean to do this cheating thing

Now it hurts to look at my gold ring

 

Kate looks at me with concern on her face

Says she’s worried about my working pace

Says the strain is starting to show

Says I can’t fool her, she’ll always know

 

There’s a lump in my throat and a tear in my eye

Say that I’m late, and I kiss her goodbye

Somehow I manage to get out the door

My guilty heart couldn’t take anymore

 

What kind of man needs more than this

What kind of man would take such a risk

I thought I knew me but I guess I don’t

I thought our love would last, but what if it won’t

 

Driving to work, I’m filled with dread

Cause she’s there, the woman that I took to bed

She looks at me when I come through the door

Can tell by my face it won’t happen no more

 

I tell her later, I’m filled with such shame

She says don’t worry, nobody’s to blame

I told her, sorry, but I know that’s not true

Kate was worried about me, while I was making love to you

 

She says anyway, this is our little secret

Don’t worry about her, I can count on her to keep it

I’m not the first man to fall for her charm

It was a mistake, and my heart feels alarm

 

Sunshine shining on this guilty man

Trying to figure out just what I am

I didn’t mean to do this cheating thing

Now it hurts to look at my gold ring

 

I picked my daughter up after school

Told her don’t worry, we all break the rules

She says not you dad, you’re too cool

I said even grown men can act like fools

 

I knew something was wrong when I pulled in the drive

She was standing there waiting for us to arrive

She said to my daughter, join your brother in the van

There’s something that I have to say to this man

 

She walked up to me with steel in her eye

Smelling of soap and raspberry pie

She said my sister saw you and her last night

Didn’t want to tell me but she knew it was my right

 

She said what kind of man needs more than this

What kind of man would take such a risk

I thought I knew you but I guess I don’t

I thought our love would last but now I know it won’t

 

Now there’s no sun shining on this guilty man

I still don’t know, just who I am

I didn’t mean to do that cheating thing

Now there’s just pale skin in place of my gold ring

My second song. I wish i could translate the music I hear, that accompanies these words.
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On 06/08/2015 07:17 AM, LitLover said:

Wow Gary, you really had me choked up with this song. You know me (from my opinions in reviews)...I am really unforgiving about cheating, but you made me feel for this man...his shame and his regret were palpable. He realized too late that that one night wasn't worth what he risked, and ultimately lost.

Thanks, Lit. You got exactly, the reason I was motivated to write about this subject matter. Cheating is something that some of us can't get past, and I'm sure that every day that man says to himself... it wasn't worth it. We are humans, and that means we can be weak, but sometimes we have to pay for that weakness... and this guy did. He still doesn't know who he is or why he did it... that's sad... wonderful review... cheers...

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Gary, Gary, Gary...you keep cranking out things which are so emotionally charged that I wonder where you find them. Once again, something you wrote strikes a personal chord with me--though in a reversed form here--my mother cheated on my father, which led to their divorce in my sophomore year of college...after several years of acrimoniously trying to keep up appearances.
That is the only reason I wasn't brought to tears this time--because it was so close to home for me...but I could feel his regret, and I'll hold out hope that it might work out in time.

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On 06/08/2015 09:39 AM, ColumbusGuy said:

Gary, Gary, Gary...you keep cranking out things which are so emotionally charged that I wonder where you find them. Once again, something you wrote strikes a personal chord with me--though in a reversed form here--my mother cheated on my father, which led to their divorce in my sophomore year of college...after several years of acrimoniously trying to keep up appearances.

That is the only reason I wasn't brought to tears this time--because it was so close to home for me...but I could feel his regret, and I'll hold out hope that it might work out in time.

Thanks, CG. I'm glad it struck a chord and you could relate. You can try, but I don't know many who are successful at getting past something like cheating. It seems to create the biggest wound of all. I truly appreciate the kind words, my friend... I am enjoying this new experience immensely... Cheers...

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On 06/09/2015 05:37 AM, Timothy M. said:

I guess I find it hard to understand a woman (or a man) who would end everything based on one such instance. Repeated or prolonged liasons with others, yes, but this... However, I respect that most people find it unacceptable. Also it seems he knew beforehand that this was the case, and therefore the outcome was logical.

Thanks for reviewing, Tim. Yeah, this is just one man's story about his own journey towards understanding himself and mistakes he's made. Everyone is different... he had committed to monogamy, and he broke his promise. In this case it cost him dearly... maybe they tried to fix things or maybe they didn't :) . I appreciate your thoughts on this song... cheers...

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I read all the reviews you got from this poem and your responses. I wanted to respond to your response to Clochette's review. You are a FANTASTIC poet, Gary. My mouth is hanging open with every poem you write.

