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Happy Birthday Tony!! I hope you have an awesome year and a teriffic day!! Kevin

Actually I wish it would frickin slow down! I swear we've been skipping days the last few weeks! The person below me got really good news today (and must now share it with us )

Hey Viv! I'm sorry stuff's been rough at work lately Sounds like a bad situation and you're right it definitely sounds like Randy isn't treating you like a real friend. Just out of curiousity though what ever happened with the kids? Oh boy! I can't wait to read it , I wish I could get started on my entry again, I haven't worked on it since before I moved . yay!! Wow! Mary's quite persistent! LOL did you tell her he was gay? Reminds me of one time at work we had this gay (at least I think so) girl that used to come in. She was nice and really cute. Anyway one day after she left I was chatting with my coworker and he was talking about how cute she was and wondering if she was seeing anyone etc. LOL so seeing where this was going and wanting to spare the poor guy I was like, "you know I'm pretty sure she's a lesbian". LOL really surprised him! *blush* aww thanks Have a teriffic weekend, Viv!

I'm looking forward to reading more of your story . It looks like it's going to be very interesting.

Well personally speaking I often tend to over-edit mine till the poor thing's exhusted. "Oh no! I missed a comma!" ....of course that's only half the time, the other half of the time I just couldn't care less and might even leave glaring typos ***shrugs*** Glad to see you, Camy! Hope you have an awesome day, take care! Kevin

Hey Kitty! Thanks, I definitely try to do that now, but I do admit sometimes I think, "well I'd like to go do X, but it'd be more fun if I waited until I could do it with "that special someone" **cheesey grin** , but yeah for the most part I try to pride myself on being the kind of person who goes after what he wants and doesn't miss out on things. I know you're definitely right there! I'll just have to try to keep that in mind. Well, you beat me to it. Kitty hehehe don't worry I'll give you the second prize **awards Kitty 2,500,000 bonus points** and we should still have whatever you want in stock available at that cost (just imagine it's cheaper if necessary ) thanks and have an awesome day! Kevin

aww thanks Luigi! I guess you're right. Sometimes it just seems like I'm wasting my time though. Thanks for the perspective though I'll try for now **Hops away** Have an awesome day! Kevin

Thanks Sharon, I know you're right and that does pretty well describe how I feel. Most of the time I feel extremely pleased with my life. But sometimes I wonder what's missing. You're definitely right though, the mood does pass, and I don't think I would change much from my past. Thanks for the encouraging words! Take care and have an awesome day! Kevin

Grrr Matt! LOL I should learn to keep my mouth shut! You'd better! Who else is gonna help me find my way out of the park! Just be sure to bring the boyfriend when ya come have an awesome day, dude! Kevin

Good point, I was thinking that myself lol, it was so confusing because while they were in the outfield Jesse was Mr. 2nd base. Then Cameron was talking to the 2nd baseman :wacko: LOL or it might be a major boon I agree I was thinking something along these lines too! I don't think Cam would actually cheat on Cole but I think you're right that Cole might get jealous or something. I just hope this doesn't happen. Anyway awesome chapter and I can't wait to see what develops next! Have an awesome day and take care everyone! Kevin

