Awww.  You need to come to Northern California next time! 

You think way too much for a 26 year old. To be honest I think thats part of your problem, based off what I've read in your posts over the years. Just go out and have fun for awhile without thinking about anything important. 

Sounds like a nice vacation to me....  Except nobody ever tells surfers not to undress in public, not in Northern California anyways.  What you saw was kinda exception, really, or maybe that's what Southern Californians do.

Next time bring a camera to take photos or doing some sort of activity so you don't feel all by yourself.  I am used to go on a day trip with just my camera.  so I don't feel that lonely.  I really don't think seeing people holding hands makes me lonely.  I usually just smile at them and be happy for them.

You think way too much for a 26 year old. To be honest I think thats part of your problem, based off what I've read in your posts over the years. Just go out and have fun for awhile without thinking about anything important.

 

@Matt

Tried, it's why I went to cali

I also went to the padres game on saturday against the cubs. Same thing, I just felt really lonely and the beers weren't helping. Maybe it's chronic depression or something.

As for random people, yeah I talk to them and have empty convos about RBIs and ERA history (ted williams played in san diego for a time you know)

It just was hollow

@Ash

Never been to northern cali, so I might hit you up

The irony in all of this is that I feel better in dreary cold and gray Boston than I do in sunny beach San diego.

"I have a growing investment portfolio, some real estate, and a stable life that affords me anything a middle class man would want."

But the only thing you can take with you is your tats

Someone once said that all that truly matters in life is those you have loved, and those who have loved you.

Solo vacations are not all that enjoyable, in my experience, unless I'm looking forward to being alone. W-L do you have online friends you can connect with in person? Or local friends from work or volunteer stuff? It can take some skill to build a network after college, but the people I know have gotten really good at it over time.

"I have a growing investment portfolio, some real estate, and a stable life that affords me anything a middle class man would want."

Marry me please and keep getting more rich!

Jokes apart, I do understand your problem. May be you could see a shrink. But, unless you learn to find happiness in your own self, you will never find lasting happiness and peace. Every external object or person you try to find happiness in, is perishable and liable to change. So, you must learn to be happy on your own, without depending on an outside source. It takes a long time to achieve this. So, do not despair if it takes a little longer. We are here for you.

W_L,

Your thoughts about loneliness are familiar to many gay people. It's a fact of life for so many us, that a good deal of our time will be spent alone. Being single in a crowd accentuates the feeling of being apart. And you can't leave it behind, simply by traveling. I always loved hiking and trips to quieter places; the exercise gives you an emotional boost, and you connect with something other than your need. But to need human company is a positive. There's a group for most interests, bowling to chorus, and that's a great environment to socialize in while you're waiting for your kindred spirit to come along. And he will.  

Oneof my quieter friends volunteered at a Pride event when he moved here... Just a thought, since it's coming up...

There are gay sections in San DIego. I hear Long Beach, Ca is also a gay section of LA County as well as a college town.

I'm surprise there wasn't any bumping into other gay folks??

Didn't you have any gay friends or GA friends in Ca you could have asked for vacation ideas??