Live, Love, Lose - 43. Chapter 43

Another great chapter!  And yes, I would love to see how you envision the characters when you’re creating them.  That would be awesome!

Interesting, the rape did not cause a break. Karl does not reject George

George, too, is uncertain and ignorant of useful anal sex practices . He does not know how to properly prepare his partner. He thinks going in bare withour preparing the anus is right. It should hurt the first time he says. But it wasn;t just the pain, it was the shock of tne action without consent or notice.

Karl is so sweet and is not rejecting George. He kisses him to show he is not truly mad at him.George then starts giving a blow job and stops leaving Karl frustrated. Karl is acting on his hormones. He is in lust and not in love, yet.The age difference at least will keep George from wanting Karl to be a boy friend in public.

Paul knows about Karl and George, I am sure. The sex in the bedroom had to be heard throughout the house. Kark is very vocal. I hope he can give Karl some perspective.

George is not now enrolled in university. Is he now subject to be called up for military service? Perhaps, he is needed as a medic.

I would love to see how you think the cast looks.

Karl it appears to be getting more pleasure than pain with each time George shows what he wants with Karl.  It is non-consensual rape?  Is it just plain rape?  Karl does not have a grasp on the language, so even if he was saying "no or stop", would George understand?  Would George even care if he did understand Karl saying no? 

I do think Karl is getting those feelings that nearly all of us have had at one point in time.  There is some pain, there is some pleasure and for those who are new to gay sex.  There is also  the feelings of fullness, emptiness, passion, guilt, possibly love, hate or even have not feelings at all.  Karl is in the very beginning of sexual actions between to men.  He has not been given the talk apparently by his parents.  So is George going to be his instructor in the art of gay male passion and sex?  Or is Paul going to be a part of this education as well or totally?  I can see this story progressing both ways.  Will Karl, Paul and George become, lets say more involved with Karl's sex educational activities?  Or will Paul and George become a sexual couple?  Will things progress to where Karl is finding his true self and looking for the sexual pleasure that he is getting with Paul or George, or with both of them even?   Will Karl progress into others who are with the same physical attractions with other men? 

What if George since he is not enrolled in the Universtity now, become a part of the war machine that England has in fighting the Germans?  If he does become a soldier, will he be a medic?  If he does become a part of the war and leaves, what of Karl and Paul.  Do they continue with Karl's sexual education?  Do they become more than teacher/student? 

What ingriging new twists will we see coming in future chapters.  So far I have enjoyed the somewhat slow beginnngs of Karl's feelings about other men.  I mean after all  when you have not been given the 'Talk" by your parents.   Get pushed away from your family by your own father,  Does Karl even understand yet what his father has done for him by getting him away from Hitler's mad way of world dominataion.  Only one knows the answer to that question.  Let's hope you will eventually give us what Karl is feeling about so many lessons that must be learned while also having to understand the language, why he was pushed away from his family and why things are making him feel uncomfortable, pleasure, pain, joy, uncertainty or any other number of thoughts he will have in his future. 

Karl may be a young man who was forced from his family by that same father who always was there for him.  Karl must be able to be his  own man at some point. 

Yes give us your profile of the characters.  I think this  would be great but also have just a little saddness in knowing before the story is  finished.  The best of both worlds?  Or not. 

Either way, lets read on. 

2 hours ago, scrubber6620 said:

Interesting, the rape did not cause a break. Karl does not reject George

George, too, is uncertain and ignorant of useful anal sex practices . He does not know how to properly prepare his partner. He thinks going in bare withour preparing the anus is right. It should hurt the first time he says. But it wasn;t just the pain, it was the shock of tne action without consent or notice.

Karl is so sweet and is not rejecting George. He kisses him to show he is not truly mad at him.George then starts giving a blow job and stops leaving Karl frustrated. Karl is acting on his hormones. He is in lust and not in love, yet.The age difference at least will keep George from wanting Karl to be a boy friend in public.

Paul knows about Karl and George, I am sure. The sex in the bedroom had to be heard throughout the house. Kark is very vocal. I hope he can give Karl some perspective.

George is not now enrolled in university. Is he now subject to be called up for military service? Perhaps, he is needed as a medic.

I would love to see how you think the cast looks.

 

@scrubber6620, please don’t take this as an attack of your input or logic, but rather pointing out a different perspective, both personal and of my understanding of historical context.

It’s so hard to put ourselves into the early 1940 mindset and societal context. There was no internet for learning and sharing anything about sex; especially sex that was more than likely to get you executed. Libraries were prohibited from shelving such smut and even scrutinized minors for inquiring mature subjects in medical or educational journals “appropriate only for adults.”

Learning about sex more often was by exploring, experimenting, and possibly trusting someone rumored to have experience that may teach you how others were “doing it.”

Even several decades ago in my sexual formative days, books were still only eluding to practices without details to help educate a young gay man in the ways of safer, more compassionate, and more mutually synchronized consent. It was not unusual to believe entry only required Vaseline and the receiver would get use to and learn to enjoy submitting to “being the girl” in the act between guys. Assuming it had progressed beyond just being a cocksucker for guys unable to accept they were truly willing partners to homosexual sex.

So while Karl feels the ache and desire of sex, and has become somewhat attached to George, he also feels the underlying sense that this is not seen, accepted, nor normal. Now Karl trust Paul enough to seek some level of counsel; ironically, Paul may understand George better than thought, as the older Paul may have had a younger George sharing sexual experimentation back in their earlier days. Somewhere within, Paul must have known of George’s special friendship.

Either way, the relationship of George, Paul, and George’s lost love has yet to reveal a timeline that gives us the understanding of when, why, and how, George was on the streets; and when he became a more permanent resident in the Hoskin home.

George is not in the military due to his vision, however the draft requirements could be changed based on support functions needed; unlikely, as every society needs a work force to support war efforts from home.

@LittleCherryBlossom26, your casting script would be interesting so long as any spoilers are segregated or listed by chapters; so as to be selective by choice. Great job at trying to bring the awkwardness of young gay men and sex to us using a sheltered and much different time period; accentuated by the communication barriers within language, age, and experience.

This is an interesting chapter.  Karl's lack of education and innocence seems to keep him a bit sheltered from actually knowing what George did to him.  In retrospect, he did not find it demeaning or cruel.  He might have felt he was used, but at some level he experience sexual arousal.  I think he wants to explore these new feelings and also wants George to stay to teach him.  All we suspect about Paul is conjecture, so I am now sure how Paul will be able to help.  Does he know about George?  Probably. Will he be sympathetic to Karl? Assuredly.  Can he give advice????🤔