Same here. Tyler's definitely on my list though

So this won't be a particularly cheerful entry just to let everyone know. I went to Wal-Mart the other night. Everytime I go I check in the music department for this cd, but they never have it. They didn't this time either. However, on the way out I saw The Fray cd. So I bought it on an impulse. I'd really liked "over my head", of course I'd already downloaded it, but the trouble with that is you don't get to hear the less popular, unreleased songs, and sometimes those are the best (like this time ). So anyway I'm driving home and this one song came on and it was like WOW. I mean it could have been written about/for me. It described exactly how I feel: "Heaven Forbid" Twenty years, it's breaking you down now that you understand there's no one around Take a breath, just take a seat your falling apart and tearing at the seems Heaven forbid you end up alone, you don't know why Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright It's on your face, is it on your mind would you care to build a house of your own How much longer, how long can you wait It's like you wanted to go and give yourself away Heaven forbid you end up alone, you don't know why Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright Heaven forbid you end up alone, you don't know why Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright It feels good (Is that reason enough for you) It feels good (Is that reason enough for you) It feels good (Is that reason enough for you) It feels good (Is that reason enough for you) Heaven forbid you end up alone, you don't know why Hold on tight wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright Heaven forbid you end up alone, you don't know why Hold on tight wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright Out of this one I don't know how to get you out of this one I don't know how to get you out of this one I don't know how to get you out of this one I don't know how to get you out of this one I was going to bold the parts that were particularly relevant, but it's like the whole thing is particularly relevant. I mean I'm happy, I really am....just not always. It's funny too, it's always at the weirdest times. Like it was actually the night before I bought the cd, and I was suddenly feeling down and lonely, and I tried to shake myself out of it, remind myself I was being irrational. I mean just the night before that I went to that party and had a great time then went out with my friends. Yes, my new friends. I mean okay we're not that close yet, but they're definitely my friends and everything's going fine. Also at that party (which I'm really going to blog about eventually), I was talking to my upstares neighbour and I mean it's like I'm sorta even making a connection right here, right next door. Plus I'd just gotten off line and finished talking to a few other really nifty people ( ). So I don't know why I was suddenly all lonely and emotional, but I couldn't talk myself out of it, and the really amazing coincidence is that I finally gave up and reminded myself, "don't worry, you'll be fine. It won't hurt in the morning." I mean heck that's practically, "Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright" . Of course I know why I couldn't talk myself out of the loneliness the other night. Why it didn't matter that I'd just spent time with friends. Obviously it's because I'm looking for something beyond platonic. I mean Heaven forbid I end up alone. This part struck me ALOT too: It's on your face, is it on your mind would you care to build a house of your own How much longer, how long can you wait It's like you wanted to go and give yourself away It's so messed up though. I mean I've always been a firm believer in, "if you can't be happy by yourself you can't be happy with someone else.", and all the many derivatives like "you have to love yourself first" etc. Well I mean I do love myself. I'm one of my favourite people! Yay me! And I am happy by myself (at least 95% of the time). But I guess there's still that something missing. I mean just because I can be okay on my own and happy doesn't mean it's my first choice....well sometimes it's my first choice, I can't say I regret the time I've spent single. Freedom is nice and I've had fun, but I guess it's "getting old"....or maybe it's me that's getting old(er). I have to admit I often think, "well if you don't find someone permanent in the next few years it'll be harder". I mean, I like the way I look right now (I guess there's no way to say that and not sound self-involved so screw it). I'd like for the person I end up with to at least get to be with me while I'm at my best. I know it's not impossible to find true love later in life, I know it's probably not even unlikely if you go about it right, but...well it's like a quote from another song I like, this one by Eve 6 called Good Lives : Good lives are gold, like the oldest story Will mine be told while im still young and horney (great now I sound shallow and sex-obsessed). But it's true, I would like my story to be told while I'm still young and horney. Not just horney, but engergetic in general. I'd like to run around, play games, travel, climb stuff etc with my soulmate . And I know I can still do that stuff with him when I'm in my 40s or 50s +, but we won't feel like it as much, we'll need to rest longer in between, that might be about ALL we do that day etc. And I can (and do) do that stuff now by myself or with friends, but it's not the same. Heck it's even my mind as well. I mean my mom and grandpa for example have better short term memories than I do. So yeah obviously older people can stay very sharp, but the key part of the phrase is "than I do". I'm already extremely absent-minded and scattered. The sad truth is it'll probably only get worse the older I get. I'd like to meet my future husband (I still don't particularly like that word, but it's just word, I know I want to get to married...I guess I just feel like it's supposed to be me that's the husband ) while I'm still able to remember his name! "ohh you look familar", "yes sweety, we got married last month". Anyway I'm being silly, whiney, self-involved, and probably offensive. But "it's my blog and I'll whine if I want to, whine if I want to, you would whine too if it happened to you." (bonus points if anyone can guess what 60s song I modified to serve my purposes ). Anyway I'm done with both my complaining and my singing for the evening. Sorry if I did sadden or offend anyone. Take care and have an awesome day everyone.

Thanks Viv! You're right, and I think way too much, especially about stuff that I can't influence. Thanks Kevin

Awww Vance, that was so awesome to read!! I completely agree with you, and commend your attitude! have a fantastic day! Kevin

nope, I don't drink soda at all. Or anything with caffiene (but I also don't drink caffiene free soda or decaf coffee which also pretty toxic ). The person below me spends at least 3 hours a day driving.

Hmm possibly, but does rediculously rich chocolate cake count? I have that more often than eggs The person below me is going to have something to say about my breakfast habits

LOL! Thanks Nick! I got a big kick out of that. No wonder I didn't feel like getting out of bed this morning...I mean after 20 hypnos I guess that explains why CSPAN was on too Of course not Vic! I'm just going to use him to advance gay rights then dump him for the curly haired guy .....hmmm I wonder if dubya's in the mood for a trip to Europe and a little shopping spree

Thanks Nick! It's a dream come true . Gosh, I didn't know I was such a drunk though ! Lucky for me dubya came to my rescue! HEHEHE I enjoyed that, awesome job ***begins to think of ways to steer the conversation towards gay rights*** Can't miss an opportunity like this! Yay! Mission accomplished LOL leave it to you to point out the negative side, Matt have an awesome day and keep smiling! Kevin

Excellent logo, Xandra!! My gosh, David, how very clever of you! That's exactly the kind of thing I like . I hadn't realized it before (since I only knew of the most popular Elton John songs), but I think it's seriously cool now that I do konw!

