It looks like you have a lot of determination, that is good and will be a big help to you. Remember an old adage nothing is impossible, when you breakdown the word it reads I'm possible. Picture your goal in your own mind, then picture the steps you need to take to get there, when you can do that you have one possible route to achieve your goal. Good luck in your endeavours. 

Aw, honey.  you may not realize it, but you've always changed.

It may not have been dropped in your lap by your boss, but you've always done it.  you've raised a family, run a home, looked after your Sir.

you took me on as well.

you can change, but you need time to make it work in your head. Write a list of your duties. Try and envision how a new day could look on paper. Write whatever is in your head, down so you can see it.

Meditation too might help.

And there's this odd little page i found:  https://www.mindbodygreen.com/articles/how-to-gracefully-accept-change/

i sort of liked the message there.

i know you can do this. you will find your way. Just be gentle with yourself.

You certain have some confidence issues going on. I read from the way you wrote the blog is that ur a person who needs to be liked and praised. This goes hand in hand with confidence. The more someone is nice to you and says you are a good person - or good at what you do, this raises your confidence. If someone says something bad - or in cases just forgets to say anything, you overthink that and project it on to you. I was like this for a long time, i do get it. It's a common ritual that you've got to break. And, as much as this sounds like a terrible thing to say to you - to get more confidence you have to believe that you are not as important as you make yourself out to be. People have busy lives and stopping to tell you ur good or amazing might be top of their list of things to do. Confidence comes from your own making. And believe me, people patting you on the back and being soft will not help you. Try to not to give a shit so much, and change will come easier.  

All the best with the job, you'll be fine. Life has a way or working things out.

my dear molly pop 

you have the skills. you have the tenacity. you can build your confidence.  Allow yourself time to adjust and learn this new skill. 

I have every faith you will turn this corner and find success. 

I'm sure you've spoken to Phil. Remember He is there to help you. 

M 

On 7/10/2022 at 3:38 AM, Mancunian said:

It looks like you have a lot of determination, that is good and will be a big help to you. Remember an old adage nothing is impossible, when you breakdown the word it reads I'm possible. Picture your goal in your own mind, then picture the steps you need to take to get there, when you can do that you have one possible route to achieve your goal. Good luck in your endeavours. 

thank you, i do have determination. i really don't like failing

thanks for taking the time to read and comment

On 7/10/2022 at 6:19 AM, Mikiesboy said:

Aw, honey.  you may not realize it, but you've always changed.

It may not have been dropped in your lap by your boss, but you've always done it.  you've raised a family, run a home, looked after your Sir.

you took me on as well.

you can change, but you need time to make it work in your head. Write a list of your duties. Try and envision how a new day could look on paper. Write whatever is in your head, down so you can see it.

Meditation too might help.

And there's this odd little page i found:  https://www.mindbodygreen.com/articles/how-to-gracefully-accept-change/

i sort of liked the message there.

i know you can do this. you will find your way. Just be gentle with yourself.

you are such a good friend! yes, these are all things that have changed, and will change. this, this seems somehow scarier, less doable.
i've kept that little article you found; it spoke to me. especially the part about leaning on your practices. i think i've journaled more in the last 2 1/2 weeks or so than in a long while.

i am doing my best to be gentle with myself, i appreciate the reminder 

thanks, for everything

On 7/10/2022 at 7:11 AM, kbois said:

Oh molly, I'm so sorry you've had such a difficult time lately. 

Change is hard. Especially a forced change. Our jobs keep us locked in an environment of our employer's choosing. When they come along and shake that little snow globe we spend a good chunk of hours in every week it's confusing and disorienting. 

Keep reminding yourself that you are among the best at what you do. Your boss knows this. If training has not been adequate, ask for clarification. It takes time to learn new skills/procedures. 

Everyone stumbles while navigating this road we call life. You are good at what you do. You have made good changes in the past as tim pointed out. You will get past this.

Lean on those who love you. We're always here to give you a boost.

One thing at a time. 

*Hugs* ❤

thanks k
it helps to remember that everyone faces change, and we don't all do it the same way or even gracefully

i appreciate you being here, thanks for joining the conversation

On 7/10/2022 at 12:11 PM, rickproehl said:

molly

i know that change is upsetting and you feel lost but take a moment and just breath. you won’t be a expert in a day but each day you will get better. what you struggle with today will be easy tomorrow. 

so take care of yourself.

thanks rick
remembering to breathe, yes i need to do that

thanks for taking time to read and listen and be here

On 7/10/2022 at 9:45 PM, MichaelS36 said:

my dear molly pop 

you have the skills. you have the tenacity. you can build your confidence.  Allow yourself time to adjust and learn this new skill. 

I have every faith you will turn this corner and find success. 

I'm sure you've spoken to Phil. Remember He is there to help you. 

M 

 

thank You Sir
yes, i talked with Him. i was having trouble putting my feelings into words and He suggested i try writing what i was feeling, that it might be easier to find the words. He's letting me work it out, but He's never far away. 

thank You for reading and for Your support

On 7/10/2022 at 10:37 PM, Reader1810 said:

:hugz: 

hugs are very much appreciated, thank you

On 7/11/2022 at 2:32 AM, chris191070 said:

thank you chris
i really appreciate it