 

Like CG, this poem hit VERY close to home, but instead of my parents, it was me. My ex cheated on me with a woman at his job, a woman who knew he was married...with children. She was married and had a little boy herself. I had three little boys at the time. But the one time turned into many times and he was the one who walked out. I never knew of all these times until he told me he was leaving.

 

I feel for this man in the poem b/c he regretted his one-night stand. My ex never regretted his many-night stands. And if I'm honest with myself, I would understand if Kate decided to give him another chance.

 

I agree with Isaac below; he would have confessed to Kate. The guilt would have killed him. I was stupid enough that I would have taken my ex back in a heartbeat if it had been an isolated incident. Yes, the trust would have been shattered, but that could eventually be built up again. I think...he did ruin it for me in the trust department though, I will admit. I don't trust any guy. lol

 

But I would have taken into consideration the children and what divorce would do to them. Divorce is extremely difficult at any age, but I think it's worse for younger children who don't understand why daddy or mommy aren't home anymore. They feel abandoned also, along with the spouse.

 

Anyway, I think I'm going off on a tangent. lol This topic is just too personal for me.

 

Which goes to show you, Gary, that you did an EXCELLENT job with the poem. :)

 

Ok, onto all the other poems I somehow missed. I must have been living under a rock for the past few weeks. lol

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On 06/11/2015 11:38 PM, EagleIsaac said:

All I could think of when I read these lyrics was "You don't know what you got till it's gone". Momentary lapses in judgement can be pretty costly. I have a feeling that even if he wasn't caught this man would have confessed. That guilt he was carrying would have buried him otherwise.

Eagle, I am so, so sorry that I missed this review. I have no idea what happened, bit thank you for taking the time and leaving such a perceptive one. I think you could be right... his guilt was eating him alive... unfortunately, it was taken out of his hands and he is left wondering what made him do such a stupid think... once again, sorry, and I thank you...Cheers... Gary

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On 06/19/2015 10:20 AM, Lisa said:

I read all the reviews you got from this poem and your responses. I wanted to respond to your response to Clochette's review. You are a FANTASTIC poet, Gary. My mouth is hanging open with every poem you write.

 

Like CG, this poem hit VERY close to home, but instead of my parents, it was me. My ex cheated on me with a woman at his job, a woman who knew he was married...with children. She was married and had a little boy herself. I had three little boys at the time. But the one time turned into many times and he was the one who walked out. I never knew of all these times until he told me he was leaving.

 

I feel for this man in the poem b/c he regretted his one-night stand. My ex never regretted his many-night stands. And if I'm honest with myself, I would understand if Kate decided to give him another chance.

 

I agree with Isaac below; he would have confessed to Kate. The guilt would have killed him. I was stupid enough that I would have taken my ex back in a heartbeat if it had been an isolated incident. Yes, the trust would have been shattered, but that could eventually be built up again. I think...he did ruin it for me in the trust department though, I will admit. I don't trust any guy. lol

 

But I would have taken into consideration the children and what divorce would do to them. Divorce is extremely difficult at any age, but I think it's worse for younger children who don't understand why daddy or mommy aren't home anymore. They feel abandoned also, along with the spouse.

 

Anyway, I think I'm going off on a tangent. lol This topic is just too personal for me.

 

Which goes to show you, Gary, that you did an EXCELLENT job with the poem. :)

 

Ok, onto all the other poems I somehow missed. I must have been living under a rock for the past few weeks. lol

Thank you, Lisa. I always love hearing from you. I think cheating hits close to home for a lot of us. This man had it all, and knew it. That fact that he questions his own actions so fiercely makes it hard to hate it... his guilt is doing a good enough job of destroying him... I don't know if he got a second chance, but I would assume not. I picture him with that regret for the rest of his life. I'm sorry for what happened to you...I know all about that pain. Thank you for taking the time to review... this lyrical poetry is new to me, so it's rewarding to get the positive feedback...your support is very encouraging... cheers... Gary

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1 hour ago, Mancunian said:

This struck many chords with me, no I've never cheated on anyone but I have been cheated on. The words capture an underlying love but speak of the regret, consequences and loss of unwise actions. It's a lesson for those who may contemplate taking such a risk as many of us cannot get past such actions. It hurts and leaves a mark that can never be erased.

Exactly. I bet he can't even remember how it was with that woman. Sometimes we risk everything for nothing. Is it human nature? Maybe so, but not for me. Betrayal does leave marks that can't be erased. I know couples who have gotten through it, but it's been pretty obvious it changes things. Thanks for this, my friend. I love going back to these. Cheers!

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