Top 10 Reason Why I want to be in a GA story 1) Any hot guy I fall for will not only be gay but also really into me. 2) It's a given that I'll be: hot intelligent likable and probably possess a really cool special skill, talent, or trait. 3) All my friends are also likely to be unusually attractive, as well as exceedingly loyal, protective and dependable. 4) STDs just aren't an issue for me, regardless of my own promiscuity or sucky circumstances (rape, abuse, cheating lover, etc.), I'll remain completely disease free. 5) Permanent disfigurement and unsightly scars are similarly unlikely. I can be beaten, attacked, deathly sick, or in a serious accident and I'll be good as new before too long. 6) Anyone who seriously dislikes me is likely to end up in one of the following circumstances: horribly screwed over owing me big time for something only I can help him/her with dating me 7) Really terrible and complicated situations or problems really will work out. 8) Sleep and food are both purely recreational and I can indulge in either as much or as little as I please without any practical consequences resulting (except as the occasional plot device). 9) If my own family isn't already unbelievably supportive they will be by the end of the story, or else they'll just have to face replacement by a new and improved "family". And the all time top reason why I want to be in a GA story 10) My creator is an extremely talented person and I'll get to make a positive impact in the lives of thousands of wonderful readers! Hugs to all the authors and readers out there and I hope my little list doesn't offend anyone. Kevin

OHhhhh, yes that seems like a big insight. I quite agree! -Kevin

at the end of this chapter when Ryan said he didn't know how Toby was and that he hadn't checked on him, I was kinda scared Connor would find him dead or near death in his room. So yay that he wasn't! EXACTLY!

Isn't it "Brothers Gibb"? The person below me has never seen a John Wayne movie

Woo HOO Happy Birthday Vic!!! I hope you have a really awesome day, and a phenomenal year!! Take Care * , and have fun! Kevin * "Take Care" is a registered trademark of naper_vic

So I had a good time last night, and I'm going to write all about it (in another entry), but first I want to talk about a...well I guess "sad" thought I had in my head for some reason when I woke up. More of a "what could have been" thought. It's funny what's in your head when you wake up. Every now and then I wake up with songs stuck in my head (having a song stuck in my head has never particularly bothered me so it's all good). Sometimes other random feelings or thoughts. Well today for some reason I woke up thinking about my best friend growing up. Well I guess I should explain that when I was a kid I had several "best friends", but he was probably my best "best friend" for several years. Cody was his name (yeah same name as the waiter I mentioned in an earlier entry. I've always liked the name, maybe I'm more inclined to like guys with the name. Possibly even because of him...anyway). We were really close through junior high and high school. In 6th grade we were friends. In 7th grade we were really good friends. In 8th grade he was definitely my best friend. He was probably the first person, whom I wasn't related to, that I (almost) completely trusted. In 7th and 8th grade I had a crush on him. No two ways about that. In fact I imagine that's why we became friends. Oh I had lots of friends I wasn't attracted to, and we clicked pretty well so maybe it would have happened anyway, but truthfully I imagine that had something to do with it. Anyway by the end of 8th grade I'd mostly gotten over those feelings...mostly. It was weird, I mean obviously it's hard to tell and your perception is going to be distorted if you're attracted to someone, but I often felt like maybe, just MAYBE he felt the same way. Of course I later decided that was just wishful thinking. A few odd things happened though. Like the fact that he tried to seduce me the summer between 8th and 9th grade (well I'm sure we wouldn't have "gone all the way", but he had some messing around in mind). I have no doubt that's what he was trying to do, and even then I knew that's what he was trying to do. BUT I didn't go for it, more like jumped up and changed the subject. I think he was hurt, definitely mad and embarrassed. I was just...freaked out. I hadn't really sorted out my sexuality, but I knew he could get me into "trouble" . I dunno on the one hand maybe I was trying to deny my feelings. But I also remember thinking something along the lines of, "no, this'll mean more to me than it will to you". That was the only time anything overt ever happened. I chalked it up to the whole "teenagers experimenting thing". I still do think that, I really do, it's just that now I wonder a bit. He always treated me differently than the rest of our friends. Better. More thoughtfully, more protectively. Still I always thought it was because we were close. It probably was. One time in my junior year of high school I was telling my friend Philip about an argument we'd had the night before. I told him all about how it started when I picked him up, progressed over dinner, and culminated on the way home. When I finished he just looked at me and laughed and said, "Geez, it sounds like you guys are dating". Anyway looking back today with more clarity and perspective, I just couldn't help but wonder a bit. If I had to guess I'd still guess that he was straight. It's just that if he isn't....MAN, did I blow it! Actually I honestly wasn't particularly attracted to him once we got into high school. I no longer had those kinds of feelings for him, and he really was "in the friend zone". But who knows how things could have been different? It could have been good, REALLY good,... theoretically