That's Me Trying

[Jason Rimbaud]

That's Me Trying

Written By: Jason R. Inspired by Bill Shatner

 

I got your address from the Internet at the library

Wandered in, looked you up and you were there

Weird how it's been the best part of fifteen years

You must be, what, in your late twenties now

If I remember

You were born in June or was it May

As I waited for you to pick up, I wonder what you'd say

 

I've been silent

I've had enough

Yet who could blame you

Giving up

Above the quiet, there's a buzz

That's me trying

 

You still singing inside churches down in Texas?

Have you told anyone--wait, that's not fair

I know I haven't been the best of friends

I'll hold my hand up there

The reason that I'm calling, is I miss you a great deal

Let's get a nostalgic action going

Put the past behind us

Eat some food drink some beer

You still talk to your family?

Tell me about them

 

I've been silent

Well, I've had enough

I won't blame you

Giving up

Above this quiet, there's a buzz

That's me trying

 

But I don't want to bring up any of that bad stuff

Why I left you in that hell hole two days before graduation

I'd like to explain my actions

But I can't

So let's keep things easy

Stick to topics that won't freak us out

How about this

Let's choose a book and we'll read it before we meet

Then we can sit down at the restaurant

Have a look at the menu and talk about it while we eat

Pretend that we've never had a problem

Then life would be like that

Easy

Uncomplicated

Cool

 

Let's pretend that the past never happened

I don't really like thrillers anyway

I don't want to know if you have a boyfriend

No need to tell me where I went wrong

I don't want to know what happened in your twenties

You wanna try Brokeback Mountain

Or is that too long

 

You answer with silence

I know it's not enough

Even now

I've given up

Now there's only quiet, no more buzz

I've stopped trying

[AFriendlyFace]

That sounds like most of us in the end. Don't we all "stop trying" eventually?

 

 

I really like this poem. It sort of reminds me of a sad Country song. It seems like it must have been fairly recently written as well since it references Brokeback Mountain.

 

Speaking for myself, there are several people in my past who I'm curious about, people who I might like to "try" with. I guess that silence is the hardest thing to overcome.

 

Thanks for a nostalgic and thoughtful poem.

 

-Kevin